Hwut!!!

Eye just wander in and attracted by the smell of coffee...I see...

a hippodogamus???

Woo Hoo !!! Foxy !!!!

Yoo hoo! mALXy!!! :meh:

I am finishing a chapter for my Pirate story as we speak. It should be up shortly, I think you will like it. The Dagoth story I just did for that Feyfolken contest, it isn't ongoing.

My name is Foxy, and the reason I'm here
Is because I was invited by friends most dear
Namely, three or four minxes with red hair
Who whispered that HERE were some stories to share
So tardily came I a calling, and here at once was a-fallin'
under the spell of those who pursue the writer's calling...

I intend to explore every nook of this place
I intend to put behind every writer a 'face'
of personality, of quirks, of technique and style
and know exactly why he or she our imaginations beguile -

And in so doing, hope to start old friendships anew
And also gain more, adding to Foxy's motely crew
Of netizens who instruct, entertain and tease
my fancy - you, who does my humours please -

So thank you for allowing me to come in here
And partake of the conversation in voices clear
I have now become a netizen of place Chorrol
And in closing, let me rhyme you with - blood red coral!!!

Welcome Foxy!

Thought I'd grab a cup of coffee to relieve the monotony of exam revision (don't we all love it) and to wish everyone a happy Easter and much chocolate.

I also wandered if there are any old school IRC hands among our (relatively) new members because if you haven't noticed chorrol has a channel but it's awfully quiet just now. Would be great to see some more folks there than just myself and Rane. If anyone is that old school and uses IRC its the chatspike network (irc.chatspike.net) channel #chorrol . Or you can attempt to use the java client. I idle a fair amount on it but tend to be around in the evenings (BST), though possibly not tonight.

I forgot we even had a chat. Haven't even tried to log on in forever.

On a more personal note, my band has its first gig coming up next week, which is pretty cool. We worked hard writing and practicing so I think it'll go well. After that, it's all about getting stuff recorded and writing more songs, which will all hopefully lead to playing more shows.

Yay! that's great! Some day i could say: "Well I sorta know the famous Danny" I wish you all good luck

Congrats on the gig!

Well, I am exhausted. I just spent the last couple of days handling deer out on the Kaibab Plateau--seeing how much fat they have left on their bodies after the winter snows. Fun, but a couple of long days o' work. By the way, on the scale of incredibly improbable sights three mule deer suspended from the bottom of a flying helicopter must rank rather high.

And now it's the weekend! Hoo-ray weekend!

Almost exactly one month ago, in early March, I came down with a very extreme case of bad attitude. I wasn't sure what was wrong with me. I was just angry at everything and everyone, I wouldn't talk to anyone, got into a few arguments at work with customer, nearly got fired. Got into a couple of fights at home, both physical and verbal with the roommates. It passed after about a week. Still wasn't sure what the hell was wrong with me.

On saturday, March 27th, I was working a double shift at work, and my brother called me while we were at our peak hours during lunch rush. He then left a text message saying to call him back and that it was important. Seemingly run-of-the-mill, my brother would never send me a text message like that unless it involved money or someone died.

Someone died.

When I was 4, and my brother 8, our mother married a wonderful human being, my stepfather. I reject the notion that blood is thicker then water because of this man. I could write pages about everything he did for and gave to me: A normal life, a loving father, a moral teacher, someone who listened, my best friend. Understand that with the exception of my brother, anyone who shares blood with me, including my real father is not close to me in any way shape or form. He alone is my personal definition of family.

My parents divorced in 1994 over extraneous circumstances, that is, it was outside forces that tore their marriage apart, in spite of this, he could have walked away, moved on with his life. He never did. He stayed in my life, dealt with my teenage angst, and continued to be my rock, even into my late twenties now.

My stepfather was dead at least two weeks when they finally found him. Around early March. He had spent his retirement city-hopping along the west coast of the United States, finally settling in the Sacramento area. He was happy where he was living. Due to the distance between us, we only saw each other a few times a year. He turned sixty one in January, and died of a long onset of high blood pressure and hardened arteries. I was not there, and never had the chance to say good bye.

For the first time in almost twenty years I have cried, and for the first time in a long time, I truly feel alone.

But, alas. Tears were not his way, even as I write this with sadness I know I am disappointing him. He wanted people to be happy for the time he was alive, not sad that he was gone. Death is an eventuality, something that cannot be avoided he would say.

I miss you Dad. Nag me about that.

I'm so sorry to hear this Black Hand, please accept my condolences for your loss.

Tears are not a weakness, nor a sin. They are a tribute to the one you loved and miss. I still have moments, over 15 years on, where I forget for just a second that I can't tell my Dad something....

That is not intended as a warning, but as a comfort. Because the most important people in our lives are always with us. So, after due consideration, I go ahead and tell Dad what it is that is on my mind.

You are in my thoughts Black Hand.

I am so sorry for your loss Black Hand. You gave a wonderful tribute to your Step-Dad, and his legacy is in you by the heart if not by blood. My sincerest condolences.

That's a damn shame. Sounds like your stepfather was a fine man. My thoughts are with you.

Thank you to all for the condolences, thoughts and prayers. In case you were wondering what was keeping me out of commission this time, that was it. I've recovered mostly from the shock part, and my grief is largely subsided, but I guess its true what Treydog says, it never really goes away fully. Its not meant to be statement that evokes pity, rather, I have 'spoken' to him a few times and he simply replies as he would in life.

"I appreciate the thought, but, If I'm gone, Im gone, and theres nothing anyone can do about it. Appreciate the time we had together and..uhhh..just move on with your life. See now that life really is short, time really is precious, and if you have things that you want to get done before its your time, you better hurry up and do them. Im going to enjoy my little dirt-nap, now that nobody can pester me about anything."

Might sound macabre but that's what he would say, and hes still in my head thank god.

Oh Blackie, I just read about your terrible loss, and it made me cry. Yes it did because I fully understand how you feel, the 26th of march it was two years since my father passed away, and the pain was and is still very sharp.

You are very much in my thoughts, believe me. Your pain is my pain.

I just can't say anymore just now...

Hey there, people. I was off the radar for a while, dealing with some personal issues. What with school, work, and trying to find stable housing, my internet presence completely faded away. Things have certainly improved, but a lot slipped my mind. However, I got back into Morrowind recently and it reminded me of a certain little corner of the net..

It's good to be back people! I intend on making this more of a regular thing. How is everybody?

EDIT: Holy crap! I've been reading over my old posts, I can't believe how much I've changed. I suppose I have been visiting this site since I was 16 after all. Man, nothing has given me a better idea of how much one can grow up than that. It's almost kind of spooky, I forgot how much I invested in these forums.

This post has been edited by Intestinal Chaos: Apr 19 2010, 01:19 AM

Lol, don't let that scare you away from sticking around. I am new to the forum, so hope it isn't overstepping my bounds to say Welcome Back !!