So I was going to read the fan fiction section and I saw something that was not fanfic. Backup. Clicked again. Still no fanfic but some post about a game or something. I backed up again and then realized what had happened. I always click the second thing to go to fan fiction and the first thing to go to general. Some one added a new section and I'd been clicking that out of habit. Oh. I wish they had put it on the bottom or something, next to the Role Playing section.

I finished The Metamorphosis today. Well, that was a depressing ending. Slightly.

I'm excited for tomorrow. I'm going to show my AP Studio Art teacher what I finished over the weekend. Let's just say that it's very Tool (Lateralus in particular) inspired.

For some reason (or combination of reasons), I have been profoundly depressed for the last month or so.

Maybe it is because October is the anniversary of my mother's death, perhaps it is because I seem to be working more and accomplishing less--- or maybe I am just a morose Irish so-and-so.

I know the solution- I simply need to get over myself and move forward. Sometimes that is a bit difficult.

In any event, I am thankful that this community is here to listen to me venting. Thanks, folks.

Anyway, happiness is probably over-rated.

Tomorrow (Nov 22nd) is Thanksgiving Day, a holiday in the U.S. that involves hopping in the car and driving to visit distant family that you have not seen since last Thanksgiving. Activities include eating too much food and watching football on TV. So anyway, I mention this here because many of us won't be on the internet, and thus not on the forums ... now you know why.

treydog: for many, the shorter day & longer night of this time of year causes depression. Just a thought.

Ohh noos .. my favorite doggy is depressed? You know Trey, Blockhead has something there to think about .. I suffer from SAD, Seasonal Affective Disorder. Take medicine from the V. A. clinic for it; and some other things like thyroid. But for many people the longer darkness does have an effect on mood.



I cannot remember when your birthday is now ... but maybe this will cheer you some .. consider it a Happy Thanksgiving pic:



http://i55.photobucket.com/albums/g144/Ath...ydogatparty.jpg

I got my ACT scores in the mail, so its a fully confirmed composite score of 30.

Applying for college tomorrow.

Yesterday my ex came to visit me. We drove back to this father's house and spent some time together. I'll be interesting going up to college with him. He likes it and doesn't like it up there. He doesn't like it up there because he's lonely... :/

This post has been edited by Zarrexaij: Nov 23 2007, 01:09 AM

Just got back from the Vader concert and Vader themselves were amazing; I had a blast rocking out to them. The other 3 bands were a mixed bag; Cattle Decapitation were certainly entertaining just because they were completely nuts, though I wouldn't personally listen to their music in CD form. They're more of a live band.
Light This City had a bit of a slow start, the first few songs they played didn't really stand out or blow me away. Once they started playing stuff from "Facing The Thousand" I noticed a definite change of quality in the material, there were some really nice melodic guitars on those songs. Veil of Maya had a few moments of interest but their vocalist just needed to shut up and let the music speak for itself. The vocalist wasn't bad per se, in fact he possessed a decent variety of extreme vocals, it's just that he overdid it as far as I'm concerned.

Overall, due to the entertaining performances from Cattle Decapitation and Light This City and the ridiculously awesome set by Vader, tonight's concert was really great. I'm also happy that the friend I brought along enjoyed Vader and Light This City.

Damn it Trey, you sound just like me now. And for less reason :/ turn around, look back at what you've achieved, at what you have. Sometimes, what we have and concieder small things means a world to someone else... come to think about it, maybe I should look back too and be thankful for what I have - a home and loving parents. Some don't even got that much.

There were times during this last week when I wanted to quit the damn job because pain in my entire body, which was too soft for too long, was unbearable. Now, however, when I have some new developments going on, I have grim determination to stay there for at least 30-day period and honor that agreement. After that... well, read rest of my post down there, folks.

And I should really stop beating myself for being a computer redneck, compared to you lot [Starge, R, Zarr, I'm talking about you]. In a land in which my colleagues don't even know the bare basics, my knowledge of 'what does this button do' comes in handy. At least I won't starve to death anytime soon.

We really need a celebration smiley. Oh well, cake will do just imagine it's cheesecake.

Hopefully, that will change once you're closer to him

...
My fingers, bones and joints hurt viciously every morning. I understand that's understandable when I'm dragging 2.5l 6-packs wrapped in plastic with no handle all day long, using only them but that gives me little consolation. I hate this job.

Luckily, there is hope ahead. Son of old friends and neighbors who moved decade ago, the one whose C-64 we abused when I was a hatchling, is now regional manager at a certain firm that deals PC configurations and components. He has offered me a job at their depot here; it's a great opportunity, since I'd be able to watch and learn from techies first hand, as well as have a good pay and lots of free time [normal working hours, yay for weekends].

I didn't want to say anything earlier since I didn't want to jinx it, but it's confirmed now. I can start working there from mid-December. As soon as I finish with this engagement I have now, I'm going there and not looking back. Hopefully, Mil will have his day.

This post has been edited by milanius: Nov 23 2007, 12:02 PM

Oh my dearest friend! You who are the most gifted writer I know and also a really great person, whom I do care a lot for....please don't be sad! I'm sitting here in my nice hotel room, surfing these forums just because I love all the ppl here...Now you know you are very special to me, also being one of the two persons here that I actually have met IRL...So I hope you feel better knowing that there's at least one person far up in the northern parts of the world who is thinking of you, hoping the best for you. I know you will acheive all that you decide to, and you will always be my friend...

Enough rambling for now...but you see my point, right?

Thanks everyone. I figured it would be therapeutic (ph). to cry on your virtual shoulders.... and it was. You folks are the best. Ibis, Minque- we are some of the "old folks" around here- your words of wisdom resonate with me. Mil- what can I say? Thank you- you are right about realizing what I've got.... Holding lots of good thoughts for the computer job- I may consider becoming a member of the "Nerd Herd" (gratuitous "Chuck" reference") myself....

I hope everyone has a wonderful, joyful winter season, filled with promise for the year to come. I know I have already been blessed beyond measure by having so many wonderful friends.

Be well.... and I hope I will have some new Athlain sooner rather than later....

I was reading the RSS feed from slashdot, when I saw this sentence: "Sometimes getting a grasp on what Open Source is and how it can be leveraged is difficult."

Let's just fix that up a little bit: "Sometimes getting a grasp on what Open Source is and how it can be used is difficult."

That's better. Just a pet peeve of mine: use the correct word and don't shoehorn an additional new meaning onto an existing word. Death to CorporateSpeak™. I'd send them an email about it but I'm almost certain that it would be ignored.

When I have a peeve or grievance to voice with a company or person that I think won't listen .. I send the angry response in giant letters .... so that whoever reads the letter will at least take notice.





You could try that; unless huge letters are a petpeeve of yours too.

This post has been edited by Ibis: Nov 26 2007, 06:41 AM

I hate big letters, they're annoying.

What also annoys me is that I will have 1 free day at Thursday. %#$&!%$@!... ne lipsi magarce do zelene trave...

Sorry for the huge font, I know its considered rude but that's why I do it to people who probably are going to ignore you like corporate gaming companies who've charged you for a wrong month or something like that. It does get their attention and they probably think they are dealing with a lunatic and its better to just give in and get rid of you.



Milanius, was that Serbian cussing? Looks fascinating. Are they working you too many hours now? I hope not.

Too many hours and too many kilograms.

That was a saying, actually: "Donkey, don't drop dead yet, green grass is near!" [approx.] - we use it when we're toiling at something that crushes both body and spirit to mock ourselves *shrugs*

As for the kilos thing: there are 6-packs of 2l/2k plastic beer bottles [12 kilos], 6x2.5l [15 kilos]
and big bad Coke/Fanta/Sprite 8-packs [16 kilos, god I ****ing hate Coke]. By the end of this month I'm going to hate the very sight of beer and soft drinks.

p.s.: with one free day in 2 weeks [in theory - in real life, people there wait for a month before they get a day off] that totals to 52 work hours per week. Overtime during religious festivities is obligatory. Overtime isn't paid. Salary is equivalent to poo.

This post has been edited by milanius: Nov 26 2007, 11:54 PM

Well, I applied for college Saturday. I sent off my transcript and AP scores... I'm hoping OSU gets them soon. I can't wait to be accepted!

Then I have to pay 30 more bucks for Resident Hall sh... crap. >.<

I'm hungry, and my father's too lazy to make anything. If I put lasagna in, it won't be done until 9 or so....

Yeah, oh snap.

Awww, that are teh suck, Milanius. And fifty-two hours a week... holy crap. That sucks.

Whoa, Zarr, you got a Mass Effect avatar; I thought I was the only one here who was interested in it. No one ever paid any of my posts about it much attention...... I was thinking about writing the review for it in the new forum.

I can haz Mass Effect?

It's right under Half-Life and the Orange Box on my list of "teh awsumst gamez evr."

Wrex is my favorite character. Garrus is right under him. I think turians are cool looking. They're like birds without the feathers.

I paid for my resident hall application today. When I get my contract in the mail, I have to pay an additional 150 bucks for my dorm contract. Holy crap. But it's worth it if I'll get a dorm to myself. No way am I having a room mate. Not going to happen.

I have one of two recommendations I need. I'll write my essay tomorrow afterschool. Only 100 Oklahoman students get it,but it's worth the try.

Funny thing happened... I put in the lasagna today and thought "Hmm, my mom will probably come home with tacos." About thirty minutes after I took it out of the oven, my mom came home with Taco Bell...

This post has been edited by Zarrexaij: Nov 28 2007, 04:46 AM

I would be interested in Mass Effect the only problem is that I don't have an X-box 360. Until I do, I won't put much thought into potential games I want, my laptop isn't really of the gaming variety so PC games aren't all that gripping either.

Well, I can cross my fingers and see what X-mas will bring me I guess. Other than that, I'm quite happy that I don't have to go to classes tomorrow and I can sleep in. Sleeping in is awesome!