Getting over someone is so hard when you haven't been out with them, but I would give it a try. Stopping obsessing over her is a good place to start, as it will mess up your interpretations of your & her emotions. Trying to stop obsessing definitely won't work so start obsessing over someone else, don't flirt or sleep with them just spend time and think about them, it may put things into perspective. A relationship with her could be an option, girls have been known to date with an age difference larger than that the other way and even though I don't know anyone who has gone out with a girl 4 years older than him, the guys who went out with girls 2 years older had far more successful relationships than with younger girls. But chances are she thinks that 4 years is too much, asking her out could be a bit too intense but admitting to her that you have sexual tension with her would be a good step if you are willing to risk your friendship.

Yeah, I'll be sure to bring some paper and a pen along. I don't know if I'll work too hard on my fanfics though. I want to focus for a bit on some of my other work.

For example, I've been fleshing out my Kendjarr concept. Basically, a Kendjarr in my universe fills the role of an elf, namely humanoid but not human. The idea was that they evolved to mimic the top predator of the planet (human, duh) as a sort of camouflage. Similar to how some flies have stripes similar to bees and wasps. They look human and most parts function like a human's Reproduction doesn't by the way, so interbreeding can't even be attempted. This is a conscious effort to evade any possible trauma's of 'weird relationships.'

Their behaviour is decidedly more animalistic in ways yet in other ways they appear more civilized.

I've got their behaviour set pretty much, but I'm still working on ways to distinguish them from humans. So far I have fine scales (indistinguishable from normal skin without a close look), cold-blooded, carnivorous, enlarged eyes with big pupils for a life in an environment where it's always night, a symbiosis with luminiscent bacteria that causes certain parts of their body to glow and curved claws for climbing and grasping. This glow is used for communication and recognition. (Each Kendjarr family has a distinguishable dominant colour.)

Oh, and I'm particularly proud of the ears. Mostly because I managed to stay away from taking human ears and making them pointy. Read on. The 'me' person is a human and the she is Kendjarr. This particular Kendjarr is still a child, had no contact with other Kendjarr and is very basic in behaviour. Her behaviour mostly resolves about stealing food at this point.


There was something that caught me, more than the hair, more than the eyes or that remarkably pale complexion. It were the ears who, although being in the right position, were nothing like the common ear found on a human’s head. In fact, I wasn’t even sure if they were ears, so different were they. They were the most amazing organic structure I’d ever seen, coloured a breathtaking red. A thin and flexible stalk that hung downward in a slight arc, long enough to reach down to her shoulders if it would bent far enough. And from this stalk branched countless smaller stalks, which branched again, which branched again, till the final result was something which resembled seaweed, only infinitely more complex. Each individual branch slowly waved back and forth, like a leaf in the wind. At random intervals, the whole stalk would flutter as if to focus on some minute sound.
I couldn’t help but try to touch them. Gently, I probed forward with a finger, doing my best not to scare her. When my finger made contact, the ear curled up into a tight bundle. A few moments later, the ear gently unwrapped back into its full splendour. ,,Hmm, very sensitive, isn’t it?” I whispered. I was now pretty much convinced that despite the visual gap between mine and hers, I was looking at a pair of genuine and functional ears

oh yeah!

guess who just scored a 20 or so year old ibanez bass guitar that was owned by a member of my dad's old band back in the 70's?

me.

Good man, saving us from another iteration of an aged cliche

From your description of the ears, I can't help but wonder at the frequency response to audio. Specifically, would this type of ear respond to ultrasonic frequencies (the sound of computer monitors and "dog whistles" will drive it crazy) or instead to subsonic frequencies (earthquake early warnings)?

Would this ear cause this race to be sensitive to the loudness of sounds to the point of they'll be asking your main character to "speak softer please" every five minutes?

A bit of........delayed good news. I now have Morrowind (and Oblivion) on PC. However its not on THIS Computer, mine unfortunately does not have Internet just yet, but I will soon, and when I do, I may start including screenshots on my Fanfic, I may even edit the First Volume with my Adventures on PC. That is all.

Shogun, congratulations with your guitar. I tried playing one once. Managed to cut my fingers.

Black Hand, all I can say is happy playing. If you ever make Sethyas on Oblivion, try to give us some pictures, ok?


I'll think about it, Blockhead. Lessee, I think they would have developed more towards the ultra-sonic range of their spectrum. The diet consists of small insects and animals, some of which likely make high pitched sounds themselves. Earthquakes aren't much of an issue in their environment. They're far away from any sort of tectonic activity.

About the 'speak softer' I'll have to think a bit more. More likely the ears would simply fold up partially or completely during very loud noise.

Well, its kinda hard to make him on OB. No facial tatoos. But if you put on the Mythic Dawn Robe on a Male Dunmer with Grey/Black Windbound Hair, maybe Mehrunes Razor from the plugin, you pretty much got Sethyas in OB.

Dear god, the heat. THE HEAT. I could've literally passed out today if there wasn't for the air conditioning and this huge fan I used throughout the day. It's gonna be much worse tomorrow and at Friday... damn.

Hmm so the killer-heat has reached Serbia?? take care Milan....ya hear? I want you to be ok....

Gracias Pisces, I pretended to like another girl to explain my lovey-dovey mood and allow myself to vent some of those feelings without letting anyone know they were actually for my roommie. I had a crush on this girl before but got to know her and realized she was just not my type, we're still pretty good friends though. So I started hanging out with her more and flirting with her again (She seemed pretty happy since I hadn't flirted with her since we first met, even though she has a boyfriend)

And yeah, a guy can be as old as he wants to be compared to the girl, but the reverse just isn't so past a couple of years. For some girls it is, but an 18 year old boy and a 22 year old woman just don't fit together. She thinks of me like a brother, while I think of her like an angel. I'm not alone thugh, my 19 year old friend has been trying to make a move ever since he got back from Santa Barbara.

Listen to Pisces, he is not only an expert stalker of womenkind but he also has suffered some heartbreaks I think; although he claims attraction to all but defeat by none. Don't even ask him about fathers' discovering him hiding under beds .. !

Oh dear...I´ve been sitting here almost all night by now! But thet´s the way it is when you have a good time..You know I just re-installed Morrowind, and I´m working on getting it back to what it was like a year ago..just before my former lappy crashed....

yayyyy

Woah: if I've done my math right, that's like 3 AM, your time.

Don't forget to put in White Wolf of Lokken Mountain. No Morrowind is complete without it, imoho. And if you like large mindless dungeon crawls, I've made just a few of those.

Well I currently have a crush on one of my friends who is almost 3 years older than me so I can sympathise with doomed. I don't and never was obsessed with her though so I am perfectly fine with remaining friends, though I think she may like me. From past experiances I know that being obsessed causes you to mix up feelings so needs to be avoided in many situations.

And I'm not sure about that defeat by none, what do you mean by defeat, in some situations I like being defeated.

This post has been edited by Pisces: Jul 21 2007, 06:28 AM

My frustration due to the fact I do not have access to my pre-written update until late Sunday, has tempted me to possible leak out some of my plans for the next two installments of my Fan-Fiction....... I still need some persuasion though, I'm bored.

Twists Lord Revan's arm ... hows that for persuasion?




So you're saying you like it on bottom?

I just founding an amazing Youtube news report video. The story it covers is truly inspiring. It's about a kid who has no eyes and can detect objects via echolocation. It's crazy!

Echolocation

This post has been edited by The Metal Mallet: Jul 21 2007, 11:09 PM

Erm, no. I didn't mean that kind. Well, now I might not be willing....

Yeah Pisces obsession clouds your judgment. As someone attempting to incorporate buddhist techniques of mindfulness and meditation in my life I've learned the difference between states of mind with good judgment and bad judgment, and obsession and attachment definitely lead to bad judgment. I just need to remember to be myself and feel free to act lovingly toward her but with certain boundaries kept in mind.

To be honest, she's good for me because she's motivating me to mature so I can be at her level, you know? It's hard at first, overcoming all urges to act petty or non-confrontational, or to be neater and more organized. In fact, I look at myself before I moved in and realized I've gorwn up more in these few months than my whole life. I was just really motivated not to be her bratty little brother.

And now I still like her but I'm not obsessed. I mean, I've gotten over the fact that we'll probably never be together and now, if there is that slight chance she sees something in me that makes her think about what age difference really means, I'll be ready but I'm not going to go out of my way to prove it to her. I'm going to actively try and improve myself, and hope (because I can never give up hope) that she catches on.

Hey guys, I'm going to be leaving this Wednesday for Florida for a National Youth Gathering, I'll be gone for about 10 days.... we are going the whole way in a bus... wish me luck that we either don't crash or so the people in the bus don't get on my nerves and I snap jk but yeah, See you guys when i get back I guess. Don't have to much fun without me... (you guys do know i'm kidding right?)