Depressed? Insane? Options

[Wurlon]

Ever feel so depressed and insane that you sometimes question whether you are dreaming or the swirling world around you is a grim reality? I really can't tell anymore... every passing day brings more proof of my insanity and I keep feeling a rage.. to do something. I worry whether its for good or bad.

Help? No one seems to believe me or understand me anymore. Maybe I should just take a whole bottle of Advil and get my wretched existence over with. God turns his cheek to me.

[milanius]

Hmmmm......but you do talk to us don´t you? That´s good, just continue talking to us here at chorrol. we care for you I can assure you I do anyway!

Minque, that was exactly what I wanted to say a couple days ago, but I then thought "hey, he may choose not to believe ANYONE" and that is the truth, really. Really, Wurlon could talk to us about problema and ask for advice whenever someone here has a constructive solution for it, but that's just all, I'm affraid. Wurlon, I can only tell you what I know - and that is the fact that drugs, no matter how effective or even neccessary they might seem to be sometimes, fail the organism in the end and weaken it. When person uses a tranquiliser in large ammounts to amortise shocks of life and emotional pain on daily basis, soon it becomes addiction... and when the pills run out, the tide of bad emotions just hits you with doubled strenght

I have just learned several days ago that me & my family have been using VALIUM for years, on occasions, to supress sorrow and momentary bursts of depression or rage. Sure, it is called Diasepam here, but it is Valium. So, now I have to ponder about how I should cope with life in better ways than this, and just roll with the punches when they come - WITHOUT the damn tranquiliser. You see, if one doesen't feel pain one can't learn from it - this might sound idiotic at this point, but it is true. One eventually has to stop running from its demons and turn arrond to face and fight them. I would repeat my previous post - find comfort in your family, because they must have (at least some) love for you, no matter what you think about them. Find a good friend that will be your emotional suport. And yes, come here often and just talk, if you feel like it. People will listen.

p.s.: I am sorry about possible typos [godamnit, I will never learn]

This post has been edited by Ze Milanio: Jun 29 2006, 11:14 AM