Feelin' better today, yippie. I even scrubbed meself from head to toe... only problem is, now my folks are begining to cough. Meh. We'll get more medicine & lemons.

The point is... well, I dunno. I like you too much?

Chamomile or hibiscus + 1 teaspoon of honey + juice from 1/2 lemon = only liquid that's yummy when you're sick when I drink plain water it tastes awful.

Now, back to oddities:

Let me be the 14th person to say "WTF" are they 'challenged'?

• QUOTE(Pisces of the Mountain)
  There is nothing wrong with being a virgin, good infact, but she was really suprised to find out that a lot of 18 year olds have had sex before.

Sounds like she was very sheltered as well as a virgin. I was living a sheltered life until age 20 and then got real culture shock attending the University of New Mexico. I didn't even know there were still Indians. Or that they had cultural problems going on.



Milanius, I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better, dear. Too bad that your folks are now showing symptoms, but hopefully you are now immune and can take care of them if needs be.



You all are right to wait for the right person and time to have your first sexual experience .. it will be magical that way, as it should be.

Thanks Ibis paps is already feeling a bit under the weather; no fever or anything but he coughs and feels fatiqued. He promised he'd go to doctors tomorrow if he feels worse in the morning - knowing how much more he hates doctors [not blaming him, he spent huge portion of life in hospitals, like all of us] that's decent.
Mom already has same capsules I have. I just hope she doesn't get the ****ty end of this.

Now, back to sports:

Yuis, it'll be the most magical 15 4 minutes of bump'N'grind on the backseat of one of their cars

Yes, the school is challenged.

I'm so sore and exhausted... uggghhh. Can't take much more.

Sore? EXAUSTED?! Oh **** no, not you too

*molests Zarrexaij with tea, chicken soup, vitamin C and Soulfly ballads*

In any case I'm getting better, parents are getting worse. Mom, being as stubborn as always, insists that she does at least 50% of food making. Gofungleammit.

so im around still... just dont have internet. it suxorz. i just realized i dont have any more to say.

Nice to see you SS .. too bad that you don't have internet. That must really suck. I don't know how I'd stand it if I couldn't play online games and do forums. Guess I'd read alot of books.

I've been here so long (since may last year) that I don't know what I did (I do, but nothing too major).

Got back from visiting my ex... did the rest of my homework... overall I'm exhausted.

Not to mention I'm broke now. I spent 57 dollars, mostly on gas.

I won't be seeing him as much from now on. He doesn't want to mess up what I have going for a guy who likes me.

How much is 57$ in canudian? Because, eh, all I got is this funny money with ducks on it. <_<

Anyway, GAS - does that mean you got your driver's license, or am I entirely too lost for this time of the day? [again; I only have some 10-12 hours in front of screen to blame] nm, resolved

Anyway, ducks. Oh, if only I could be a bird, with a bird brain, flapping my wings happily, unaware of people trying to make a meal out of me...

This post has been edited by milanius: Oct 7 2007, 11:50 PM

Well, currently the Canadian dollar is basically even with the American dollar so right now 57$ Canadian = about 57$ American. Hehe, now it'll be us Canadians coming across the border to buy your cheap wares! Muhahaha!

I wouldn't be surprised if that happened. XD

Or their cheap hoes.

[can't believe I wrote 'hoes' just now >_____> I blame bad influences]


Anyway. More serious note. I can't believe I'm watching neo-nazi movement causing riots and violence in my country, not being properly beaten by the police [which seems indifferent at times, and they do clubbing only when they really need to]. People of Novi Sad city marched yesterday during the anti-fascist gathering, provoked by the announcement that there will be a rally organized by these... blackshirts [thankfully, the city officials banned it]. A group of 50-60 white nationalist, many of them not even citizens of this country, threw stones at the peaceful members of the march. It was only when things escalated beyond anything reasonable that the police took action and began arresting people. Now, everyone who has 1/2 of brain here thinks they would've let nazi bastards grow into 200, 2000, 20.000-strong movement and turn a blind eye to it if there weren't violent action like this; and although our rotten parliament loudly condemns the neo-nazi movement, it only serves as a method of gathering points for nearly all parties there, especially the right wing ones which then seem more docile and tame, and they can say "Oh, well look at those horrible extremists, we're nothing like them" - when in reality, they would gladly have Serbia without gays, Gypsies, junkies and minorities. Smashing.

Where was I going with this? I am sick of past, and I am sick of white nationalists. Patriotism is too often put in the same plane of reasoning with nationalism and ultra-nationalism, and that just won't fly. I am a patriot, and anti-fascist. I am also enraged and ashamed today, not only because this happened, but because people who lead this country here LET IT HAPPEN.

This post has been edited by milanius: Oct 8 2007, 11:50 AM

Neo-nazis should be kicked in the nads.

Nope, too good for them. Think much worse, dear, like "How would Sheogorath-Hussein crossbreed on his worst bad day deal with these arses" bad. That's how bad it has to be.


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Meh, to hell with idiots. I have heard with my sister, for the first time o'er internet with working mic & webcam [she finally figured out what was the right color for microphone, pink one XD]. I am so, so, so, so, so happy now. My parents will hear her and see her at Sunday. That will mean world to them.

This post has been edited by milanius: Oct 9 2007, 12:32 AM

For the first time, your English is somewhat broken. Mil, has the sickness affected your ability to type English or something? xD

Sorry, I'm just picking on you. I don't mean to be mean.

What up people? How is this stuff rolling? My spiritual transofmration is continuing at a surprisingly rapid rate though its not quite like I expected, my challenges in life are very unique and atypical. Honestly right now I'm just trying to start my life up and gain some footing without having to cry back to mom every 5 seconds and I get hit in the face with back-to-back-to-back revelations and now I'm seriously considering living in a monsatery for the next few years. And as bizarre as this sounds, it also seems as if life is oushing me into making this decision. Everything I've wanted out of life has stopped coming regularly and my attachment to these things which are now either irregular or non-existent has caused my to go into bouts of depression and confusion. I won't say I'm depressed because I have memories of being depressed, and I feel a hundred times better on a bad day today then back then. I'm just saying the uncertainty is a little hard to bear. I don't know whether I should just screw social norm and do what I want since I'm not getting what I want out of youth anyway or should I stick with my only other option: apply at a new college since there are about 50 reasons why I can't go to this one, make new friends, and continue to feel unfulfilled.

haha, first time?
[and yuis, back in HS I'd probably go and hide myself in shame if some girl was making this much fun out of me - now, my skin is a bit thicker... and I care less ]

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Weather is super-gloomy and wet. Not really ideal for anything but sleeping. Or years-old RPG's with guns.

This post has been edited by milanius: Oct 9 2007, 11:26 AM

Perhaps I don't spend enough time in this thread, but I had a bit of a hard time following your line of thought here. But I'll try to make a few comments anyway, in the spirit of chorrol friendship.

I'd love to say that my many years of life have given me some wisdom and insight that would be of use to you, but my age and experience pale in comparison with some of our more distinguished members. However, I will way this: above all else, it is necessary to be true to yourself. When you choose to do something, whether it be to stay in school or to join a monastery, it must be because you want to do it. If you are anything like me (I won't comment on the probability of that), you may find it hard to figure out what you really want from life. In moments of uncertainty, it may be unclear what the best choice is. The best thing to do at these times is to talk to friends, family, etc. and try to discern what you want most from life. If you can figure that out, it will provide a direction and goal for your efforts.

I hope I haven't rambled too much. Perhaps someone wiser than me could provide more insightful advice.

doomie,

mplantinga has given you some good advice and I will try to add. Leave all your options open and try to let the best things happen for you. Decisions are often just leaving things clear to letting life happen as it should.

Your talk of a monestary reminds me of a friend of ours here in florida who is into Budhism. He took a trip to India once, not knowing if he'd come back. He did return, very enlightened and is still involved with a temple here. Your choice of a new college might be a good one; but remember that much of the problems you are experiencing now might follow you there.

Problems need to be confronted and solved, moving to avoid them rarely works. You are still the same person no matter where you go.