Isolation, More to the world..... Options

[Hra Krak One-tusk the Orc pirate]

Who, here thinks theres more to the world than we currently know? The reason I ask is that I have experienced so much that is not "normal", that I now live in quiet isolation, with my huskies and girlfreind, In the German Black forest,I have no desire to go back to a big city, or socialise on the kind of scale I used to. I deal with people on a one to one basis and thats about all I can cope with. I used to strive to change peoples perceptions of reality, to show them the mask of Society, after a while I realised that it was a mistake to do this, and as I slowly withdrew myself I began to realise that only those that ask, should be told. Im spiritual in a practical fashion, Im a humanist, and Im isolated, its not so much a sad thing, more a practical way for me to survive, people dont like it when you can see clearly who they are. Internet is interesting, because that connection isnt there, making it easier for me to communicate, and people can present facades that dont get questioned, just accepted. Being real, is not a popular past-time and I just wondered what people thought........

[Om]

I definitely feel alienated, even if that was *only* because I'm a bit of a computer geek, just that is enough to push me out of a lot of circles, add to that that I'm homeschooled and generally very 'alternative' and I have a first class ticket out of 'mainstream' society. There is only a very restricted set of people I really socialise with now, the choice is between that and changing myself to fit with the 'normal' society, which is not something I am prepared to do. I am who I am and I intend to live as myself, if that means I live in a strawbale house powered with wind turbines and solar panels with a few rooms full of computers alone because there's nobody like me, so be it.

I may have written that with a rather depressed tone, but that's not really how I mean it