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The Orphanage
Memories of the orphanage; 3rd Era, year 421
Chapter 3: Alix LencoliaAlix Lencolia was the BladeMaster that trained and tested the Legion on their advanced Blade skills. I'd always watched him from our dorm window because we weren't allowed outside when he was on the grounds. I had to sneak out to spar with Leland that day.
Alix was teaching in the next quad. When his blade instruction ended he came over, hailing Leland before approaching me.
“I almost got stabbed watching you instead of what I should have been." He hesitated.
The fear hit me that he would turn me in to Phillida. "Please, I'm not supposed to be out here."
"Did I see you practicing with your eyes closed?“ Alix rested his hand on his sword hilt in an intriguing way. I nodded, trying to imitate his stance.
“I always do.”
“How do you do it?”
"I don't know, it comes from somewhere in here." I thumped my fist on my chest. "Do you want me to show you?"
He nodded, and I pointed at his shod feet. "You'll have to take your boots and socks off first so you can feel it." He pulled his boots off and set them a ways back.
"You have to feel everything like you are a part of it, first the grass on your feet. No, you have to close your eyes. Okay, now smell the air. Tell me when you're ready." I waited for his signal.
"Okay. Now keep your eyes closed and stand perfectly still. You have to be very quiet." I drew my sword from my sheath very slowly, savoring the sound of it.
His eyes popped open. “I’ve never heard it like this before!”
"Your eyes have to be shut to hear, just listen to it. Close your eyes again and listen for the sounds. First I'll do a sweep, then a thrust." I closed my eyes. Alix stopped me.
"Hold up."
I don't think Alix trusted he wouldn't be stabbed since my eyes were shut. He asked if I would spar with him instead and let him watch me.
"Would I! Er...I mean yes, I would like that very much!"
He started off with all the moves Leland used, then did some I didn't recognize. I stopped him and opened my eyes.
“Wait, what was that you just did? And that move before it? I’ve never done those in training, what are they?”
“Those are moves only the Masters know.”
“Will you teach them to me?”
“Not today, but I promise I will.”
***In my excitement I'd almost done a little jig and sang out a "YIPEE!" song, but lurched to a stop after a couple convulsions. "Oops. I'm not allowed to sing and dance. Commander Phillida calls the healers. Once he thought prisoners were being tortured."
Alix barked out a choking laugh and then strangled it into a cough.
"It's okay to laugh, it doesn't bother me."
He sat down on the grass, indicating I should join him. That signaled my practice with him was over. I plunked down in front of him, watching his expressions closely. I caught his eyes encompassing my ragged clothes and tried to brush some dirt from them. It immediately smudged. His glance flickered at the prison side of the Compound before he spoke.
“Is your father stationed here with the Legion?” It was the first time he had spoken to me as if I were a child.
“I don’t have parents, I live in the orphanage over there.” I pointed.
“They have an orphanage in the prison compound? I didn’t know about it.”
“We aren’t allowed out when people are around. This is where they place the un-adoptable children.”
“Why are the children un-adoptable?” His voice softened in a way only a Breton's can.
“Beast races like me aren't desired. Some are just too old, people always want a baby. Once a child is old enough to get into trouble, no one wants them.”
Alix plucked a blade of grass and wet it with his tongue. He held it tightly on his mouth and blew on it, making a strange sort of whistle sound using the blade of grass. I was thoroughly intrigued, and plucked a blade myself. I tried to imitate him, but only heard the sound of my own breath blowing. Before I could ask how he did it, he distracted me with a question.
“Do you get into trouble a lot?”
I choked. “Oh…er...cough, cough. Only a very little.” The mock discreet voice didn't work any better than covering the lie with a fake cough. His eyes reflected he saw right through them, but to my relief they lit with amusement.
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I was practicing my letters and a shadow fell across the parchment. I looked up to see Commander Phillida standing in front of me with his mouth open as if he'd hesitated mid action to decide how to phrase what he was going to say.
"What did I do?" My mind flew to the bedwetting prank I'd pulled on Hieronymus Lex. A full two days had passed since then, and I hadn't been called down for punishment yet. I tried to school a 'mournful but innocent' look on my face, not really sure how to do either. I'd overheard the lawyers instructing the prisoners to make that face when I was eavesdropping in the Elder Council Chambers.
A scowl came across his face and his mouth clamped shut. After an internal struggle that was visibly seen fluctuating across his face in ripplings of tensed muscles, he shook his head. “We'll discuss that on your return."
Whatever he had been about to say, he'd changed his mind about confronting me right now. That wasn't like him, especially when it was obvious I had a punishment coming. Something was up. I gave up trying to make the face, but kept it in memory in case that was what had turned the tide in my favor.
He cleared his throat. "Pack your things. You are going for a home visit, and I expect you to make a good impression. Is that understood?”
A what? "Huh? What is a home visit?"
"Alix Lencolia has applied to adopt you. You may never have another chance like this, so I suggest you use your time with him wisely."
"Huh? I thought we were unadoptables." What was he talking about? Was I hearing right?
Commander Phillida let out his breath in a gust before answering. "You will spend one weekend with him. This is a trial, to give him an opportunity to consider more carefully after seeing how you behave. It is an opportunity for you, Maxical. A home and family instead of this orphanage. I expect you to make the best impression you can so he does not change his mind about wanting you as his daughter."
"His daughter? I don't understand." What did he mean, I'd be his daughter? I heard Phillida's teeth grinding in response.
"He's talking about placing you with that man you play swords with, Ma'Thjizzrini Qa." Nissy whispered in Ta'agra.
I gaped at Commander Phillida. "You mean I'd live with him? At his house?" I felt a warm spark of excitement. Living with Alix, practicing Blade all the time? I couldn't imagine anything better than that!
"The best advice I can give you would be to talk to your house mother and a few of the older residents in your dorm here. If you learn nothing else, remember this. I
order you to be on your best behavior!" He pointed his finger at me for emphasis. We heard his feet stomping the whole way down the steps.
***"I don't understand, isn't this a good thing? Why is he so mad about it?"
"Couldn't you tell? He's afraid you'll mess up and the adoption won't go through."
I sank down on the bed feeling a knot forming in my stomach. For the first time since coming here I had hope dangling within grasps reach. This place took your caring about anything away, now suddenly it was back. I wanted this adoption to go through so badly it scared me to even think about it not happening, but all the will in the world couldn't make me any smarter or less clumsy. Could I even hope to get through a whole weekend without some disaster happening? Would Alix forgive a few mess-ups?
"So am I." I barely whispered it, but Nissy heard.
"Ma'Thjizzrini Qa, if you'd just behave he'll have to want you. He likes playing swords with you."
Nissy's eyes were huger than normal. She understood without need of words everything going through my mind, I could read that in them; but behind it she looked sad and scared. I suddenly realized that mournful sounded like the expression she had right now.
"What is it, Nissy?"
"Ma'Thjizzrini Qa, will you ask him to adopt me too?"
"Can I? Will it get me into trouble? I mean, could it make Alix change his mind about wanting me?"
Nissy looked even sadder if that was possible. She half nodded, half shrugged. "Knowing there are two of us might scare him off. Especially if...you know. If you mess up somehow. These people want perfect children. Listen, don't spring it on him right away. Talk about me, but wait till you're sure he still wants you before you ask about me."
"Do you think I should suggest he choose you instead? You'll behave, and then you can work on him to accept me."
"Only if he rejects you first. He wants you because of the swords."
"Let's swear on it. Whichever of us he picks will plead for the other." I spat on my hand and raised it facing her. She did the same and we clasped the slimy hands and kissed each other's cheeks to seal the vow.
" I want this badly, Nissy. I'll try to behave, but you know sometimes things happen that I don't mean to do."
***Our room packed up quickly with older orphans that had been through these home visits themselves, then been rejected at the end of the weekend. They were full of truthful advice. This was no time to paint a rosy picture, that was clear by the number of them that had been rejected, some more than once. That hope that felt so close I could grasp it a little while ago may as well have slid back into the void it came from.
"You'll be back. He only wants you because you both like swords, but once he sees how you behave he'll be dumping you back off here like yesterdays garbage."
"How do you know about it already? I just found out!"
"Everybody knows. We've already been taking bets on it. Listen to me, Maxical. Getting doors slammed in your face is nothing compared to someone getting to know you and deciding they don't want you. These home visits are like a test, they'll be comparing you to a dream they have of some perfect child. If you don't make them love you in one weekend, you come back here a failure."
"A test? I hate tests! Can't we just skip this home visit?"
"No, it's the law. They have to let him see what he's getting himself into. Phillida wants rid of you badly, if there was a way to get around this home visit he'd already have done it. You think he hates you now, see how much worse it gets if you're rejected after this home visit."
"He isn't the only one you'll have to be worrying about, either. You can play swords with him, but what about his wife?"
"His wife?" I blanched, turning even whiter if that was possible.
"Maybe she likes swords too." Nissy's voice was hopeful. I shot her a grateful glance.
***"Even the guards are taking bets you'll mess this adoption up. So far Leland and Pilus are the only two betting on you making it. Pilus said he just likes to bet longshots, hoping one will come in and make him wealthy."
"They're all betting on me failing?"
"Yup. Most of the boys dorm bet in the guard's pool. I'm taking all the girl's action. You can't bet against yourself because you could throw your chances, but if you want to bet to win I'll take it. By the way, did you know Lex is gone now?"
"Gone! What do you mean?"
"Lex has removed himself to the South Watch Tower and refuses to return as long as you're here. What'd you do to him?"
"You know, the bedwetting incident."
"Everyone got caught in that, what's so special about him?"
My face flushed. "He was in bed with that young guard from the South Watch and peed on him."
She spun around to a tall Altmer girl. "I called it, you need to pay up!"
"Lex gets more jobs than he gets paid for, it seems." The Altmer girl said, digging in her pocket for the coin.
Nissy and I stared dumbfounded while the rest of the room laughed.
"Huh?"
"Never mind, it's forbidden knowledge. Listen, Phillida was in a tirade over Lex leaving, and just got another bill for repairs you've cost him. You'd better hope that adoption goes through." She stood up to leave, but snatched the sweetroll from my nightstand first. She took a large bite of it and then held it up to me. I waved her to take the bitten roll.
"I can't help being clumsy."
"You'd better find a way, I'm betting on you to win."
The girl taking the bets shook her head no. "Liar."
When they were gone I turned to Nissy; too scared to cry, but could feel the tears burning like acid in my eyes. "I'm never going to make it, am I?"
"We'll run away together if you don't. We've always got each other, Maxical. Just remember your promise to me if they keep you."
"I'll never forget you, Nissy. Never."
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