Wow. I'm amazed and relieved to see this. We all worried about you, Malx. The impostor was quickly discovered and banned after only a couple of (short) days. Although your situation sounds like a difficult one, I don't think I am alone in saying that we're just glad to see you back and get some news from you.

Stay safe and I hope things improve for you.

Welcome back to mALX (Whom I never had the pleasure of meeting)

And also, given the date (at least down here) my heart goes out to all the victims 9/11, and their families and friends. Actually, to all those who have suffered losses in any way, shape or form, due to violence and war.

This post has been edited by Vital: Sep 11 2014, 11:56 AM

Finally...

D'you know, in the umpteen years I've been doing that...Well, since the film came out, anyways...You're the first person to ever get it... ...

*Continues to applaud mALX heartily*...

*Thinks*...

*Is unsure who mALX Heartily is, though they should be banned!!!! DAMN THEM!!! *Shakes fist**...

*Therefore, applauds mALX...Most heartily...*

Evening all...

As English is only my second language, I cannot find the words to accurately describe how happy I am to see you back here, mALX! I´m not sure I´d manage that even in my first language

I/we have missed you so much all this time, fearing the worst but always keeping a candle of hope burning. I must say, I did buy into the imposter but I only did so simply because I so desperately wanted to see you back here. Curse whoever it was for doing such a thing. Damn them to hell!


My dearest mALX, I´m sorry to hear about your current condition but I will continue to think about you and hope for a speedy recovery and never forget that if you ever feel down, we´re always here if you want to talk



Welcome back, mALX. Welcome back!

@ To all of you:

You all mean so much to me. Some of us have become closer (to me) than some of my RL friends, and to hear your kind words now; to know you care back - this means the world to me.

That you know me well enough to discern me from an imposter - that is Awesome. Yesterday, when I first read that imposter's claims - I was genuinely worried they would be believed because they had obviously studied my style of hyperactive squirrel banter. I could see how easy it would be to fool someone who cared and hoped for good news; especially when so much time had passed.

One thing I was absolutely sure of, that none of you, (my friends on here) - could or would have ever done that.

After reading about that incident, I did wonder if I would have trouble convincing everyone it was really me this time, and so was glad to see my old email address still works (because I thought that address was connected to the Internet provider we aren't using anymore).

For all the pain that imposter caused in my name, I feel terrible for; and angry. I am just so relieved that many of you knew me well enough to see/feel the difference in the person behind the posts. I do not seek any revenge against them (except that they have to see the complete failure of their plot) - and maybe it will draw us closer as a community, and I hope it does.

To all of you, thank you so much for your friendship, for caring. I have missed you all tremendously. One thing about facing mortality - you see every precious moment of missed opportunities to say what you feel for another. I don't want the opportunity to pass again without speaking it to those who have touched my heart. Most of you know who you are, (but I've gushed it out in Emails, PM's, and posts anyway). ... (Still at it, I type really slow these days).

PS: Oh - and Foxy wrote me a beautiful poem, it was in my Email this morning. Now THAT was worth coming back from the dead for!


I was going to try to answer each comment individually, but would still be here typing by 10 this evening as slow as I type now, so instead I'll post this:

You all mean the world to me.

We love you mALX!

Wut he sedd!

<33333





This post has been edited by mALX: Sep 13 2014, 06:38 AM

In celebration of mALX’s joyous return, here’s a postcard from Grits World.


Tonight I was driving The Boy back from The Girlfriend’s house. We were nearly home.

The Boy: “A clown lives in that house.”

Grits: “Oh God.” (Grits does not enjoy clowns.) “How can you tell?”

The Boy: “His big-ass clown van is parked in the yard.”

Grits: “What the hell is a clown van?” (Proximity to a clown makes me use harsh language.)

The Boy: “It’s a white van with a clown on the side.”

Grits: (speechless)

The Boy: “I don’t understand entertainers.”

...

mALX.

You're back.

...

*explodes in happiness*

Urk, clowns give me the creeps! Who was mentioning watching that Millionaire dating show - can't remember who on here said it. Didn't that show have an episode where a guy insisted on going out with the girl in a clown outfit? Urk, time to pay NRA dues, lol.





I have been looking for your avatar since I got back Uleni

*mALX squeezes Uleni like a boa constrictor*

"Stand still, I'm trying to hug you!"

I have missed you a TON my dear friend!!!




This post has been edited by mALX: Sep 14 2014, 05:31 AM

Wow. Just wow. Awesome!

Welcome back mAlx! It's good to see you're still with us! We were worried sick, you know!

Hope your health soon improves further so that you can do more on your own, and hope that your hubbie finds a good, lasting job soon!

Again, welcome back!

mALX!

When I saw your name on the active users, I thought the damn forum was glitching again, but...

YAY!



Can't tell you how delighted I am, welcome back a thousand times!



Ah, hell with it. Have some more cake.

Thank you so much, Starge! I appreciate that, and join you in that hope!

The physical return has been slow, there are no compensations and/or work-arounds to make that progress any speedier. Lots of time and a lot of physical therapy seems to be the only avenue of recovery physically, no shortcuts there.

The worst for me is the memory issues. I can't remember a verbal conversation as I'm having it, have to keep finding ways to (hit the refresh button) prod my mind to finish a sentence.

Written communication is easier because there are work-arounds. I can re-read (repeatedly) what I am trying to answer and what I have said so far. I have trouble remembering words and spellings, but can access a dictionary/thesaurus/or ask my husband what word I'm looking for or how to spell it. It is slow, but do-able.

Catching up on the Fics is the hardest thing I'm doing right now, I have to re-read each paragraph repeatedly to absorb anything. It is limiting progress (for anyone whose Fic I haven't reached yet). Right now I am catching up page 2 of the boards, (On Vera's story, DE!).

There is one upside; at least I consider it a good thing = one thing this stroke did not take from me:

My unconquerable spirit.

There is a poem my father gave me when I was fourteen years old, I have lived by its message since. It has pulled me through every trial in my lifetime. Anyone who read my story will recognize this as Uriel Septim's inspirational message to Maxical, but the poem is actually Invictus, by William Ernest Henley.


Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.


In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.


Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.


It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.


I hope if anyone else on here has tribulations (they are afraid may overwhelm them), that they remember these words and find the strength to come back against any adversity. They kept me going when I would have given up many times throughout my life, but most especially this past year.




This post has been edited by mALX: Sep 14 2014, 05:20 PM

The daughter, it seems, is as wise as her father. Thank you for sharing that poem, mALX. I shall keep a portion of it to remind myself of things I need to be reminded of.

mALX, I remember us talking about how important that poem is to you. It surely is relevant now! Reading it now conjured the image of a pale, small Khajiit – her ears flattened against a shock of red hair. Her tail twitching as it stirs up motes of dust from the sands of the Arena. Bravely standing against whatever challenges lay ahead.

You’re . . . AWESOME!

mALX...For the poem... ...

Getting there...Baby steps...Always the baby steps...

** Maybe I should write this a little clearer just to make sure I am saying what I mean:

RE: The FanFic section:

I started catching up reading on Page #2 to catch up the oldest stuff I missed first. I am working my way toward Page #1, that way the most current stories will be back on top when I am done catching up. Sorry, I should have been clearer on how I said that.




I'm rooting for you, McB. You actually do bounce back from adversity, I have seen you do it with my own eyes. You are like a rubber ball that bounces right up after it was thrown down - one of the things I love about you. Think about it, and you'll know I'm right. You always come back stronger, that is why people can depend on you in the long run even if in the short run you might have struggles.

That’s how I do it when I have a lot to catch up on, too. I get less confused that way. Don’t worry, mALX, I’m sure I’m not alone in saying I’m just glad you’re back and able to participate in any way at all. I know it helped me to have stories to look forward to when I was alone for hours with just pain. I hope the FanFiction pages are the same for you and not a source of stress or feeling behind. It will all still be there when you get to it.

Thank you for the understanding and encouragement. I have missed the stories a lot, but since I've come back have also been feeling that "way, way behind" feeling, wanting to push myself to get caught up. I thought it would be a lot quicker than this, but I have found myself tiring too easily to catch up as quickly as I would like to do. I just hope everyone understands if it takes a while. I'm really trying not to push myself beyond my capability at this point.




This post has been edited by mALX: Sep 14 2014, 07:51 PM