QUOTE(King Death @ Oct 28 2005, 01:20 PM)
How dare you insult me smarts (Also you're obviously not
very eccentric or you would take it as a compliment). To think that I was trying to approach her by jumping in a fire, shame on you. I'm unbelievably systematic about everything I do. No, I typicaly stalk the girl for several years before I even have one conversation with said female (I'm not joking

). Also, I do not hide the fact that I'm cold and heartless from her, for that is who I am and if she doesn't like that, more stalking(again, not joking). There is no honor in hiding you true personality. Yeah, everyone either hate me or loves, but never inbetween, but that what happens when you're a genius (I actually am, IQ 147).

I'm not
very eccentric, but I am a little, I hate that reputation. Smart or eccentric or weird people where I live get exiled from humanity.
I don't stalk people, but I do track information that I find out. For example, I know where the girl I like lives. She rode the same bus as me in middles school, and I happened to see where she went. I know where her locker is this year, because I saw her opening her locker. I know she has a pet dog, because she and I used to walk our pets in the same area. None of this is stalking, because I didn't go out of my way to find out any of this stuff. I just happened to be in the same place at the same time.
I hide my feelings for everyone. I said I try not to give away the fact that I'm not a cold and heartless human being. I pretend to be cold and heartless around everyone. I am a self-chosen exile from humanity, as far as most people who know me think. I pretty much stay cool and in control of my emotions no matter how strong they are. (Except in the mornings, last time somebody pissed me off while I was tired I twisted his hand backwards until he was crying and saying his hand was broken. I didn't break it, but that was mostle because what he had done didn't quite warrant a broken hand as far as I was concerned.) People never know what I'm thinking because keep my face composed and emotionless. Thus, I have an untrue reputation for being cold and emotionless.
I also do not talk to people right away when I like them. When I'm near them, I listen to what they are saying and pay attention to how they act, so I can get a good idea of their personality. If I still like them, then I still don't speak to them directly, I just occasionally mention something to them in those moments when I am near them. I see where it goes from there, if they hate me I leave them alone.
I do hide my true personality, by pretending to be cold and emotionless. For real, I'm a bit poetic and philosophical, and I can read other people easier, see what they're like fairly quickly and accurately.
Very few people hate me, but those who do, hate me all the way. They have, on various occasions, done all of these:
-Made up rumors about me, everywhere from me being homosexual to me giving little children money for a blowjob.
-Thrown bricks at my head.
-Beaten me physically.
-Stolen from me.
-Tried to choke me to death.
-Threatened my life.
They leave me alone now, mostly, because of what I did one morning on the schoolbus, where I twisted one of their hand's back until he was crying. That, and the fact that EVERY SINGLE PERSON who was within one hundred feet of me even in that one case where I struck back has vouched for me.
I'm usually happier by myself than with people, even my friends. My friends are mostly people who I argue philosophy and religion and science and politics with in school. Other than that, I don't have many friends, and don't particularly need them.
Most people stick up for me when I need it, because I will stick up for anyone who I know is in the right, and will help people when I can. The only person I don't fight for is myself, because I don't like confrontations, and most problems are easy enough to ignore.
Anything above 120 is considered a genius IQ. Myself, my mother, and my mother's boyfriend all took an IQ test. My mother is 127, I am 133, and my mother's boyfriend is 135.
I do know how I got like this, and it een fits back into the original question in the post, as it was a particularly stupid thing to do.
I hit puberty early, before age ten. I had read about various changes that happen, particularly mental changes. I decided that I, and not testosterone and/or other hormones, was going to run my life. I began practicing keeping myself alone and shut in, and I got good at it fairly quickly. Before that I had been fairly popular, but hadn't liked it. I found being alone more enjoyable that being with other people. Long story short, I built myself walls and a lock, and I lost the key. I have pretty much lost my ability to socialize with people. I can speak to people, but I can't start a conversation, nor figure out how to signify that I am willing to speak with someone. At least, I can't do either of those things easily, or without feeling stupid. Basically, I locked myself in, and I can't figure out how to let someone else in now that I might actually want to.