Chapter XLII – DivisionKirin knocked on the door to his daughter’s living space and waited patiently for an answer that wasn’t coming. He tried the doorknob and found it to be locked, so with a sigh he instead headed for their private library in one of the lower chambers. It was also empty and he returned to his study growing more and more frustrated. Shortly thereafter, Lydia slipped through the door with Salihn at her heel. The little one made for her usual corner of the room where her grandparents kept a small pile of toys, while Lydia joined him behind the desk.
“Something wrong, husband? You look a bit out of sorts.”
“Any idea where the girls went?”
“Linn mentioned something about Cain but didn’t offer any details. I just assumed she’s checking up on him again and that Serana wanted to tag along and see him, too. I thought about asking her to take me to see him tomorrow, if you’d like to join us.”
He took a sip of water from a glass on his desk and considered that for a moment. By all accounts, it would not be a dangerous trip to undertake, and he really did yearn to see his son again. Maybe he could speak to Linneá about it later.
“Any idea when they will be back? I think we should start moving some of the more dangerous items from Elysium, but I’m at a loss as to
where we could move them that would still be safe. Certainly not here, that’s for sure.”
“And you’re thinking that Linn may have some secret bolt hole from her time in the guild?”
“Something like that, yeah,” said Kirin. “She knows the land better than any of us.”
“I’m sure they’ll be back soon, dear. His friend seems nice enough, but Linn mentioned she’s very guarded and doesn’t care for the extra company. I must admit, I’m almost equally interested in meeting this woman as I am in seeing Cain again.”
They heard a low rumbling sound and glanced over at Salihn. The little elf had dozed off in her toy pile while they spoke and snored nearly as loudly as Linneá did. Lydia gave her husband a kiss and then went to scoop up their granddaughter. They headed down the hall to her own living quarters and took a nap together while Kirin went back to work.
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“There is one other thing I still don’t understand, Cain,” said Linneá. “You mentioned needing my help but I gathered it was for more than just coming to the same conclusion you did. What haven’t you told us yet?”
“Hardly seems to matter now,” he grumbled.
Cain’s mood had grown increasingly dour while they’d been debating the futility of pulling off time travel without thoroughly thrashing the timeline and causing reality to come undone. The coffee helped with the headaches but did little to assuage the feelings of helplessness that were creeping back up from the depths he’d buried them in.
“Yeah, we’re losing him,” said Gwyn, staring worriedly at her friend. She could tell it was time to take the reins and put all their cards on the table. “Look, I’ll be honest… this part scares even me. Practicing some spells outside was one thing, but, well… he wants the three Elder Scrolls your family has hidden away at your old home.”
Nothing but the sound of a gentle breeze across the moor could be heard after Gwyn finished speaking. She had nearly winced when the words came out, half expecting Cain’s sisters to immediately trounce on them for even suggesting something so outlandish. Somehow, this stunned silence was ever worse, but this time Serana broke it first.
“I mean… just no. [censored]
no! What the
[censored] are you two thinking?! Time Magic is dangerous enough on its own and now you want to add
Elder Scrolls into the mix? Are you trying to finish what Alduin started, or are you two really just that
[censored] daft?!”
“Look here, princess,” Gwyn fired back. “No one invited you into my goddamn house to insult me. Cain needs your help and if you aren’t willing to give it then you can get the [censored] out before I make you.” Her hair faded from a shimmering azure to deep crimson before their eyes, and the barest flicker of a corrupted spell sparked in her palm.
Cain saw the arcing of red magick and his occupied mind jolted back to the forefront. “Gwyn, no,” he said, motioning to her trembling fist. “She’s not trying to insult you. That was a valid, if rather direct response to a statement we both know is absurd. Just take a deep breath – the last thing we need is to be fighting with each other. Anska and I went down that road once before and it sucked for everyone.”
Gwyn closed her eyes for a moment while her temper leveled off. Afterwards, she retreated to her tiny pantry by the fireplace and pulled out an unlabeled bottle and three dusty glasses. Then she joined them around the table again and poured out a generous measure of the deep caramel liquid for herself, Linneá, and Serana.
“Okay, let’s try this again,” she said. “Take a few sips and we’ll start over without the hostility.” Serana picked up her glass and examined it closely and then set it back down, prompting Gwyn to give her a nudge. “Drink up, girl. I was told you like brandy and this is the good stuff from Daggerfall. It puts that [censored] from Cyrodiil to shame.
“Uh, why exactly was that spell you had primed red?” asked Linneá, pointing at Gwyn’s hand. “I know more about magick than most and the
only time I’ve seen variations of that color is when Ana and I were vampires. What kind of magick do you practice, Gwyn?”
“Destruction and that’s all you need to know,” said Gwyn, evasively. “Now, I believe we were talking about Elder Scrolls, yes? I’m not going to beat around the bush… will you help us or not?”
A fleeting look passed between Cain’s sisters.
Ah, that would be connection he mentioned, thought Gwyn.
I can see the merits of it. And why losing Anska broke him so. Gwyn took a deep sip from her brandy and let her eyes drift over to Cain. Judging by the solemn expression on his face, he’d spotted it too and knew what was coming next.
Linneá sighed and placed a gentle hand on his leg. “I’m sorry, but we can’t. Not in that way. They’re simply too dangerous to exploit in such a manner. We all know what happened the last time people tried using a Scroll to solve their problems, and mum and dad barely survived the end result.”
Cain stood up and headed outside without a word and Linneá followed just behind him leaving Gwyn and Serana in the throes of another uncomfortable silence. Serana had been watching Gwyn closely while her wife had broken the news, and she still nearly missed the playful smile that disappeared more quickly than it had formed. It was the only break in Gwyn’s usually guarded demeanor since they’d arrived, and one that Serana knew all too well. She recalled wearing that same smile plenty of times when Linneá wasn’t looking.
“Gwyn?” she had to be delicate about this. The girl seemed to run hot with her emotions.
“What?” came the waspish reply. “Don’t be bashful, you weren’t before.”
“If that’s how you want to play it, fine,” Serana took a deep breath and after Linneá silently confirmed that she and Cain would be a few minutes, she dove right in. “How long have you had feelings for Cain?” Gwyn began to stammer out a response and her pale face took on a delicate pink hue, but Serana cut her off. “Don’t try to deny it, I saw your reaction when Elle turned you two down. You don’t want this to work, do you? The Scrolls were his ticket to making something, anything, work and now that they aren’t an option, you’ll have more time with him. So, what’s the plan? Stick by his side until he gives up this crusade to rescue Anska, hoping he’ll see you as more than a friend? Or do you have a more direct approach in mind that won’t involve him ditching you for assuming he wants anyone but the woman he’s willing to risk destroying reality for?”
“That’s… your…I don’t… I… [censored].” Gwyn leaned forward with her head in her hands. “How in the hell did you figure all that out from single, half-second slip?”
“I was a vampire in a royal court for a very long time. Studying others is what I do. And I appreciate you not trying to lie about it.”
Gwyn drained the rest of her glass and filled it back up to the top before downing that one, too. The strong brandy scorched her throat on the way down but she savored the burn as a distraction from the conversation she now found herself in. A conversation she never expected to have with anyone.
“You will not say a word about this to anyone, got it?” she said to Serana. “Cain can’t know, not while he’s still so wrapped up in this. When you and Linneá leave, he’s going to fall apart worse than before and I’ll have to help pick up the pieces. Again. It’s gonna [censored] suck, but I managed it before and I can do so again. He’s earned it twice over in our time together.”
“Wow, he really did a number on you, huh? I won’t deny that Cain’s an exceptional man, but what brought this on, Gwyn?”
She thought back over the last few months with Cain and the rocky start their friendship had begun with. Gwyn hadn’t wanted anyone else in her life and barely tolerated his presence after she’d save him from death, and from his alcohol addiction. Here was another man to distrust, like so many others she had come across in her life. Yet, Cain often went out of his way to be grateful for her help that night, even though it had been for selfish purposes. And then he’d saved her life not ten hours after she told him to piss off and never come back. Saved her from the one thing she vowed never to let happen again.
It wasn’t until that same afternoon that they’d truly become friends, and she started to look on him kindlier. Looked past the grieving man to what he could be, given enough time… And then she’d let her curiosity get the best of her. Started asking about his nature as Dragonborn and soon steered them down the path that lay beneath their feet.
Realizing she hadn’t answered Serana, Gwyn let her heart speak. “He was kind to me when he didn’t need to be. When I didn’t deserve it. When I did my best to push him away, and nearly succeeded. Then, he saved me from being raped and murdered by bandits, and just like that, Cain had done more for me than almost anyone in my life ever had. And he didn’t stop there. The final nail in the coffin came last week when he offered something so simple, yet so powerful. Praise. He praised me like know else ever had.”
Gwyn brushed away a tear in a vain attempt to keep her eyeshadow from running. Serana handed her a kerchief and refilled her empty cup once again. She couldn’t help but pity the woman.
“Drink up, dear. I wish I could offer you some advice, but I suspect you’re right about my brother. Elle and I just killed his one desire and one reason for continuing on. The road for his recovery has grown long once again and I doubt he’ll come home to let us help him. He’s going to need your friendship more than ever, Gwyn.”
The door to the cabin opened and Cain trudged in with Linneá right behind him. He looked angrier than Gwyn had ever seen him, and she was shocked to see that Linneá’s eyes were red and swollen. Their talk obviously hadn’t gone very well, for his sister didn’t say a word while she grabbed Serana’s hand and teleported them away. He didn’t say a word to her as he kicked off his boots and climbed into bed.
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Morning came when it always did, even though it felt too soon to Gwyn. She didn’t sleep much last night and she wasn’t sure if Cain had either. Her friend hadn’t said a word to her since Linneá and Serana left the night before. Feeling hungry and thirsty, Gwyn kicked off her blankets and started bustling around the cabin in search of a bite to eat while she put the kettle on. With a fresh mug of her favorite tea ready, she went outside and sat on the porch. The activity must have awoken Cain, for he soon joined her with his own cup of the steaming beverage.
They watched the sun rise over the Glenumbra Moors in silence, until Gwyn broke the reverie. “Cain? What happened between you and your sister last night?”
He didn’t answer right away. Anger had gotten the best of him last night and he had said some hurtful things to his sister that he was already regretting. What Linneá had said was right, even if he didn’t want to hear it. The pain of losing their only shot at saving Anska was too much for him and he was barely holding himself together, but Gwyn didn’t deserve to see him like that again.
“Things got heated,” he shrugged. “I tried my best to convince her but Linn is one of the most stubborn people I’ve ever met. Once she makes a decision, she sticks to it no matter what. She’s more than willing to deal with Anska being gone than using Elder Scrolls and time magick to save her. I don’t know what I’m going to do now. “He sipped from his tea again and got to his feet. Gwyn could sense the darkness in him returning full force and it terrified her. “I’m gonna take a walk.”
Cain disappeared into the early morning mist while Gwyn watched solemnly. He needed help now more than ever but she wasn’t sure how to go about it. Would she let it go and try to get him through this? Serana said the road would be long and Gwyn knew deep down it was further than his sister realized. And yet, Gwyn had tossed and turned all night while she wrestled with a new approach to the problem and whether or not she should bring it to him. Or could.
The glum look on his face when returned an hour later answered the question for her. As much as she wanted to be selfish and hold onto him, Cain needed Anska – and Gwyn found that she would rather just see him whole again, even if it meant they’d never be together.
“Want some breakfast?” he asked her. “I’m starving and misery loves company.”
“I could eat,” said Gwyn. “Although, there’s something I’d like to talk to you about first, if can spare a minute.”
“What is it?”
“Um. I was up for most of the night thinking about our efforts. I’d hate to see them be for naught, so I tried to approach the problem from a different angle. One that doesn’t involve the Elder Scrolls.”
“I’m listening.”
“How would you feel about joining the ritual circle with me… and letting me draw power from your dragon spirit?”