Depressed? Insane? Options

[Wurlon]

Ever feel so depressed and insane that you sometimes question whether you are dreaming or the swirling world around you is a grim reality? I really can't tell anymore... every passing day brings more proof of my insanity and I keep feeling a rage.. to do something. I worry whether its for good or bad.

Help? No one seems to believe me or understand me anymore. Maybe I should just take a whole bottle of Advil and get my wretched existence over with. God turns his cheek to me.

[ThePerson98]

Wurlon, are you here to get help and feel better? Or are you here to whine and complain?

What happens when you wait for people to come to you and sit around moping is that people avoid you, you become someone who isnt fun to hang out with. You aren't gonna make a best friend in a day, no one said that. People here are offering you so much, for knowing you so little. We want you to feel better, but you have to do a bit of work on your side too. Nothing in life comes for free.

Wallowing around in depression isn't gonna help, no matter how much help you have, you need to be looking more into becoming happier then "fixing" your depression.
I've been through all this hell in my life before, and I know it 'aint easy. I wasn't smiling much either. But you know, when I decided I was done being depressed, and I was gonna live happily and no one was stopping me, my life became a ton easier.
This is a part of growing up..And if you learn the skills to not let it affect you now, I tell ya, it's gonna be easier later on.

As people are saying this community is like a family. And we're asking you to become a part of it. We've all been through this stage, and we're trying to help you through it.

Right now..you have two ways to go. You can either stay depressed. Or pursue happiness...We'll support you though.

[Wurlon]

Right now..you have two ways to go. You can either stay depressed. Or pursue happiness...We'll support you though.

I've already tried pursuing happiness, pills, the doctor, my parents, old friends. What I've tried to gain, I've only lost more.

Get help. And things will look up quickly. And do not be afraid to cry. Crying isnt a sign of weakness, there are actually chemicals released from crying that relieve stress.

The thing about the world is that it doesn't matter if the one crying thinks crying isn't a sign of weakness, since the majority of people already do because they're stupid.

Take it or not: My advice is to disconnect your views of life from the world's, because the world is full of idiots who set the standards of thought and expectation. Think by yourself and keep in mind that just because you feel bad now doesn't mean it'll always feel that way. Disprove misery and live through it.

I cried myself to sleep for the entire duration of taking my medication, it helps but a 14 year old with something to prove isn't allowed to cry , according to the witch of a sister I have.

Yes we do and each person here has at times shared things that were on their mind or bothered them or gave them great joy ... either way.

But read the boards and you will see that this is a caring community, the many care about each other; there are particular good online friendships you can see - Pisces & I, DoomedOne & Channler, Minque & Danny - many, many more; so don't doubt that we care about you too.

I have also been very happy for Rainer since he mentioned previously how much he enjoys his band travels.

Yeah, the problem is I don't have any friends. I'm too much of an boatmaster and dweeb.

God turns his cheek to me.

Or did you turn your cheek to God?

I went to Catholic night school for six years so I could recieve the sacraments while in public school. I never liked God, I never believed in the bible. All it is to me is some simple guidelines to human society which no one has bothered to modernize or improve upon.

I would also say music is very theraputic, at least for myself. For some reason, some music just connects to me and I can just release all the emotions I have within myself. It's really a great way to get out your frustrations and problems.

It was around your age too that I began to find my identity somewhat in music as well. Just listening to some of the lyrics of certain songs and you can experience a connection with the songwriter. Kinda like "Yea, I know what you mean there.."

Music has helped me so much, it's definately helped with my bitterness. Hopefully it could help you as well.

I'm really glad you've let this forum know about this though, it's the first step to helping yourself out.

The music I listen to certainly does not help, I like Metallica, Stone Temple Pilots and Pearl Jam a lot. And what a coincidence, one of my favorite songs by Metallica, Fade To Black, is about suicide and I never realized it.