Can't give up all of the goose at once! Though more answers are on the way...
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Fifteen – Hard Feelings
Villa Renault, Nesoi, Olympic System Morning came. And then afternoon soon followed. The decorative clock in Andromeda’s sitting room chimed twice and the musical bonging sound it made was enough to finally rouse its owner from bed. Sitting up in the infirmary bed Constellation had wheeled her into her bedroom on, Andromeda rubbed at her dry eyes and yawned. The chair beside her sat empty even though she vaguely remembered Andreja occupying it the last time she woke up.
The monitor caught her attention next. The readout indicated her vitals were all within normal ranges, so she pulled the IV from the pic line in her wrist but left the urine catheter alone. Pulling that out by herself didn’t seem like a good idea. A few cursory stretches later Andromeda was brave enough to attempt standing up, which she even managed to do without falling over.
A further few tentative steps convinced her that the kitchen wasn’t too far away, which was good, seeing as how loudly her stomach protested the lack of anything other than acid in it.
When she shuffled into the kitchen, her ears were immediately met with an audial assault.
“Goodness, Dro – what the hell are you doing out of bed!” exclaimed Sarah and Noel at the same time.
“Nice to see you ladies, too. Hey, where’s -”
“Annie!” came Andreja’s voice from the patio doorway. “I am pleased to see on your feet. Are you comfortable? Should you sit down?”
“I’m fine. Well, no, actually I’m not, but we can get into that later. Where’s lunch?”
“Sit,” insisted Andreja. “I will make you something.”
Andreja bustled about the kitchen while Andromeda took a seat at the table with Sarah and Noel, who continued to watch her every move as if she might suddenly burst into flames, or have a second head sprout from her neck.
“Please stop staring at me you two.”
“Sorry,” said Noel. “It’s just that, um, your body went through so much. Like,
so much, Dro.”
“Oh? I wasn’t aware. Either of you have any painkillers? My head is [censored] pounding.”
“Another reason why you should still be in bed!” chided Sarah.
“I slept for what? Seven days? Eight? I think I’ll pass.”
Something with an enticing aroma began to sizzle in a skillet. Andreja gave it a stir before pouring fresh coffee into a mug and setting it on the table in front of the patient. Andromeda thanked her profusely and took a cautious sip of the piping hot beverage. She smacked her lips loudly and savored the taste with her eyes closed.
“Mmmm. Wha’cha cooking in there?”
“Breakfast,” said Andreja. “You will need a lot of protein to regain your strength.”
“Smells amazing already.” Andromeda took another sip of coffee and then set her sights on Noel and Sarah. “Just ask, before you explode.”
Sarah breathed a sigh of relief. The anticipation was becoming to much, and she had far too many questions and concerns to sit quietly while Andromeda made small talk as if it were just another Tuesday.
“First off; do you feel any different, Dro?”
“You have no idea.”
“Really?” asked Noel. “Can you elaborate on that? Because we ran every conceivable test on you that we could and they all came back the same: your DNA has been radically altered.”
“I know.”
“Y-you know?” stammered Sarah. “And that doesn’t bother you? Something so extreme that it borders on the impossible happened and all you can say is ‘I know’?”
Andromeda shrugged. “I don’t know what you want from me, Sarah.”
“What I want,” said Sarah, “is for you to help us understand it. We’ve all seen the test results but you’re the only one who can tell us how it’s affected you!”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Androm -” Sarah started to protest.
“Sarah, let’s drop it for now,” said Noel. She placed a hand on Sarah’s shoulder before continuing. “She needs time.”
Andromeda sipped a little more from her coffee mug and contemplated her existence. She knew beyond doubt just how different she’d become compared to the friends she sat in her kitchen with. Whatever mysterious force did what it did what it did to her in the Temple – for that’s now what she knew it was – on Tau Ceti III made it plainly obvious in her mind. And she had no clue on where to even begin trying to explain it.
With immaculate timing, Andreja offered a perfect distraction by setting down plate topped with the biggest omelet Andromeda had ever seen.
“Four eggs, peppers, onion, bacon, sausage, and cheese. Eat up, Annie.”
“There’s no way I’m eating all of this. You know that, right?”
“We shall see,” smiled Andreja.
Noel’s eyes darted back and forth between the two of them. “Alright, I’ve got a different question…”
“Lay it on me,” Andromeda mumbled around a mouthful of food.
“Ugh. Swallow first next time,” said Noel. Andromeda gestured her on by oscillating her fork while she chewed away. “How come Andreja gets to call you ‘Annie’ and no one else does?”
“Do you think that’s an argument I’m going to win with her?”
“Well, I guess not. No offense, Andreja, but you can be very stubborn sometimes.”
“No apologies are necessary, Noel. I am comfortable with who I am.”
Sarah, Noel, and Andreja continued to chat and gossip while Andromeda ate voraciously. But as her stomach filled up and the omelet dwindled on her plate, she felt her eyes start to droop again. Once she’d eaten her fill, Andromeda rested an elbow on the table and tried her damnedest to finish her coffee and chime in on the conversations around her. It didn’t last, and she dozed off within moments resulting in her forehead thunking onto the tabletop.
* * *
Morning came again, just as it ought to, and this time Andromeda awoke shortly after sunrise. Noel was futzing with her IVs again and after a short argument with her patient, she agreed to remove the catheter so that Andromeda could go take a shower. The blissful shower attached to her master bedroom was the first thing she’d torn apart after moving in, and it no longer had a built-in timer like the one at The Lodge that frustratingly turned itself off during her steaming soaks. Her stiff muscles felt amazingly better after a solid thirty minutes had passed, most of which she spent sitting on the floor with her legs curled in tight to her chest.
They’re gonna think I’m a freak, she thought to herself.
Like the worst kind of mad scientist experiment. Andromeda had slept fitfully, her tired mind full of awful dreams and worrisome thoughts such as those. She owed her friends, Andreja especially, an explanation but had no idea where to start. Or how to find the courage in the face of fear. The images of delight and relief on Andreja’s face when she saw Andromeda shimmy into the kitchen yesterday floated to the front of her mind, and it strengthened her resolve ever so slightly.
She deserves to hear it first. Finally stepping out of the bathroom, Andromeda tossed aside the gown Noel left out for her and instead put on a white camisole and a pair of stretchy workout pants. No reason to not be comfortable in her own house after all.
When she entered the kitchen again it was not to eat.
“Andreja?”
“Yes?”
“Can we take a walk?”
“Of course we can.”
She got up and poured her tea into an empty TerraBrew cup and followed Andromeda outside to the patio. Andreja initially had some concerns about going too far from the house, but her companion appeared to be getting on just fine while they descended the steps towards the landing area and lost themselves among the trees. Five minutes into their silent stroll, Andromeda stopped in a clearing and took a seat in the dirt.
“This is far enough,” she panted. “And it may have been too far. You might need to help me back.”
“Just rest for a while, Annie. There is no hurry to get back.”
Andreja sat down across from her and waited patiently. If Andromeda had to put a finger on what she appreciated the most about Andreja, it would be that sage patience she always seemed to carry with her, and how it perfectly complimented her own impulsiveness.
But here they sat now, alone and away from the fretters. And, thankfully, Andreja saved her from furthering the awkward silence induced by Andromeda’s rising self-doubt.
“We have not known each other for very long, Annie, but this reserved version of yourself that you are presenting does not suit you. I know you have much to say, so please do so before you implode.” She leaned forward and grabbed Andromeda’s hands in her own, squeezing them gently. “No matter what you say, I would never think less of you.”
Tears sprang to the corner of Andromeda’s eyes. “I, um. Andreja, that’s… Um. Look, can I hug you? Please?”
“Annie, you are my friend. This is the one of those times where you do not have to ask.”
The tears coursed down her cheeks and dampened the soft fabric draped over Andreja’s toned shoulders. They stayed like that, together, for a long time while Andromeda cried out a lot of pent up emotions over the entire ordeal. It was the first time Andreja had ever found herself in such a situation and she did her best to comfort the person she realized was growing to be someone much more than a friend. Andreja felt in those moments that she would have stayed there to comfort Andromeda forever and a day, if necessary.
Though that amount of time ended up
not being needed on this occasion.
Andromeda pulled back and sat up straight. After wiping her eyes, she gently placed a hand on Andreja’s cheek.
“Thank you for being here. And thank you for worrying about my well-being. It felt like Sarah only cared about what changed and not how it made me feel. Noel, too, but to a lesser degree.”
“They mean well,” said Andreja. “Though I do think they sometimes get too wrapped up in their theories. But they also are not wrong, Annie. You do need to tell us what has happened to you.”
“I know, I know,” said Andromeda. “It’s just that… I-I don’t even know where to begin.”
It was the honest truth. She had no idea how to articulate what being pulled into those accursed rings meant and how everything had changed. How to describe what she saw; what she felt. And, in the end, the thing Andromeda remembered the most was the pain. The agony.
Pushing those thoughts aside, she tried anyway. “Imagine… imagine your mind being everywhere. All at once. And maybe… I don’t know… everywhen, too? Is that a word. If not, it sure as [censored] should be.” She paused for a second with a far away look in her eyes. “Imagine touching all of reality in an instant, and having it touch you back. Having it invade your mind, your spirit, and alter what you are irrevocably. Imagine all that and being powerless to resist.”
“I do not wish to,” shuddered Andreja. “No one should have to experience such horrible things. You do not have to say anymore on the matter of you do not want to.”
“It’s fine,” shrugged Andromeda. “Gonna have to tell Sarah and Noel eventually, or they’ll never leave.”
“Hah, very true,” chuckled Andreja. “Would you like to stay here a while longer?”
“No, we can go back. I’m starving. One more thing before we do go…”
“Yes?”
“I need to show you
what that place did to me, not just how it felt.” Andromeda got shakily to her feet with Andreja and steadied herself with a few deep breaths. “Sorry. Still get winded easily. Gimme a sec.”
She moved a few feet away from Andreja and turned until she was facing the trees and undergrowth at the edge of the small clearing. Andromeda closed her eyes and focused on the knowledge she’d been given by the Temple. The power. She imagined the purity of gravity in all its natural power to bring order in chaos. And then she raised her hands in a manner that one would use to push away an impeding object and she focused on the inverse effect of that base force of nature.
Andreja could only watch in captivated amazement at the expulsion of energy that erupted from seemingly nowhere and uprooted several trees with the unrelenting force of it.
“Andromeda… How…”
“I don’t have a [censored] clue. But from the moment I woke up, I knew exactly how to do it.” She swayed on her feet and her eyes began to lose focus from the effort. “Whoa. Maybe should’ve waited until I regained some more strength.”
Andromeda sank down to one knee as Andreja rushed to her side and steadied her. “Can you make it back? Should I call Sarah and Noel to come help.”
“Um. Yeah.”
Exhaustion won out again and Andromeda collapsed into her friend’s arms.
* * *
She woke up on the couch this time, and the clock told her that only three hours had passed, which was quite the improvement. Voices drifted in from outside and when she stained her ears to listen to what sounded like an argument. Andromeda sat up and was about to see what was going on when she noticed the glass of water and the medpack on her coffee table.
At least someone is listening to me, she thought as she gulped the water down and used the medpack to dull the throbbing pain in her head.
Getting to her feet felt far easier this time, and she nearly effortlessly made her way outside to the pool deck. Sarah, Noel, and Andreja were standing around ten meters away, and seemed to be fiercely debating something.
“Hey, what’s going on you three?”
“Dro!” said Sarah. “How are you feeling? Andreja told us what happened! And what the two of you spoke about!”
At this point, Noel stepped away from the others and hugged Andromeda. “I’m sorry if we came off as callous earlier, Dro. You’re health is absolutely more important than anything else.”
“I apologize, too, Andromeda,” Sarah added. “But in light of recent events I’m afraid I must insist that you return to The Lodge with us as soon as possible. There is much to talk about. The implications alone...”
Andromeda had been dreading that. She knew it was coming eventually after all that transpired since she and Andreja set out for the Tau Ceti system, and she’d been rehearsing exactly how this conversation needed to go ever since she regained consciousness. Nothing about it was going to be easy, and she steeled herself for a drawn out discussion on whether or not she was being selfish. She hoped beyond reason that Andreja would understand, even if the others did not.
“Sarah, I’m not going back,” Andromeda stated firmly. “I can’t.”
“What do you mean you can’t!” exclaimed Sarah. “Dro, after all that’s happened, you have to come back so that we can figure this all out!”
“No. I’m done. Consider this my resignation. I’m tired of being shot at and stabbed; tired of being attacked by nutjobs in spaceships; and I’m tired of not being in control of my own fate. I didn’t ask for any of this. Picking up that stupid [censored] hunk of metal on Vectera was the worst decision I ever made. I’m going to live my life the way I want to from now on and the Universe can go [censored] itself. And if you can’t understand my perspective on this, then I think it’s time for you to leave.”
Sarah’s mouth opened and closed a couple of times while she tried articulate her thoughts. In the end, much to Andromeda’s chagrin, she let her disappointment win out. “I expected more from you, Ms. Renault.” Without another word, she left the pool deck and headed back down to the Frontier.
Andromeda wiped her eyes on the back of her hand. Noel had an odd look on her face. Andreja’s was unreadable. Their combined silence unnerved her. “I’m sorry. But I can’t.”
“It’s alright, hon,” sighed Noel. “None of us can hope to understand what you’re going through right now. I wish it didn’t have to be this way, but it is your life. It should be in your hands.” She hugged Andromeda again, more tightly this time. “Take care of yourself, Dro. And keep in touch – no reason we have to be strangers.”
“Thanks, Noel. And I will.”
Noel followed Sarah down to the ship, leaving Andromeda alone with the one person she hoped would empathize with her beyond all others. Andreja still hadn’t spoken, but she could feel the roiling emotions battling within. She didn’t understand – not completely, anyway – but she did respect Andromeda’s resolve on the matter. And her need for independence.
“I did not expect this of you, Andromeda. You should go inside and rest.”
Andreja left her side and headed down to the ship, leaving a confused and despondent young woman in her wake.
Completely crushed by how things ended, Andromeda sat down in the nearest chair and sobbed while the roar of engine thrusters drowned out everything else as the Frontier lifted itself above the trees and soared up through the atmosphere and lost itself to the vast distances of space.