Depressed? Insane? Options

[Wurlon]

Ever feel so depressed and insane that you sometimes question whether you are dreaming or the swirling world around you is a grim reality? I really can't tell anymore... every passing day brings more proof of my insanity and I keep feeling a rage.. to do something. I worry whether its for good or bad.

Help? No one seems to believe me or understand me anymore. Maybe I should just take a whole bottle of Advil and get my wretched existence over with. God turns his cheek to me.

[minque]

I sincerely hope you really read all the posts here......telling you that you indeed have friends...here even if it´s internet-friends we care for you and other ppl in this community. That is the good thing about this kind of relation....we can talk, listen, give some good advice, and simply just be there for each other!

I can strongly recommend you to read Danny´s post and think about it! It´s some really good stuff in it!

I , too, think you have to try to dig yourself the other way around...that is out of your depression! If you really think about it there have to be something good which you can hang on to..and make life seem a bit brighter. Like Danny and the guitar!

Just remember.....we´re here for you, and we do listen to you......m´kay?

[Wurlon]

I sincerely hope you really read all the posts here......telling you that you indeed have friends...here even if it´s internet-friends we care for you and other ppl in this community. That is the good thing about this kind of relation....we can talk, listen, give some good advice, and simply just be there for each other!

I can strongly recommend you to read Danny´s post and think about it! It´s some really good stuff in it!

I , too, think you have to try to dig yourself the other way around...that is out of your depression! If you really think about it there have to be something good which you can hang on to..and make life seem a bit brighter. Like Danny and the guitar!

Just remember.....we´re here for you, and we do listen to you......m´kay?

I dont' know which post you are talking about, can't find it.

And I can't find anything good to hang on to, I love video games but I certainly don't like playing them all day. I don't really have any musical talents, I simply was in chorus for four easy years and I can't sing very well. Danny is lucky, he has something he knew he had. What do I have? All I have is my dog, Ashley, and you know what? The last dog I had hung onto died of cancer in the back left leg at the age of three, so I'm afraid to love my dog anymore and have to deal with the crying again when she passes away. The whole reason I played Morrowind and play Oblivion is to get away from this world, to something fantastic and interesting where I can express myself. I don't know how to express myself, people tell me they do it through music, art, talking but I don't understand how that works. "Do what you love" is what people tell me, but the things I love, I can't do.. they are just there. This school year will be my first year in highschool, but unlike Danny I don't know of or can find anything that would interest anyone... I'm so plain. My parents don't force me to do anything, I quit sports because people made fun of me and I've never bothered to look for something else, I figured I would simply be mocked. I'm like the only guy that likes volleyball, and it would be embarrassing to be on a male volleyball league or something.

Its like I'm stuck... I didn't get to start anything young and when I do something nowadays its embarassing and the people that live in my area are mean, they like to make fun of me because they know I'll go home and cry later. Right now my only real friend is a kid a year younger than me, up the street. Me and him both like Metallica, but that's it... when I go up his house or he comes over mine, we simply talk and I've never done anything fun besides that... I've never gone to the mall with friends and no parents, same with the movies and I just don't know what to do! The lunch table I used to sit at had a lot of nice people who accepted my existance, but they never seemed interesting in becoming friends except for Kenny and he said he would call me or invite me over to play some video games or soemthing.. he hasn't called and I'm afraid to call him... maybe he just pretended.

I just don't know.

[Dantrag]

I dont' know which post you are talking about, can't find it.

And I can't find anything good to hang on to, I love video games but I certainly don't like playing them all day. I don't really have any musical talents, I simply was in chorus for four easy years and I can't sing very well. Danny is lucky, he has something he knew he had. What do I have? All I have is my dog, Ashley, and you know what? The last dog I had hung onto died of cancer in the back left leg at the age of three, so I'm afraid to love my dog anymore and have to deal with the crying again when she passes away. The whole reason I played Morrowind and play Oblivion is to get away from this world, to something fantastic and interesting where I can express myself. I don't know how to express myself, people tell me they do it through music, art, talking but I don't understand how that works. "Do what you love" is what people tell me, but the things I love, I can't do.. they are just there. This school year will be my first year in highschool, but unlike Danny I don't know of or can find anything that would interest anyone... I'm so plain. My parents don't force me to do anything, I quit sports because people made fun of me and I've never bothered to look for something else, I figured I would simply be mocked. I'm like the only guy that likes volleyball, and it would be embarrassing to be on a male volleyball league or something.

Its like I'm stuck... I didn't get to start anything young and when I do something nowadays its embarassing and the people that live in my area are mean, they like to make fun of me because they know I'll go home and cry later. Right now my only real friend is a kid a year younger than me, up the street. Me and him both like Metallica, but that's it... when I go up his house or he comes over mine, we simply talk and I've never done anything fun besides that... I've never gone to the mall with friends and no parents, same with the movies and I just don't know what to do! The lunch table I used to sit at had a lot of nice people who accepted my existance, but they never seemed interesting in becoming friends except for Kenny and he said he would call me or invite me over to play some video games or soemthing.. he hasn't called and I'm afraid to call him... maybe he just pretended.

I just don't know.

See? My point was just proven. Point me to one part in that post where you tried to change something.