Yay you made it! Welcome to Chorrol Syl.
A good start to your tale. You take a character usually seen as a villain, and give us her side of things. I wonder if she will still seem the villain after we see more of her life from her point of view? Perhaps. But I am sure it will be a fun read either way.
And yet another Bosmer character! With three Bosmer girls, and three boys, we completely outnumber all the other races here!
How wonderful that you made it over here from Bethesda. Welcome the Chorrol Arena!
Yes, another member of the wood elf clan!
You have a neat premise here and I look forward to reading more of Syl.
Thank you both! Yes, I am glad to make my way here, and it will be nice to see if the response I get here will be any different than the one I received at Bethsoft? From what I've seen, there are a lot more writers and readers here, so it'll be interesting to see what happens! Thanks for the invite, SubRosa!
And if we Bosmer are now the most populous in Chorrol, then I'm going to feel quite at home here! Yay! (There's not much love for Bosmer over on the Bethesda forums, it seems...)
Yes, there are tons of Bosmer here. Acadian = Buffy, TheOtherRick = Talendor, Thomas "The Cook" Kaira = Derelas, Winter Wolf = Aradroth, then my own Teresa, and of course your Syl. Six ongoing stories with Bosmer protagonists. Who ever would have imagined that from the race that always wins the polls for "Most Annoying" or "Most Hated"?
A most interesting start! An excellent way to respond to the question of "what happened after Jygallag was freed?"
I'll be enjoying this one, I'm sure.
Interesting to play it as an NPC from the game. Syl rather appears in-game as a heartless umbrella seller, pardon the French, but NPCs in Oblivion rarely have very much depth. You will provide it instead, it seems.
Welcome to the fic forum !!! I saw many places I'd love to quote because of the sheer brilliance of wording - but don't want to spam your thread right off, lol. Here is one of my absolute faves:
What a powerful insight into Syl's early years !! (And into living in the Realm of Madness!) Your ability to transform words into visual images is amazing !! Great Write !!!
I really enjoyed the part with Muurine and her Uncle Leo. How nice to see the groundwork for that laid so early on! Muurine being Syl's magic teacher was a brilliant idea. Likewise Syl's aversion to corpses is a good piece of character-building. It reminds me of Himmler, who nearly fainted at the sight of a mass execution.
nits:
Please do not see all this as being antagonistic. I think you have some real talent. But you have fallen into some of the most common traps of beginning writers. I offer up the following critique in the hope that it will help you improve your writing.
I see one major issue with most of the piece, you are telling us all this rather than showing us. You avoided it with the part where Muurine took Syl to her house, and we saw it for the first time through Syl's eyes. That was excellent showing. But the remainder of the piece is mostly telling it all to us.
For example, you tell us that her father sleeps around. It would have been better to give us a scene where Syl sees a young hottie make the walk of shame from his room, still putting her clothes back on. Then he comes out a few minutes later.
The other thing that comes with telling, is that you gave us a big infodump on Syl's past. We really do not need to know any of that to start with. Worse, nothing turns off a reader than an infodump at the start of a piece (or anywhere else in it). It is far better to slowly reveal these things as the story progresses. Let them slow out naturally as we see Syl going about her daily life. For example, rather than tell us that as a Bosmer she has better sight, hearing and agility that others, give us a scene where she uses these advantages, hearing someone's whispers, noticing something in the dark, catching a ball suddenly thrown at her, etc...
It is good to have all this background information in your character notes. That way you can build a cohesive, and rich, story. But think of it as an iceberg. The reader should only see the tip of it at one time. Never all of it at once.
Now on to some more specific things I noted:
on the 16th of Evening Star in the year 370 of the 3rd Era. The sign of the Warrior guides my path,
This strikes me as being strange. Why would the Shivering Isles keep Imperial Eras? Or Months and dates. We known the Greymarch happens every thousand years, and wipes the slate clean of everything. Only a few ruins remain from the time before the previous march. All history is lost, as no one in the current period even recalls that there was a Greymarch a thousand years before. It is only hinted at in one of the game http://www.uesp.net/wiki/Shivering:The_Predecessors.
Plus since their sky is completely different from that of Nirn, it also seems unlikely that their star signs, if there were any at all, would be the same.
I realize that creating an entirely new calendar is a lot of work, as well as starsigns, but perhaps it would have been better to simply leave these things out entirely instead?
The Demented have never worn anything bright, like the Maniacs have always preferred, but we do not only wear black all the time. My favorite color to wear in my youth was always crimson,
http://www.html-color-names.com/crimson.php seems rather bright. Perhaps something more like rust, or maroon would work better?
Even as a child, I was dressed every day in only the finest clothes, always in darker colors. The Demented have never worn anything bright, like the Maniacs have always preferred, but we do not only wear black all the time. My favorite color to wear in my youth was always crimson, but as I’ve grown older, I’ve come to appreciate black much more thoroughly.
When I was a child, my governess, an Altmer named Muurine, would brush my hair every morning for half an hour before putting it up in a simple girlish style. Muurine was quite tall, being High Elf, and when I was a girl she had long dark hair that was almost black. As I grew up, Muurine, who was over four-hundred years old, began to lose that color in her hair, and by now she has more white and grey in it. But she is still very beautiful, and like all mer, she has aged gracefully. I have always admired her, for many reasons.
The forum ate the space between your two paragraphs here. That can happen when you copy and paste from a word processor.
SubRosa: Your advice is welcome and appreciated. (And thanks for pointing out the spot where the space was neglected--I will go back and fix it right away.)
As far as the telling, yes, I see what you mean. I guess in chapter one I'm still sort of introducing a lot that you are right about me probably not needing to do. Thanks for the tips. But I will let you know that as chapter one continues, and then through the rest of the story, /i do move away from telling the story to actually showing it. The reason I'm telling here is that I was concerned about making the story too long, and I wanted to sort of skip most of her childhood, to keep it from getting too lengthy. But Chapter Two will also cover part of her childhood, with more of the story actually being shown.
The star signs--yes, I suppose it would be different in the Isles, and probably isn't necessary to have in the story. I never thought of that, I guess, and I got a little confused about whether or not the daedric realms would use such a system or not. I will keep this in mind for the future and make any necessary changes.
Crimson, I guess, is not quite the right word to use for the color. Maybe it should have been more like maroon or burgundy. At the the same time, I think of crimson as being the color of blood, which is why it would be acceptable to the demented, but perhaps I should have worded that differently, then, to explain this.
Tell me what you think of the changes?
mALX: Thank you for the compliments. I am glad you have enjoyed it thus far, and I hope you will continue to do so.
Well, if no one minds the story getting a little longer, I don't mind adding more to it. I was trying to keep it short before only because of my original intention to publish. But I suppose if it's not being published, I can expand on it. There are many ideas I had already, but the fear of making it too long for Bethesda to want anything to do with it had me trying to shorten it.
I would love to do a reworking of it, as you said, and I think I will take advantage of it. Thanks again for the advice.
Make it as long as you want it to be. The great thing about writing on a forum like this, is that you can write for its own sake. Not only is it personally satisfying, but it is also wonderful practice. My own writing has improved dramatically since I started TotFS. I have seen similar improvements in many others as well.
Plus, the longer you make it, the more the rest of us have to enjoy. Ooops, Foxy is going to love that line!
I love the changes! I haven’t played SI, and the description you gave at the beginning set the scene for me. The snippets from her childhood really come alive now. We can feel her embarrassment and shame at seeing her Ada in the garden with the maid, for example.
Yay, another tiny wood elf!! She probably suffers from a chronic sore neck like my elf does - http://i668.photobucket.com/albums/vv43/Acadian6/Cho%20Bk%201/ScreenShot796.jpg
We learn a great deal about our little fairie here, and I can see already you have a wonderful way of working with the mentality that one might find in the isles to make it come to life. I am greatly enjoying learning about Syl.
You had completed your edits by the time I read this, so I cannot compare it to the original. I will say that it does weave some 'showing' to break up the large amount of background that you cover here.
I heartily agree with SubRosa that you should not be afraid to expand with detail and linger as you wish. Realize that 'showing', particularly when amplified by lots of dialogue can require a very large amount of text to cover ground. Sometimes 'telling' is effective for quickly covering a large amount of ground when required. This can be helpful if a more detailed 'showing' of the material would become tedious or repetitive. Sometimes a detailed 'showing' of a few key snips is the answer. A mix is what we generally use, but 'showing' is always the most dynamic and immersive to read. Generally you want to really rely on 'showing' for scenes that you want to be particularly powerful or memorable.
I also endorse the recommendation to view your already posted elsewhere episodes as rough drafts for your current version as we are always learning and improving. Similar to SubRosa, the original 69 episodes of Buffy's story that formed the basis for what is here at chorrol grew to 101 episodes and I am almost into completely new material now. The revision dropped a few things and added a great deal. I now view Buffy's story as simply the neverending tale of her life - and elves live a long time. Speaking of my own story, let me thank you for reading it. I am so enjoying the insights you are providing!
When working with your older episodes, don’t feel attached to any length cutoff points you may have had. That is, don't let long episodes simply grow. Don't be afraid to break them into post-sized pieces. As we have discussed, most of us find 1000-2000 words to be about ideal for a single post or episode.
I am so pleased that you have joined us and are hopefully finding the warm support and encouragement of like-minded writers here that seems missing at the other forum.
Nit- The Shivering Isles is a world like no other; a place of unsurpassed beauty and scores of adventure.
Mixing plural (scores) and singular (adventure) at the end of this. Perhaps: 'scores of adventures' or 'abundant adventure' or maybe even 'unsurpassed beauty and adventure'.
Acadian--Thank you very much for your encouragement and advice--and also for pointing out the mixed plural/singular in the first sentence. I went back and fixed it right away.
And yes, Syl certainly knows what that's like, craning her neck to look up at all those towering Altmer and Nords and Imperials! I loved the picture; thank you for sharing it.
All--I am overjoyed at my warm reception, as well as the willingness of my readers to help me make my writing the best it can possibly be. I welcome all the advice, corrections, and questions that you may have, and I thank you for taking the time to come and learn Syl's story. I will thoroughly enjoy our time together here in Chorrol.
Chapter 1.2--The Unwanted Surprise
My father took a new mistress a few months before my tenth birthday, and my mother seemed more distressed than she had even been before, though I didn’t understand it at the time. She often cried herself to sleep at night, while I lay in bed, holding her and trying to help her feel peace. I was her only source of comfort and joy at this point, as my father’s hatred of her had become quite apparent. She confided in me often, though I was perhaps too young to hear so many of the things that she told me. She had no one else to talk to about her feelings, though, for all of her friends had abandoned her. Muurine was the only person she considered a friend anymore, but she knew better than to confide in her, as Muurine always had a love for gossip.
In those days, my mother had become much more depressed and paranoid. She trusted only me, and was certain that everyone else was out to get her, for whatever reason. I didn’t understand it, why she was always so fearful. To me the world was exciting and new, but to her it had become a living nightmare. Gone was the beautiful and loving mother I had always known. Now she was worn out, disheveled, and agitated. She rarely even left my quarters anymore, and every sudden noise made her jump from fright. She trembled when in my father’s presence, and she was always nervous and fidgety. She had hallucinations at times, and she would mumble constantly to herself about someone named Ceridwen, who she had apparently wronged, but it would be many years before I understood what that was all about.
Sometimes my mother would tell me that we were living in a terrible place, and that we needed to get out of the Realm, and return to her home in Valenwood, where she had grown up. This was a terrifying thought to me, as I had known only the Realm, and I longed to be nowhere else, even as a child. I thought my mother was speaking nonsense, but I always stayed by her side, holding her hand and pretending to understand what she was talking about.
“They are coming for me, Syl,” she said one day, looking very seriously into my eyes and tightly gripping my arms. “Do you understand me, girl? They are coming for all of us! We have to get out before it’s too late. We have to escape…. Promise me you won’t let them take you, Syl. Promise me!”
“I promise, Mama,” I tearfully replied, just wanting her to stop saying such horrible things. Though I thought she was only talking nonsense, a part of me was genuinely terrified that what she was saying might be true.
By this point, my father pretty much ignored my mother altogether. He spent most of his free time with Alanwen, who was much younger than mother, and also very clever. She had him wrapped around her little finger, and he hardly even noticed me when she started coming around. I became jealous of the attentions he paid to her, as I had never been ignored by my father before. But I believed she knew what she was doing, and I disliked her intensely. She would smile and wink at me in what I took to be a conniving and victorious manner, as my father went off to his quarters with her, instead of spending his breaks with me as before.
With my mother’s fearful ranting about Alanwen, I began to wonder if she wasn’t out to get us after all. If she could get rid of us, she would have my father all to herself; and she was insanely jealous whenever he did choose to spend time with me instead of with her. That’s when I would give her a little wink and a smile, the same way she always did to me. If looks could kill, I’d have dropped dead right then and there, for Alanwen hated me intensely in those moments.
Alanwen and I actually started competing for my father’s attentions, and I began very quickly to win more often than she did. That just went to show that no woman could ever come between me and Ada. I was the number one girl in his life, and nothing could ever change that. Sure, as I got older, we had our ups and downs; but overall, my father never abandoned me, and he was my hero. I trusted him completely then, even though I didn’t always agree with him, and I knew that he would never do anything deliberate to hurt me.
What did hurt me to see, though, was the way he treated my mother. When she was having one of what I termed her ‘episodes,’ sometimes she would go to my father and plead with him to “get rid of that witch,” meaning Alanwen. She also begged him to give her a Dark Seducer to guard her, as she was certain that her life was in danger. My father was very unsympathetic to her, and he would only push her away and tell her to go back to “hiding in Syl’s quarters.” He would only beat her if she continued to pester him, which she very often did when she was in that state.
It pained me to see such displays between my beloved parents, and I was torn between them both. I would sometimes pull at my mother’s hand, begging her to leave my father alone and come back to my chamber with me. When she didn’t listen, my father would send me away while he punished her for her “stubborn disobedience.” I would obey, but I always watched from the corridor, unable to pull myself away, my heart breaking with every blow he gave to her. Then, when my father was finished, he always went to his quarters to recover with Alanwen, and I would run back out to my mother, who was crumpled on the floor, beaten and too weak to get up on her own.
I helped her to my quarters, where she would lie on the bed and curl up into a ball to sob like a child. I could not heal her with magicka, as at this time my magical abilities were limited to only healing myself, and very little at that point. But seeing my mother injured and uncaring enough to heal herself made me eager to develop the ability to heal others, and it was in this way that I was quite skilled. I never worked so hard to develop my own healing abilities, and few people know this, but I am better at healing others than I am at healing myself. She was my inspiration in this way, and it has been very useful to me at times. If only I had been able to save her.
Simply fantastic! I love this look into Syl's childhood, and the very dysfunctional nature of her family. It is just what I would expect not only from the Shivering Isles, but especially from the ruling house of Dementia. Even here we can see the seeds of paranoia being planted in Syl's mind. Plus her mother's very oblique reference to the Greymarch was excellent!
until our Lord decided that he no longer cared to have horses in His Realm, for reasons that were never made entirely clear.
I love this explanation for the lack of horses!
The first part is outdone by the second half, showing us Syl's birthday with her father. I have to say that before they even returned, I got the impression that her mother had been murdered, and that was the reason that her Father took her to Ashwood. Syl seeing her mother's ghost was excellent, and drawing the conclusion that Alanwen was responsible. Now I cannot wait to see what is next!
WARNING: WALL OF TEXT INCOMING!!
SubRosa touched on it before, but it bears repeating. The mistake that you are making with this first chapter is that you are treating it just like the prologue. We already heard Syl speaking from an 'Undisclosed Location in the Shivering Isles.' I know you want to go through Syl’s childhood quickly to get to the meat of the story, but simply telling us about events and how she feels about them does the character (and the reader) a disservice.
Chapter 1.1:
First off, specificity, you need to focus your story. You have a tendency to jump around quite a bit in relaying the events of Syl’s childhood. The paragraph that begins with . . .
GAAAAH !!! Cliffhanging ending, riveting story so far !! Your attention to detail makes for a very powerful read, as does your great storyline !!
SubRosa: Thank you for your compliments. I am glad you found it to be more captivating. It's a slow start, I think, but it gets better as Syl gets past the early childhood and moves into the aftermath of her mother's death, and her adolescence.... Hopefully I will continue to make my story work for all of you.
Destri: Thank you very much for your imput. I do see what you are saying, and I will go back over it and take a look to see how I can incorporate your suggestions into the story better. I've already gone back to that part with Syl's mother warning her about wanting to leave the Isles, and I made it present-tense, rather than "she would say..." I like your suggestions, and I will try to work on them to make it better so that Syl can be more part of her story. But also, don't forget that some removal from her tale would be expected, as it is Syl writing her memoirs, long after most of these events occurred. So, there would be some part of her, probably mostly due to her madness, that would be detached from her past. I will try to do better, though, so you will hopefully continue to read and enjoy Syl's story.
mALX: Thanks! Yes, I'm a pretty detail-oriented person. And yes, a cliffhanger. I love cliff-hangers, and whenever I am able to end on one, I am pretty thrilled because I like to leave my readers on the edge of their seats and anxious for more! Unfortunately for all of you, many of the secrets that are hinted at early on will not be revealed in full for quite some time. They'll eventually fall into the back of your mind, and then when the time comes and you discover the hidden truth, you'll remember those hints (hopefully) and be like, OMG!!! At least, that is my intention...
There are two distinct parts to this episode (1.2).
The first part is competent and spells out much of Syl's family history. The word memoire does indeed come to mind. Somewhat historical, covers lots of ground.
The second part is exciting because we feel as if we are right there with our ten year old farie princess sharing her beautiful day that is laced with dark innuendo, then ends in a tragedy that pulls at our heartstrings.
A special salute regarding Alanwen. You project volumes about her based simply on those 'looks' she exchanges with Syl. Fabulously effective and her mysteriousness contributes strongly to the unique feel for the SI you are giving us.
Throughout, you infuse a deliciously foreboding and ominous feeling that seems so very appropriate for a girl from Dementia. I am so enjoying this wonderful story and am so glad you are bringing it to us!
Nit: Let me take this moment to explain something, to any who many not actually be from the Isles.
I'm sure you want 'may' instead of 'many'.
Acadian: Thank you so much. I don't want to get too repetitive, but I appreciate all of your help and encouragement. It is so refreshing to find so many like-minded people here.
Chapter 2.1--Unsolved Mysteries
The death of my mother hit me very hard, especially because it had occurred on my birthday and I had been the one to find her. The reason for her death was not explained to me, but the others apparently knew and they were all very quiet about it when I was around.
The day after her death, I was walking to my chamber when I overheard some servants gossiping about it. “Such a shame,” one of them was saying. “I would never have expected such a thing. And that poor little girl, left without a mother…. It’s tragic.”
The other servant huffed, and replied, “She wasn’t much of a mother or a wife, always hiding in her daughter’s chamber, as if she was safe nowhere else. And then, to do this--I’d say the Duke and his daughter are better off!”
Seeing me standing in the corridor as they walked by, the other servant shushed her, and they changed the subject quickly, after giving me a nod and acting like they had nothing to hide. It was always like that when I was around, and I wondered why everyone was being so secretive about my mother’s death. I was the one to find her, after all. What did they have to shelter me from?
They didn’t want me to know what happened, but I had my suspicions. My father assured me that Alanwen had nothing to do with my mother’s death, but I simply refused to believe it. Nothing would convince him otherwise, though I challenged him to tell me what they were hiding, if not Alanwen’s guilt.
Instead of answering my questions, he sent me away and refused to talk about it, saying, “Syl, if you knew the reason for your mother’s death, it would only hurt you even more. It is best, for now, if you do not know the details—it will do you no good to know more.”
I couldn’t understand why he wanted to protect a murderess, especially one who would likely try to murder me next, and it bothered me intensely. It was then that our relationship started to become strained, and it would be years before things truly improved.
Had the thought occurred to me that my father had conspired with Alanwen to kill my mother? Certainly. But I knew my father better than that. If he had wanted my mother dead, he would never have killed her on my birthday. He loved me too much to do something like that….
Holy Cow, there are like three mysteries going on at once here !! GAAAAH !!! I think Muurine is protecting her from whoever killed her mother, and the Dad (or someone) spread it around that she took her own life (but Syl would know that is a lie). Then the raven would be her mother's spirit (and possibly the butterfly too) ... the beautiful woman must be a relative of the mother ... GAAAAH !!! I am probably wrong about everything - but I am LOVING this so far !!!!
he would never have killed her on my birthday. He loved me too much to do something like that…
I just love the wry and twisted outlook in Syl's thought that her father would not murder her mother on her birthday. Any other day to be sure. But not her birthday!
There is one way to know for sure if her mother was murdered or took her own life: if she turns up on the Hill of Suicides.
The raven was a welcome sight. Well, for me at least. I do realize that most other people see them as dark, foreboding figures.
And who is this strange Manic who Syl glimpsed at the Palace? Interesting.
Chapter 1.1:
You paint a very Demented picture of life in Dementia here. THis is the realm of madness, and therefore the normal rules do not apply here. I am quite glad you have grasped that idea so well.
Syl's first practical lesson in necromancy was very sardonic. You have a very good black humor about you that fits the realm perfectly.
I wonder if Syl will grow up to be jsut as masochistic as the rest of Dementia? We already know she is different, and would probably have done better being born in Tamriel, but then that would have been even more boring now, wouldn't it?
Chapter 1.2:
Quite gut-wrenching for Syl to have to learn of her mother's murder on her birthday. It is doubtless to me that her father was the culprit, and I really don't think I want to know what will be going through her head when she discovers her father was responsible. Perhaps this facilitated her descent into madness?
It would seem that it was getting consistently harder and harder for Syl to love her father over the course of this chapter. Still, I'm quite sure that it will not be with glee when she witnesses his inevitable death.
And I also see she fell into the deep trap of attempting to understand the Madgod's decisions! Best not attempt that again, Syl, otherwise your brain will explode.
If it helps, though, horses are to the Madgod what ducks are to the chocolatiers. Having no way to blend their long tails into his world as they reminded him too much of his beard, he presumed the presumption that word assumed that he assumed that they assumed that horses would remind the general populace too much of the Madgod's beard, which is, all things considered, a work of art. Ergo, without the assumptions presuming the presumptions that came after future of the visions of the Madgod, he decided that horses simply were not needed to support the realm's many curtain-hangers (numbering exactly zero), and therefore banished them.
I may have fudged a few details, though.
While the 'memoire' format is still giving this the 'passage of times past' feel that I believe you want, you are really incorporating plenty of dynamic memories and dialogue that 'show' Syl's youth and make reading about it a joy.
'I failed to see how needlepoint and gossip were useful tasks, but who was I to argue?'
'…wondering if she was some sort of ethereal being who was sent to watch over me.'
Syl is indeed a fairie princess, for she has three ethereal beings watching over her in this episode alone. First there is the appearance of a raven - well-known spirit of a fellow Bosmeri lass with a mane of scarlet and faint smile. Then Syl is visited by a butterfly - spirit of another wood nymph with golden locks. And finally the arrival of yet another spirit - this one a mystery, and in the form of a beautiful woman.
I continue to thoroughly enjoy this, and applaud your impressive talent!
mALX: Hehe, leaving you guessing and in suspense...that is precisely what I am up to... but the answers will not become clear for quite some time.... Glad you are enjoying it.
SubRosa: Yes, you can see the rather unusual mentality of the Demented at work here, and also Syl's ability to see her father's capability for murder, yet at the same time, her love and trust in him distorts her ability to see it fully. But, is it what it seems, or is there more to it than meets the eye...?
Thomas: Thank you. Yes, I have always had a fondness for psychology, and a sort of ease with being able to empathize with the villains, and to see their side of the story. I have always been drawn to the darker side of life, though not to the point of completely succumbing to it; and I can sort of understand what it is to be on the brink of insanity, struggling to hold onto self-control. I grew up with a mother who has bi-polar, and a father in denial about his depression, so I guess I've witnessed some of the varying degrees of madness first hand....
Acadian: Thank you. It is my hope to present a picture of Syl that shows her depth--both the good and the bad that exists within all of us. I want to promote understanding and sympathy for the one perceived as the villain, and give her the chance to show us what the madness of the Shivering Isles did to her truly innocent and good soul. The best of men can be corrupted, and good people can do some terrible things if pushed too far to stop themselves...
And of course, I must have some humor spread throughout, to keep it from getting too dark and miserable.
Chapter 2.2--The Errand Boy
On Sundas mornings, when the Madgod favored Dementia, we went to the http://images.uesp.net//8/85/SI-place-Sacellum_Arden-Sul.jpg to hear the High Priest sermonize the teachings of the Demented. I tried to listen carefully, but I could never get myself to enjoy sermons, and very often my mind wandered. I couldn’t help but wonder what the High Priest of Mania was thinking as he sat in his own pulpit, praying quietly to himself while trying to ignore the words that the High Priest of Dementia spoke. I often wondered, though never aloud, what was it that made the Manics so terrible? Why did they disagree so strongly with our teachings?
The one time I did ask this question aloud, Muurine answered sharply, “The Manics are blinded by their inability to see beyond the tips of their noses. They do not really care about what is true and what is not, because they would rather eat and drink and act like fools. The only thing they care about is themselves, and nothing more. Just stay away from the Manics, Syl. They are no good, and they cannot be trusted.”
That was easy enough to obey, though I didn’t feel any more assured of the evils of Mania than I had before I’d asked my question of her. I’d never even met a Manic, up to that point in my life, having only seen them from afar. They didn’t look all that frightening to me—if anything, they were just a bit odd, with their bright colored clothing and over-the-top mannerisms. I only stayed away from them because I was told to do so, and because I was chaperoned whenever I left the palace.
Soon after my mother’s death, I began sneaking out of the palace, because I hated always being followed by Muurine and my father’s Seducers. It felt refreshing to wander the grounds, believing that I had finally found the freedom I was so badly beginning to crave. The Seducers that patrolled the grounds, of course, knew who I was and reported to my father what I was up to. He let me continue to think I was escaping, though, because the Seducers would still be able to keep an eye on me, as long as I never left the palace grounds. Of course, being only a child, I never imagined venturing any further. But that would soon change, when one particular escape brought a meeting that would forever change my life, in ways I could never have imagined.
It was grey and wet that morning, but the afternoon sun began to peek through the clouds when I snuck out that day. I wandered down to my favorite thinking place, by one of the giant roots that grew up from the ground, twisting up toward the ramparts and holding tightly to one of the columns. When I sat down, I rested my head in my arms upon a dampened rock, quietly thinking and trying not to cry. It had been months now since my mother’s death, but I still thought of her all the time, unable to chase the painful memories from my mind. I missed her so terribly, and a part of me felt empty; something vital was missing and could never be replaced.
I let out a sigh and closed my eyes as a tear slipped gently down my cheek. That’s when I heard a small voice nearby, asking, “What’s the matter with you?”
My eyes shot open, and I was surprised when I turned my head to see a small boy standing only a few feet away. He had soft brown hair and green eyes the shade of a perfectly polished emerald. He was mer, like me, and given his petit size, I assumed he was also Bosmer. Other than size, he appeared to be around my age. But he was not Demented. This I knew right away, as his clothing was most certainly Manic in style, simple as they were; he was likely a servant of the House of Mania.
“Nothing’s the matter with me,” I said defensively, turning away again and trying to ignore him, as was expected of me. But then he came closer.
“If nothing’s the matter, then why are you crying?” he persisted. “Did somebody hurt you?”
“I’m not crying,” I protested; but then I had to wipe some tears from my cheeks and use my sleeve to dry my eyes. When I looked back up at him, he was still watching me curiously, and I finally grew tired of his gawking. “Why are you talking to me? Don’t you know that I’m Demented?”
“Yeah, so…?”
“So…it means we can’t talk to each other,” I replied. Then I added, with an air, “Besides, I’m a faerie princess. You’re just a pauper.”
The boy laughed. “You’re not a faerie, or a princess! Faeries have wings, and there’s no such thing as a princess in the Shivering Isles.”
“There is too!” I cried, upset that he would laugh at me. “My father says so, and he is always right.”
“I’ve never known anyone who was always right. Only Sheogorath….”
“My father is the Duke of Dementia,” I said haughtily, rising to my feet. I was pleased to find that I was, in fact, taller than he by just a tiny bit. “You’re just a little peasant—what do you know?”
“I’m not a peasant!” he cried, his cheeks reddening a bit. “Peasants are those birds they sometimes have on the supper table, and I’m not a bird—I’m an errand boy.”
Now I laughed. “You’re stupid. Peasants are poor people; pheasants are the birds of which you speak.”
He simply shrugged, unbothered by my insults. “Well, at any rate, I’m still not a peasant. I’m not poor.”
“You look poor,” I replied. “Your clothes are dull, your hair is dirty, and you smell like a barn.”
“I don’t care,” he said with a shrug. He then added, “You probably don’t even know what a barn smells like, so you’re not a very good critic.”
“What are you, an imbecile or something? Why are you even talking to me? Don’t you have work to do, errand boy?”
“Not now,” he answered, still not letting my attempts at insulting him work to bring him down. “The Duke said I could go out and play.”
“The Duke? You mean the Duke of Mania?”
“Mmhm. He’s my master, and my cousin’s uncle.”
“Wouldn’t that make him your uncle, as well?”
“Why would it? He’s not related to me; only to my cousin.”
I’ll admit I was a bit confused. But I didn’t want to look bad in front of a commoner, so I shrugged my shoulders and said, “Whatever. Why would I care who is and isn’t related to you?”
“You wouldn’t, I suppose,” he replied. Then he suddenly thrust his hand toward me, and said, “I’m Thadon, by the way. What is your name?”
I looked at his outstretched hand with hesitation. I knew I shouldn’t be speaking to him; my father’s hatred of the Manics was far from secret. But Thadon didn’t seem like someone not to trust, so I asked myself, what would be the harm in shaking his hand?
“I’m Syl,” I said finally, taking his hand and offering a meager smile. He became elated, and a smile spread across his face that was so filled with warmth and honesty, that I couldn’t help being drawn in by it from the start. My smile then grew, and it was the first time I had really smiled since the day my mother died.
“Syl is a pretty name,” he said thoughtfully. “What is its meaning?”
“It means faerie,” I replied, to which he smiled.
“So, you really are a faerie, after all!”
“I told you I was, didn’t I?”
His smile became more serious then, and he looked downward for a moment, almost shyly. When he looked up again, his eyes met mine, and he said, “You’re pretty, too. I like your eyes. They are like the sky, only prettier.”
I blushed. I had never really received compliments about my appearance before, so I wasn’t sure what to think about it. But I said, in a timid manner, “Thanks. I like your eyes, too.”
“Thank you!” he exclaimed, seeming overjoyed by my compliment. His emerald green eyes continued to examine my face, while I continued looking down shyly.
He laughed suddenly, causing me to look up and ask, “What?”
“Oh, nothing…. I’m just happy, that’s all.”
“Why?”
“Why not? I’ve made a new friend!”
“I never said I was your friend.”
“Aren’t you?” he asked. “I thought you were…. But perhaps I was wrong.”
“Thadon, we can’t be friends. It’s against the rules.”
“What rules?”
“Well…my father’s, for one; he would never allow me to befriend a Manic.”
He glanced around almost impishly, and then said, “It’s not a crime if no one knows about it.”
“That’s foolish,” I stated bluntly. “We could get in a lot of trouble.”
“I know,” he replied with a shrug. “But I like you. You’re nothing like what they’ve said.”
“What do you mean?”
“You’re Demented,” he answered. “But you’re also very nice. And you haven’t bitten me yet, so I’d assume you’re not going to.”
“Who says we bite people?”
He shrugged. “My cousin and all my other friends….”
“That’s absurd. We’re not vampires. We don’t bite anybody…. But I fail to see why you would call me ‘nice’; I’ve been anything but kind to you.”
“That’s not true,” he argued. “You shook my hand, and you gave me a compliment. That’s called being nice.”
I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms over my chest. “Whatever.”
“Say,” he said suddenly, “would you like to run errands with me in the afternoons? Some of the people give me candy as a tip, and there’s even some people who give me gold!”
“Why would I want to do that? I’m not a servant. I’m a lady of esteem.”
Again, he shrugged. “I thought you might like to share some of it with me, that’s all.”
I looked at him curiously. Sharing wasn’t selfish; but everyone said that the Manics only ever thought of themselves. What did he want out of me? Was he really only seeking friendship? It seemed hard to believe. Before I came up with an answer, though, I heard Muurine calling my name, and I gasped aloud. “I have to go!” I cried, turning to leave.
“But wait!” Thadon called. “Will you come with me tomorrow? I go out at 2 every afternoon….”
“I’ll try!” I shouted, running up the steps as fast as I could in my heavy brocade skirts, afraid of what might happen if Muurine saw me talking to a Manic child.
I met her as she was walking away from the doorway to the House of Dementia, and she asked, suspiciously, looking toward the staircase, “Who were you talking to?”
“No one,” I said, without a hint of dishonesty in my voice. “Just one of the Mazken….”
She was unsure of my answer, but she seemed to decide I was telling the truth, and she turned to lead me back inside, saying, “Well, hurry up! You’re late for your dancing lesson. The Duke will not be pleased.”
As I followed, I looked over my shoulder to see Thadon coming up the steps. He watched me disappear inside, and then returned to the House of Mania, presumably back to his duties.
What a delightful episode! Not to mention one that will doubtlessly change Syl's life forever. So here we meet young Thadon, catching her eye with his forbidden Manic style. Under it all is of course the division between the two cultures, which doubtlessly only adds to the attraction, as all forbidden fruits do.
Don’t you know that I’m Demented?
This is wonderful when taken out of context!
And you haven’t bitten me yet, so I’d assume you’re not going to.
I love this!
nits:
but the afternoon sun began to peak through the clouds
You are looking for peek, which is to look. Peak is the highest point on something, such as the top of a mountain.
You’re late for you dancing lesson.
Looks like Thadon absconded with the "r" in your!
This was a delight! You really got into a dynamic scene quickly in this episode and it as a fabulous scene at that! I smiled all the way through this encounter between the little Demented and the even smaller Manic. You did a great job of imparting loads of personality to Thadon and Syl here. Wonderful dialogue!
I loved the overtones of forbidden fruit and class constraints.
“Peasants are those birds they sometimes have on the supper table, and I’m not a bird—I’m an errand boy.”
SubRosa: Again, thank you for pointing out the errors. And thanks for enjoying this episode! This is one of my favorite scenes, so I took more care in making sure to develop the two characters we know so well, and to portray them as they should be. We can already see in them the personalities that define them in the game, but because of their youth and innocence, it is not quite as distinct.
mALX: I am glad you picked up on the transference in Syl's actions toward Thadon. And Thadon was just too naive and sweet to let it bother him. Plus, he couldn't help being intrigued by the little Demented girl who calls herself a fairy princess.
Acadian: Thank you. Yes, this was originally my first truly dynamic scene. I wanted the first meeting of theirs to really stand out, as it is perhaps one of the most important scenes in the whole story, because it sets the stage for what is to come.
To all: The innocence and naivete of children was important for me to portray in this scene--neither of them really understands the class-restraints and the differences of culture that separates them. Thadon, as we saw, couldn't care less about it, and Syl only does what she is told out of fear. But Thadon's charm manages to break through the layer of protective ice that Syl has already begun to construct around herself, and their friendship blossoms, despite the huge rift between their people. But can it withstand...?
Chapter 2.3--A Forbidden Friendship
The next afternoon, at two on the hour, I decided to sneak out to meet Thadon. I doubted that he would actually be waiting for me, until I saw him sitting on the rock where I’d been crying the day before. I noticed right away that his hair looked freshly cleaned and it shined in the sun; he also had it pulled back with a leather cord, and he looked very handsome. Was it because of what I said? Was he trying to impress me?
He jumped up the moment he saw me coming, and exclaimed, “Syl! You came!”
“I said I would, didn’t I?”
“Well, sort of—you said you would try. I’m glad that you made it.”
I looked behind me and around, to be sure that no one was watching us. Then I took his hand and began walking toward the door to Bliss, saying, “We must go quickly, so nobody sees us. I could get in a lot of trouble, you know.”
“I know,” he said, following me cheerfully. Somehow I doubted he really understood just how much trouble I would be in if we were caught. He obviously had never been caned before….
Once we passed through the doorway into Bliss, I relaxed a little more. Though I would stick out very obviously as a Demented girl, no one there was likely to recognize who I was, if they even cared, so I was out of trouble—at least for awhile.
http://images.uesp.net//c/c3/SI-place-Bliss.jpg was nothing like I had ever seen, and I was in awe right away. The streets were paved and clean, the stone buildings were glistening and white; nothing like the grey and weathered buildings that lined the mostly unpaved and muddy streets of http://images.uesp.net//2/20/SI-place-Crucible.jpg. The air was fresh, and it smelled of a mixture of jasmine, aster blooms, and various spices—cinnamon was the most prominent, and it tickled my taste-buds, exciting my senses. The air in Crucible was nothing like it—more a mixture of must and decay, most unpleasing to the senses.
The water in Bliss, which was the same water that ran through the House of Mania’s throne room, was channeled into a sort of waterway that flowed in waterfalls and streams through the city. The water was clear and clean, unlike the water in Crucible, which was anything but clean once it left the House of Dementia and flowed into the streets of the city, making the mud even worse in some areas. There was no channel for the water in Crucible to flow through, so it was rather unsightly, and it caused problems with insects and contributed to the growth of mold on some of the buildings and statues.
Another difference between the two halves of the city was that everyone in Bliss seemed cheerful and vibrant, so full of life. Muurine always said that it was because they were all on drugs, but they just seemed happy to me. No one gave me any odd or unfriendly looks, though I very obviously didn’t belong in their part of the city. They all greeted me kindly, with a smile and a wave, or a nod of the head. Thadon greeted everyone we passed, and they all seemed to know who he was, and they liked him.
“I have to stop at the shop, first,” he said to me suddenly, bringing me out of my thoughts. “The Duke ordered a new pair of shoes, and they arrived from the cobbler in Highcross today.”
“All right,” I replied. “I’ll just wait here.”
“Why?” he asked, giving me a funny look. “Don’t you want to come in with me?”
“I don’t know if I should; won’t they ask me to leave?”
Thadon chuckled. “You’re very strange, you know that?”
“No, I’m not!”
He shrugged and went on. “Tilse Areleth is really nice. She owns the shop. She won’t make you leave.” He lowered his voice a little, and said, “She’s the one who tips me with real money! Come on, you’ll see!”
He pulled me by the hand into the shop, which had a sign out front that read: Common Treasures. Once inside, we were greeted by a tall woman with flawless blue skin, red eyes, and copper colored hair—she was a Dunmer, or Dark Elf. All Dunmer had blue, green, or grayish skin, and red eyes. Some people were afraid of them, but I thought they were beautiful and exotic.
“Greetings, children,” the woman said. “Thadon, who is your friend?”
“Hello, Tilse!” Thadon beamed. “This is Syl. She’s a Demented faerie, but she’s actually very nice.”
http://images.uesp.net//c/cf/SI-npc-Tilse_Areleth.jpg smiled warmly, and her red eyes turned to me without a hint of unkindness. “It’s so good to meet you, Syl. My name is Tilse, and I own this shop. Feel free to browse, and buy anything you like. And because you are Thadon’s friend, I’ll even give you half off anything you buy.”
“Th-Thank you,” I stammered, shaking her hand and forcing a smile. I was always shy around people I didn’t know well, but it was especially so around Manics.
“Actually,” Thadon put in, “we’re here to pick up a package for Lord Antonius.”
“Ah, yes,” said the shopkeeper, going behind the counter to retrieve a package that was wrapped in brown paper. “Shoes, are they not?”
“That’s the one!” he chimed, taking the package in exchange for money. “Thanks, Tilse.”
“Of course,” she smiled. “I’m always happy to be of service to Antonius. Let him know I’ll be at his supper tonight; and also tell him that I get to have him first afterward. Last time he chose that floozy, Mathilde, and I don’t appreciate it after all I have done for him.”
“I’ll tell him,” said Thadon. I had no idea what they were talking about, but I figured I likely didn’t want to know, either.
“Thanks,” Tilse replied with another smile. Then she held out her hand. “And here, keep one of the coins, for your troubles.”
Thadon eagerly accepted the coin, though he had been expecting it. I was surprised then, when she pulled out another coin and offered it to me, saying, “And I can’t forget to tip your helper, too. Go ahead. Take it.”
I hesitated, as I had never been given money before. But Thadon looked at me in an urging manner, so I took the coin and thanked her for her generosity.
Before we left, Thadon ended up trading his coin back to her for a bag full of sweets; he asked me if I wanted anything, but I shook my head. I wasn’t about to blow my first drake on something so unnecessary; I was going to save it for something special, perhaps.
He shook his head with a chuckle, as if it were odd for me to save my coin. But then he took my hand and led me out of the shop with barely a goodbye to the shopkeeper.
“Where are we going next?” I asked, as he led me through the city.
“To take a break and enjoy our reward,” he replied. “That was my only errand for the day, and the Duke isn’t expecting me back for another hour.”
He took me to a beautiful area that was like a park of some sort, where waterfalls and fountains flowed beautifully around colorful plants and flowers. There were a couple of people walking together there, but they paid us little attention as he led me to one of the bridges that crossed over the stream. Flower petals that had fallen off some trees nearby were floating on the water, and it was enchanting.
Thadon perched up on the railing of the bridge and began eating his sweets, while I stood awkwardly nearby, watching him eat. Then, with a mouthful of chocolate, he offered some to me; but I declined, even backing away.
“Why not?” he asked, after swallowing his mouthful. “Don’t you like chocolate?”
“I…can’t,” I replied, backing up another step.
Thadon raised his brow and wrinkled his face in confusion. “Why…can’t you? That sounds awfully silly. It’s just chocolate—it’s not like it’s poison or something.”
“I’m…allergic.”
“Allergic? How can you be allergic to chocolate? That doesn’t sound natural. Who told you that?”
“My parents did, because I almost died from eating some when I was three.”
“That’s odd. I’ve never heard of someone being allergic to chocolate.”
“Well, now you have.”
He lied back on his elbow again and swung his leg as it dangled off the edge of the bridge. Then he popped another chocolate into his mouth, and said, “That’s very sad, you know. Chocolate is my favorite thing in the world! I would die if I was allergic. I would eat it anyway.”
“That would be foolish,” I replied. “Why would you kill yourself just to eat chocolate?”
“Because it tastes so good; I just couldn’t live without it!”
“You could—if you wanted to.”
“Well, I wouldn’t.” He chuckled a little, and then he giggled.
“What’s so funny?”
He snickered, then replied, “I was just thinking, if I were allergic to chocolate, then they would have to put on my gravestone: ‘Thadon. Died a very happy boy, with a mouth full of chocolate!’”
He laid back his head and held his stomach as he shook with laughter, but I was not amused. I thought he was being entirely foolish, and I found little to laugh about having a deadly allergy. But then he suddenly lost his balance and fell into the water below. I gasped and ran to the side of the bridge, to look down at him. He was soaked to the bone but uninjured, and his chocolates floated away.
“My chocolate!” he cried in alarm, sitting up and watching it disappear down the stream. Then he let out a disappointed sigh and splashed his hand in the water. But when he heard me laughing, he looked up and smiled at me. He began laughing, too, as he pulled himself up.
“Perhaps it’s a sign from the Madgod that you shouldn’t be eating chocolates,” I suggested through my laughter.
“Only when I’m around you,” he replied. Then he bowed to me as if he had just put on a show. I laughed even more, and then ran down to the edge of the stream as he bent down to rinse his hands in the water.
“You look ridiculous,” I giggled, as he smiled up at me in his water-drenched state.
“Oh, really?” he asked. Then, out of nowhere, he grabbed the hem of my skirt and pulled me into the water with him.
I screamed as I splashed into the cold, knee-deep water, and at first I was furious. But when I saw him laughing again, I couldn’t help but join in, and after he helped me up, we stood in the stream together laughing like a couple of clowns and splashing at each other.
When we settled down, he climbed out and helped me to do the same. Then we tried to shake ourselves off while the warm air and sunshine began very slowly to dry us off. He stood there smiling at me for a moment, until I asked, “What?”
“You have a beautiful laugh,” he said with sincerity. “It’s like a melody on the breeze, and it’s pleasing to my ears.”
I became bashful again, and I looked down at my dripping black skirt as I cleared my throat. “I’m going to have a hard time explaining this to Muurine and my father….”
“Who’s Muurine?”
“My governess,” I replied. “She’s been with me for most of my life, and she takes care of me all the time since my mother died….”
“Oh. I’m sorry.”
“It’s not your fault. It was Alanwen; I’m sure of it.”
“Alanwen…?”
“My father’s concubine…. He says she’s not guilty, but I know she killed my mother. She had to have done it; no one else could have possibly been responsible.”
“Why won’t he punish her then?”
“He loves her,” I replied with a sigh, leaning on the railing, as we were back on the bridge again. “But she doesn’t love him—not really. She just wants to have my father all to herself and be his wife. But my father isn’t going to marry her. He knows better than that.”
Thadon didn’t answer. He just let out a sigh and looked down into the water. It was not like him to be quiet—that much I had already figured out—so it intrigued me.
“What’s wrong?”
He shrugged and turned away, leaning on the railing more and sighing heavily. Then he said, “My parents died when I was six. I don’t remember them a whole lot, but I do still miss them.”
“How did they die?”
“On the road from Hale, where I was born; they were attacked by Grummites.”
“Where were you when it happened?”
“I was with them, but my mother hid me in some bushes when the attack began. Just as she got up and turned back to help my father and my older brother fight, her throat was slashed right in front of me….”
His voice broke then, and I saw that he was trembling as he began to cry. The experience had been traumatic for him, and he was still terrified. I put my arms around him, and he soon began to relax. When he looked back up at me, his green eyes were still filled with tears.
“Because the Duke was a friend of my mother, as my aunt was married to his brother at the time, he took me in and has raised me ever since. You were right, Syl; I’m only a peasant….”
Taking his hand, I smiled, and said, “No. I was wrong. You are a prince, to me, Thadon.”
He looked up at me and smiled, then threw his arms around me. We stood on the bridge there, dripping and cold, but locked in a warm embrace. After that, he grabbed his package for the Duke and began leading me back to the palace. We held each other’s hand very tightly as we walked, and I said, “I’m glad you are my friend, Thadon. I’m sorry I misjudged you, at first.”
“It’s okay,” he replied. “I’m glad that you’re my friend, too. We’ll be friends forever, won’t we, Syl?”
“Of course,” I answered, with a warm smile, as he opened the door to let me into the palace grounds. And so it was—we were friends.
That was just absolutely adorable! I never would have imagined Syl and Thadon being such cute kids, but now that I have seen it, I cannot picture them any other way. Portraying this scene from their childhood was an excellent choice, as you help us bond with both the characters before they grow up, and things start to get really nasty.
I would die if I was allergic. I would eat it anyway.
I am sure he would! Here we see the road that led Thadon to Felldew. Who ever would have imagined that chocolate is a gateway drug!
“This is Syl. She’s a Demented faerie, but she’s actually very nice.”
You simply MUST consider this as the new title for your story! It is perfect!
This episode was as delightful to read as eating a box of chocolates! Adorable is a very good word here.
Before we left, Thadon ended up trading his coin back to her for a bag full of sweets; he asked me if I wanted anything, but I shook my head. I wasn’t about to blow my first drake on something so unnecessary; I was going to save it for something special, perhaps.
What a neat insight into perhaps a difference between Manic and Demented thinking. I was reminded of the grasshopper and the ant fable.
SubRosa and mALX: Indeed, chocolate is the gateway drug in Thadon's case. After all, an addictive personality always starts small, before it leads to such harmful addictions as greenmote and felldew. And thank you. I am glad you have come to see the innocence that once lied within these two infamous characters!
Acadian:I don't recall that fable, but I'll have to see if I can find it. Any way you can point me in the right direction? And thank you, of course. Yes, these scenes are very possibly my favorites, simply because it reminds us how truly amazing and adorable children are in their innocence. Even I sometimes forget this, like when I walk into the kitchen to find eggs smashed on the floor...lol
All: I have added links to screenshots found on the UESP wiki, throughout the prologue and chapters. Some of them are within the episodes (past and current), and you can find them when the text in the middle of the story is bold. This is mostly for the readers who haven't been to the Shivering Isles, but also for any of you who care to check them out!
Chapter 3.1--Cold, Harsh Reality
My friendship with Thadon was the first real one I had ever had. We were of the same age, and we got along swimmingly back in those days, long before the madness of the Isles had consumed us. To this day, I still don’t know what it was that drew us to each other. Perhaps we were just lonely. But there seemed to be something special between us right from the start, and we began spending every afternoon together, running errands for the Duke of Mania and playing in Bliss.
There was a fountain in Bliss, near the gate that opened to the countryside of Mania. It was a beautiful statue made of gleaming white marble, depicting Lord Sheogorath seated atop a pillar in all His splendor, with three beautiful mermaids gracing the column below Him. Fresh, sparkling water flowed up from beneath the Madgod and spilled into the fountain below, signifying the life-giving waters that He pours out for all of His people to drink. That fountain enchanted me as a little girl, and Thadon would take me to visit there often.
The first time Thadon took me to that fountain, he brought a couple of drakes with him and gave one of them to me, saying, “Here, make a wish. They always come true when you wish at the fountain of Sheogorath’s Graces.”
“What?” I asked, completely puzzled as he stuffed the coin into my hand.
He looked at me incredulously, and then he burst out laughing. “By Sheogorath, have you never made a wish at a fountain before?”
I always felt uncomfortable and self-conscious being the brunt of his jokes, and I hated when anyone laughed at me. Holding my arm and looking down uncomfortably, I shrugged my shoulders, and answered meekly, “No one has ever told me to before….”
“Well then, let me show you,” he said, walking up to the fountain and gazing at the statue for a moment. “All right, first you close your eyes and wish for something that you truly want. But you can’t say it out loud, or it won’t come true. Then, you toss your coin into the fountain, as you make your wish, and if your heart is pure, your wish will be granted.”
“And what are you going to wish for,” I remarked sarcastically, “chocolate?”
Thadon cleared his throat uncomfortably and looked down at the ground, “Well…I can’t now that you’ve guessed it…. I don’t know what I’ll wish for. Perhaps you should go first.”
I rolled my eyes and chuckled a little, stepping forward and looking down into the water. This all seemed a silly Manic ritual to me, but I would try it, just for fun. After all, what could it hurt?
Taking a moment to clear my head, I closed my eyes and thought about what I would wish for, if I could have only one wish in the world. When I had decided, I took a deep breath, dropped the coin into the water and made a wish.
“There,” I said, stepping back and turning to Thadon. “That was easy.”
He smiled, and said, “See? And now, you just have to wait and see if your wish comes true. Now it’s my turn!”
I waited and watched as he repeated the ritual of making a wish, and after it was finished, he turned to me and smiled. “Do you want to know what I wished for?”
“I thought that if you told me it would not come true?”
“So I did,” he replied. “But I’ll tell you anyway, and hopefully it will still come true.”
“It’s your wish, not mine,” I said, shrugging carelessly.
“I wished for a kiss from a beautiful elven maiden.”
It took me but only a minute to realize that he meant me, and then I felt my face turn scarlet and I looked away with embarrassment. “I…have never kissed anyone before.”
“Neither have I,” he responded, looking at me hopefully. “My cousin, Baenlin, who is a year older than me, has kissed a girl before. He told me about it last week, and he said it was okay. I was…hoping to try it, but…only with the girl that I like.”
“Well,” I said slowly, still trying to form a sentence in my mind, “perhaps if you…ask the girl…she might say yes. I mean, it…it’s worth a try.”
He stepped closer to me then and reached for my hand. I felt a fluttering in my stomach unlike I had ever felt before, and when he looked into my eyes I thought I was going to faint. Holding my hand in his, he asked, “Syl, will you be my first kiss?”
In that moment, it was as if time was suddenly standing still, and my heart raced. I was afraid, and yet I wanted to kiss him. I had never thought of kissing a boy until then, but I wanted to kiss him. And so, without saying a word, I leaned in and closed my eyes as we pressed our lips together in a brief but meaningful first kiss.
When we looked at each other after it was done, there was a moment of awe written on both of our faces. But very quickly we realized what we had done, and the awe was replaced by surprise and embarrassment, and then we both mumbled some hasty words and ran from each other. We were only children, after all, and it was too awkward for us then.
* Old Business: The Ant and the Grasshopper is one of Aesop's Fables. To paraphrase a brief wiki summary: 'The fable concerns a grasshopper that has spent the warm months singing while the ant worked to store up food for the winter. When that season arrives, the grasshopper finds itself dying of hunger and, upon asking the ant for food, is rebuked for idleness.'
The fable lightly came to mind when Demented Girl questioned why Manic Boy was going to spend his gold on something as fleeting as chocolate.
As the two youngsters developed their forbidden friendship, Romeo and Juliet also came to mind.
* New Business:
Your linked UESP shots are very helpful, since I don't get to the Isles very often.
And a beautiful first kiss! Very touching and superbly written. Innocence, only to be lost before the end of the episode.
What a wonderful job you did of painting the demented mind of Muurine as she beat Syl, then apologized like a mother, then extolled the virtues of torture!
This episode did indeed feel sort of like an innocence lost. Syl's dark reminder that she would learn to torture her enemies really brought that feeling home at the end.
* Nit: The first time Thadon took me to that fountain, he brought a couple of drakes with and gave one of them to me,
I think you want 'with him' instead of just 'with'.
The added pictures do help wonderfully. It hearkens me back to the old days when novels would have illustrations in them, usually a dozen or so per book.
Again, Syl and Thadon are so sweet! Their first kiss was wonderfully done, especially with the embarrassed flight afterward! Oh, to be so young again!
I wonder if Baenlin is the same one from Bruma?
Syl's beating was just as I expected would eventually happen. One thing though, you never described exactly how Muurine did it. With her bare hands and feet? A flogger? A cane? etc...
He will be having four traitors tortured for the entertainment
Yippie! Party time in the Shivering Isles!
none of them doubted my Dementedness again
Well that's a relief!
nits:
My friendship with Thadon was the first real friendship I had ever had.
You have a repeat of friendship in the same sentence. You might change the second occurrence to one.
These last few chapters have been excellent! Your story takes us in surprising new directions. We see the wonderfully sweet innocence of youth through the friendship between Syl and Thadon. The harsh realities of life in the Isles are embodied by Muurine’s brutality upon their return to Dementia. Seeing her slap Syl across the face gave us an instant reminder of just who Muurine really is. Behind the love that she so clearly has for Syl lies a woman who still collects body parts for display in her living room! I am left wondering how Syl will manage to disobey Ada’s edict in the future, because I think that Thadon has become her particular form of chocolate.
Hard to fathom Syl ever getting any enjoyment from watching people get beaten to a bloody pulp in front of her. That's just the kind of shocking revelation that makes me truly believe I am there in the Shivering Isles. You say you are insane? Well, if that is true, please don't stop, as your insanity is quite delightful and endearing.
It was hard to read of Syl's punishment, however, it was not unwarranted. Caning was a very popular disciplinary tactic in the Middle Ages (it only recently fell out of favor), and Syl certainly did break her Father's word (not to mention his law). I am glad he had compassion enough to hold back on his daughter, but nonetheless, I do hope Syl learned to respect her father a little better.
It's not fun to be punished, but it has to happen from time to time. You paint an excellent picture of Syl's past here, and I hate it that I'm being left hanging now.
Good show!
I have only scanned this to date, but it is clearly brilliantly written, and there is a compelling backstory being laid down. You lay the foundations for Syl's future paranoia superbly. You show how she learns from a young age that court life is ruled by Machiavellian tendencies, and we see her competing with Alawen for her father's attention, and taking relish in 'winning'. She will carry these experiences into adulthood and this is really a fascinating exploration of her character. Many thumbs up from me so far!
Acadian:Thanks for the story of the Grasshopper and the Ant. It sounded familiar, but at the same time it didn't. Indeed, it does fit that scene with Thadon and Syl very well.
I am glad you like the links. I've enjoyed the screenshots in everyone else's fan fics, so I decided I could use UESP to add screenshots to mine, to make it a little easier to envision.
Also, thank you for the nit. I fixed it right away.
SubRosa:I've read a lot of old novels, and I loved the pictures in older additions. It's really a shame that we've moved away from that.
Nope, different Baenlin. But I liked the name, so I snatched it for Thadon's cousin. I wanted a similar sound to their names.
I also changed the scene of Syl's beating, so it's more clear how she was beaten. Thanks for the tip--and also the nit.
mALX: Oh yes, it was important for me to show Thadon's charm right from the start. Even as a kid, he was already showing signs of his future casanova-like personality. They say the Duke of Mania has a way with women...
SPEW !!! You always catch me off guard with these hilarious references !!!!--Hehehe. Isn't it great?
Destri:Thanks! Yes, the first chapter was still more of an introduction, so it wasn't as dynamic. But, unless I want to sort of graze through something, from the second chapter onward there is a lot more dynamism between the characters.
And yes, it was also important for me to show the confliction and depth in characters such as Muurine. She loves Syl, but Muurine is literally insane. And we also see an inkling of the strong feelings about what it means to be Manic and Demented that leads Muurine to the ultimate act of betrayal against the Duchess she raised and loved.
Thomas:Thank you. Glad my insanity pleases you.
Yes, caning was brutal but common, and I thought it fit perfectly with the pseudo-medieval world of TES and the Shivering Isles. Poor Syl had to endure caning fairly often as a child, and it taught her the lesson of hard love.
Ceidwad:Thank you. Yes, Syl resists madness for quite some time, in fact, but once she is taken by insanity, we see what she became--I'd say paranoid schizophrenic is a good way to describe Syl's particular form of madness.
And she certainly does take pleasure in winning and in being on top. She is very complex, so while she can be humble and caring, she can also tend to be selfish, demanding, and prideful. She would likely have made an excellent Duchess, if only she were not insane!
All: I thank you most humbly for your compliments, criticisms, help, and support. You are all taking a part in making Syl's story be the best it can be, and your enjoyment of it makes me ever more eager to keep her story going, as well as improve it along the way. You are all my inspiration and my motivation. Thank you for taking the time to be a part of this journey with me and Syl, into the depths of madness.
Chapter 3.2--Lessons
A couple of weeks passed before I even attempted to sneak out to the palace grounds again, but I was not intending to speak to Thadon. I just wanted to find a moment of quiet solitude under the shade of the trees—another much-craved luxury that I rarely got to have. When Thadon came through from running his usual errands in Bliss, he saw me and gasped, running to approach me.
“Syl?” he asked quietly, glancing around to make sure we weren’t being watched. “Syl, are you all right? I haven’t seen you in so long; I thought I was never going to see you again! Did you get into trouble?”
“Of course, I did,” I replied in a rather unfriendly manner. “Are you a fool, Thadon, to still be talking to me? Go away, before we both get in trouble.”
“But, Syl…I…I want us to still be friends. You said that we would be friends forever, and I thought that you meant it.”
“We can’t be friends, Thadon; don’t you understand? We’re not the same.”
“Sure we are. We’re both Bosmer. We both have brown hair. And we’re the same age….”
“None of that matters, Thadon! It’s what’s inside us that is different. You’re a Manic, I’m Demented…. We can never be the same.”
“But, Syl….”
“Just…go away!” I cried, bursting to my feet and shoving him to the ground. “I never want to see you again!”
I ran away from him, as warm tears slid down my cheeks. Returning to the palace, I shut myself in my room, slamming the door so hard that Muurine awoke from the nap she had accidentally taken in a chair, and she sat up, asking, “Syl? What’s with all the noise? Where have you been?”
“Nowhere,” I snapped, sitting at my writing desk and returning to my studies, where I was supposed to have been the whole time. Muurine often fell asleep while I attended my studies in the afternoons, and that was how it was so easy for me to sneak out. Thank the Madgod for necromancy and the Rooftop Club, both which kept her up late nearly every night.
She sighed and moved to a chair, still groggy from having been awakened from a relatively deep slumber, and never bothered to ask again what I had been up to that day.
I never did see Thadon again—not while we were children, that is. He was busy serving Lord Antonius, and I was busy with my own life of learning to become a proper Demented lady, whatever that was. I was eager to learn, but I was not an easy child to raise. This was due to my fiery and independent spirit, which often got me into trouble, but no one ever asked me to be anything other than what I was. There is an old elven saying, which Muurine often applied to me: “Elven children are slow to come, and most demanding of their welcome.” Apparently it was even more so with noble elven children, and Muurine certainly had her hands full with me.
I continued to join Muurine while she made her rounds in the city to gossip with friends. While she visited, I sat by with my usual tasks, but now I was instructed also to listen carefully to their conversations, while not actually joining in. She said that it was imperative for me to pay close attention to the forms and patterns of speech in conversation—a lady must have a proper way of speaking, as well as writing. It seemed that there were a lot of things which a lady must do properly, and the lessons got quite boring at times. But I was still eager to be a fine lady, like my mother had once been, and like all the other ladies in Dementia’s court. The way they talked, the way they walked, even the way they ate, distinguished ladies of esteem from commoners. I had to learn those ways, or I would never be truly accepted in my father’s court.
Apart from learning to be a lady, and trying to get better in the schools of magicka, I was also instructed in the study of alchemy. This began when I was eleven, and I came to enjoy it quite thoroughly. It was the only arcane art in which I managed to excel. I still remember the hours I spent with her at her house, listening attentively to her lessons in alchemy. She was an excellent teacher, and I was an eager student. We stood there at the table in her quarters, and I watched as she carefully cut into her ingredients, showing me how to properly harvest the parts that were useful, and paying close attention to her descriptions of them.
“You must watch closely,” she told me, “and make a clean cut where necessary. One slight mistake could make a good potion into a deadly poison. You’ll want to know well which one you make, or you might harm yourself unawares.”
“But how will I know, Muurine?” I asked, fearing the consequences should I make a mistake.
“Listen well, and I will show you,” she replied, smiling as the lesson continued. “The Isles are filled with everything you would ever need to make potions and poisons. There are rich supplies all around you, growing from the earth, and breathing with life. You will likely never need to gather your own supplies, as your father has servants who will do that for you. But it is important that you should know how to identify the plants and each of their parts, and what they are useful for.”
“What are you making now?” I asked, looking at the strange alchemy equipment, and the scores of ingredients she had on the table, and wondering how I would ever remember all this.
Muurine smiled, and replied simply, “We are going to start with an easy task. Making potions to do good things can be much more difficult, but it is almost too easy to make a lethal poison. Today I will show you how to make a poison with the power to stop the flow of blood through your veins within minutes. It is very potent, and it is odorless. One would never know it was there, until it was too late. Take care not to touch anything unless I tell you to, and never drink a potion if you are not absolutely certain of the effects it will have on your body….”
The poison she taught me to make in this, my first lesson, would come to be of use to me in later years, but as a child I had no reason to believe I would ever have use for poisons. Still, I watched and listened carefully, drinking in every part of the lessons, fascinated by the ability to turn seemingly mundane ingredients into powerful elixirs.
However, it was about this time that I became interested in another area of study that would move me ever further away from the arcane arts, and help me to build a reputation for myself that would last me a lifetime. In no time at all, I would become one of the most promising students in the art of combat that Dementia had ever seen.
Hmm... master of combat? Could Syl possibly be considering joining Fight Club Rooftop Club? Perhaps Do you think she had to endure the usual new recruit's task of being weighed down with millions of clubs during their first fight?
That was not a very great end to what would have been a long lasting, and perhaps romantic, relationship. At the same time, however, I am glad you ended it, because the poor man in rags capturing the heart of the feisty rich girl is just too cliche to work nowadays (you can thank James Cameron for that). Doing that proves to me you know what you are doing here, and you know exactly what to avoid doing. In Oblivion terms: Your Penmanship skill increased.
Good luck in the Alchemy lessons, Syl.
Syl honing the skills that make her what she becomes later is hugely interesting, and you have done an Awesome job of presenting it !!! It seems her relationship with Muurine developed into a closer one as the years passed, and I noted that Syl knew some things about the woman that Muurine would have kept secret from her, lol. Awesome Write !!!
Thank the Madgod for necromancy and the Rooftop Club
Did Syl forget the first rule of Rooftop Club? Never talk about Rooftop Club!
“Elven children are slow to come, and most demanding of their welcome.”
I love this saying!
A nice episode, moving Syl ever toward her adulthood as she learns the skills she will need to one day become ruler of Dementia. The confrontation with Thadon was to be expected, as was Syl's reaction to it. I am also not surprised that Muurine would teach her to make lethal poisons before beneficial potions. That is indeed the nature of the Shivering Isles.
You are really in your unique and gifted style here that covers substantial amounts of time, yet is so delightfully interwoven with dynamic moments and powerful memories presented with crystal clarity. This was quite a joy to read as you continue to display the evolution of Syl.
At this stage in her life, Syl remains an endearing child, but is clearly showing hints of dangerousness and determination to survive in her world. I would not bet against her.
An intriguingly suggestive ending, with talk about the art of combat.
Thomas: Woot woot! +1 in Penmanship...I'll take it! (By the way, would you happen to know any trainers in penmanship I can go to, so I can just pay to have my skill increased faster? I'm feeling a little anxious, and would rather train than to actually have to work for it... )
mALX:Thanks! Yes, I really wanted to build a strong and endearing relationship between Syl and Muurine, to make it even more shocking what happens between them down the line... It just shows how Muurine's hatred for the Manics was stronger than her motherly love for Syl...
SubRosa:Ah, Syl's not too concerned with the rules of the Rooftop Club anymore... She hasn't been a true member in a long time....
“Elven children are slow to come, and most demanding of their welcome.”--Yes, me too! When I read that in The Real Barenziah, I had to use it here. It is now unofficially an official Elven proverb.
Acadian:Thank you. I have been very concerned about trying to evolve Syl gradually into her madness--for the most part she will resist it, because of the innate goodness in her--but over time, she sinks deeper into the madness that surrounds her. Of course, there will be some things down the road which will push her to have sort of a "growth spurt" of madness, shall we say?
Chapter 3.3—The Archer from Ashwood
My first inkling that I would enjoy combat came at a rather young age, but my father hesitated to allow me to study the art itself. This all changed one year, when Muurine’s nephew came to visit her from Ashwood. His name was Sindorin, and he was very tall and very handsome. He was a full twenty years older than I, but even as a small child I had a bit of a crush on him. Perhaps it was only what some would call ‘puppy love’ back then, but I was in love with him from the moment I first saw him.
He had beautiful, sun-tanned skin from spending most of his days hunting, as well as thick brown hair that fell in curls just past his shoulders. And who could forget his gorgeous blue eyes? I knew a beautiful man when I saw one, and I had decided, even before my mother had died, that I was going to marry him some day. But to Sindorin, I was only a child. He was fond of me, but it was more like what a brother might feel for his younger sister. Still, I enjoyed getting any kind of attention from him, and I relished it.
He greeted me warmly when he came with Muurine to the palace one day, a couple of months before my twelfth birthday. We had known each other for most of my life, so when I saw him, I didn’t even hesitate to run to him excitedly. He lifted me up in his arms and carried me upon his shoulder, cautioning me to be mindful of his bow and arrows. Sindorin was an accomplished archer and a fine warrior. He had promised since I was very young that someday he would teach me to use a bow, and it was on this visit that his promise came true.
With my father’s permission, Sindorin gave Muurine a much-needed break and took me out for the day to go riding in the countryside just outside the city. Two Seducers followed close behind, as always, but I was otherwise alone with my first love. I was praying that he would ask me to marry him that day, though that was obviously never going to happen.
As we rode, he complimented me, saying, “I see that your riding skills have improved since my last visit—you are becoming quite the accomplished equestrian already.”
I was simply tickled that he had noticed, but I tried to act more grown-up and casual about it, saying, “I know. Father has taught me very well, and riding is one of my passions.”
He smiled and brought his horse to a stop, as I did the same, then he climbed down and helped me dismount from my horse as well.
“This should be a decent spot,” he said, looking around the copse of trees that created a fine shooting range. “Are you ready to make archery your newest passion, Syl?”
I let out a sigh. He still spoke to me in that tone people often use when speaking to a child, and I resented it. But I tried to be grateful that he was going to teach me, after years of promises that had yet to come true.
“I’m ready,” I said, looking at him with eager eyes. Why couldn’t I just be a little older, so that he would notice me like he did all the beautiful ladies at court?
After setting up a target, he brought his bow to me, helping me to hold it correctly, and showing me the proper stance. Standing behind me, he moved my hands and my arms to where they needed to be, and then he helped me to mount the arrow. When I was at the ready, he told me to aim at the target and try to hit the bull’s eye in the center.
I don’t remember most of what he said, though, because I paid little attention to his words. Instead, I felt something almost instinctual take over from inside me, and I carefully analyzed the distance between the target and my bow. Knowing that the arrow needed to arch, I aimed slightly above the target before letting my arrow fly. I hit the bull’s eye on the very first shot. Sindorin was blown away, and at first he was speechless.
“Wow!” he said, shaking his head in disbelief as he looked at the arrow in the target. “Wow! Syl, that was amazing! Are you certain that you’ve never shot a bow and arrow before?”
I smiled with pride, and said, “I guess I’m a natural.”
“I guess,” he replied in agreement. He wiped his hand through his hair and took in a breath, then said, “They’ve always said that Bosmer make for the finest marksmen in the known world. I guess that proves true with you. Amazing! Try it again!”
He handed me another arrow, but this time it got to my head, and I shot too low. It hit the ground at the base of the tree, and I was embarrassed that I had missed so badly. But he handed me another arrow, saying, “It’s all right. Try it again.”
I shot the third arrow, and this time I got it straight on, hitting the first arrow and splitting it in two. Sindorin was left in awe.
“Whew. At this rate, you’ll be a better archer than I am by the time you’re grown! Won’t your father be proud! And Muurine—wait till they see you! They’ll be amazed!”
My smile returned, and I looked down at the bow in my hands. Though it was almost as big as I was, I managed to shoot that bow like a master. Even I was surprised. And Sindorin was right—my father and Muurine were left speechless when they saw my skill, though I didn’t do quite as well showing them as I had in the field that day.
However, I still was not allowed to start taking formal lessons for another year. I was hoping to have Sindorin as my instructor, but he had his own life to live down in Ashwood, and it was years before I would see him again. Every time I held a bow, though, I thought of him and smiled. Some day he was going to look at me the way he looked at Earana, and Celina, and Marie Petrand…. Some day, I told myself, Sindorin was going to love me the way I loved him.
So Syl has taken up the bow, and set her sights upon her archery mentor! Once more, it is refreshing to see Syl here, as a young girl totally smitten. Who cannot empathize with her hopes to somehow catch Sinderion's eye? Or feel her frustrations at being overlooked? I wonder if her feelings for Sinderion might be an important piece in her descent into her own personal darkness? As all things in the Shivering Isles, I am certain it cannot end well...
nits:
You use the names of many characters from the game, but so far none of them appear to be the same people. I suggest that if they are different individuals, you use new names for them. Else it becomes confusing. For example, when I saw the name Sinderion, the first image that jumped into my mind was of an old Altmer alchemist with a taste for Skingrad wines. I know coming up with new names can be difficult for some of us (especially myself), but what you might try is one of the name generators. Or perhaps pick names from one of the older games like Daggerfall, that people will not be familiar with. http://www.uesp.net/wiki/Lore:Names is a good starting point, as from here you can find all the names used in all games. One of my tricks is to take part of one name, and combine it with part of another.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v90/subrosa_florens/homerdoh.gif, I misspoke. I did realize that Muurine and Leo were the same ones in the game. Sorry about that.
Sindorin works. Making Baenlin the same one who gets horned in Bruma would be a nice twist. Likewise, it would be interesting if we saw some of the more colorful Tamriel characters like Glarthir, or the tomato lady, in visit the Isles as well.
WOO HOO !! Syl's first crush at age 12 !! Like SubRosa said, I remember that first crush at age 12 - and SubRosa is right, they never end well, in Shivering Isles or out, lol.
You have a knack for developing your characters in a subtle way, your Syl gains depth with each chapter !!! Awesome Write !!!
Another lovely episode as Syl continues to grow. Not to sound like a broken record, but you continue to do a wonderful job of demonstrating the passage of significant chunks of time while keeping a feel to your episodes that is both intimate and immediate. To do this without overusing historical summary is a talent that really shines here.
And another crush. Part of me wants to believe Syl's optimistic prediction, but between the age difference and being a Demented elf and life as it is, I am not optimistic.
Instead, I felt something almost instinctual take over from inside me, and I carefully analyzed the distance between the target and my bow.
I know what that is! We are witnessing the birth of a bowgirl! Woohoo!
SubRosa:I liked your Homer Simpson link!
And I will definitely make Baenlin the same one from Bruma. How and why he goes there will be a side story that I'll work into it much later in the story... The details of it will generally be the same as I already had for him leaving the story when he does, but I never really specified where he ended up, so it will be nice to stretch my wings a little in that direction... Of course, that's quite a way off...
mALX:Yes, I figured it was a good age to introduce both the crush and the bow--so why not place them hand-in-hand? Of course, since he's not in the game, we know it doesn't last, but...how does it end and in what way...?
Acadian:Thank you! I am thrilled to know that my writing style is agreeable, because one never knows for sure... Yes, it is not likely to end well, for many reasons. Of course, there will be many surprising twists before the end truly comes... (I love hinting at these things...Hopefully I am successfully making you all want more!)
And oh yes, she will have a love for the bow, much like both Buffy and Teresa. Afterall, she is naturally pre-disposed to marksman... Blunt weapons will only draw her away from it in the future because she wants to feel more powerful and kill quicker--understandable from her perspective, I suppose.
Chapter 4.1—The Elven Maiden
One of the teachings of the Demented is that pain and pleasure are very much one and the same. I never understood this teaching until I was about thirteen. While cutting into one of the ingredients for a potion Muurine had instructed me to make, my hand slipped and I cut into my wrist. It bled pretty badly, and I gasped and quickly reached for a cloth to stop the bleeding. But then, for some reason, I just stopped and stared at the blood as it ran down my arm. The rush I felt from the adrenaline pumping through my veins was intoxicating. Suddenly, I felt more alive, and it was both exhilarating and unexpected. When I began to feel lightheaded, only then did I heal myself and clean up the blood that had dripped to the floor at my feet.
After that, I began to cut myself whenever I wanted to feel that rush again. It was like a drug, and it made it easier to forget the loneliness and the emotional pain I held bottled up inside of me. The anguish was relieved, little by little, each time I dragged the sharp blade across my flesh, and I thanked the Madgod for revealing this to me.
Over the next few years, I grew from a somewhat awkward and lonely child, into a well-grounded and elegant young woman. With my dark brown hair and my pensive, yet wild, blue eyes, I was certainly noticed by the men who were constantly around me. A lot of men, both young and old, were attracted to me, and I enjoyed the attention quite thoroughly.
Whenever my father had me show off my combat skills to the members of his court, I always drew in quite a crowd. Dressed in the unique ebony and silver http://images.uesp.net//c/c6/SI-quest-Ritual_of_Dementia_02.jpg of the Dark Seducers that my father had commissioned for me as a gift for my sixteenth birthday, when I was made an honorary commander of a regiment of Dark Seducers, I looked very good to any man who had eyes. Even though the armor didn’t look like it would do much for protecting someone, it did its job flawlessly. Of course, it helped that my armor was heavily enchanted.
On a given day, the court would assemble in the main hall, while my father sat in his throne, his steward sitting nearby. My father had so thoughtfully assigned Alanwen as my trainer, and the two of us would suit up in our armor and prepare for battle. Then we fought before my father and his court, and I proved myself to be quite a skilled fighter. The fighting was not staged, nor did we use blunted weapons. That is not the way of the Demented. However, the fighting in court was not as brutal as the fighting elsewhere, and we went fairly easy on each other…by Demented standards, anyway.
Most of the time, much to my displeasure, the fight would always end with me on my back, defeated. But I had been working extra hard to improve my skill, and one afternoon it finally showed. This time the fight ended with Alanwen on her back, the point of my sword in her face. With my intense hatred for her, I would have loved nothing more than to run my sword through her skull. I fought with myself not to do it, in front of my father and the entire court, for what seemed like a millennium, though it was only a few seconds, in actuality.
The only thing that really stopped me from exacting my revenge on her was that she smiled slightly, impressed, and spoke to me. “You have learned very quickly, Syl. I shall have to watch my back.”
“Yes,” I replied, still holding the sword in her face and glaring hatefully at the woman I believed had murdered my mother. “And I’ll watch mine.”
She raised a brow as I got up from her and threw down my sword, after my father had risen from his throne and begun to clap his hands. It had taken all of my strength not to run her through just then, though I know it would have meant imprisonment and possibly even torture for me. But I would have her yet. Now was not the time for revenge.
My father came to me, placing his hands upon my shoulders and looking at me with a father’s pride, as his mistress pulled herself up to her feet. The two of us locked eyes as my father embraced me, and it was obvious that neither one of us trusted the other—however, this was the first time she had ever perceived me as a possible threat.
After my father praised and congratulated me, he went to Alanwen, and I was approached by his steward just as I was pulling off my gauntlets. Lucian Jarol was a man of noble Imperial ancestry, apparently also blue-blooded. He was handsome, even at the age of 43, and he’d had his eye on me ever since I began blossoming into a young woman. I was hardly interested in a man of his age, especially considering his reputation with women, but I still liked the attention, and I’ll admit I did flirt with him from time to time.
“You fought very well today,” he said, taking my hand and pressing it to his lips like a complete gentleman. “Your skill is exceptional. I’m quite impressed, milady.”
“Thanks,” I replied, shrugging as if it were nothing. I flashed him a look with my eyes just to tease, and began walking away, but he caught up to walk beside me and kept talking.
“You know, Syl, I am a very wealthy man, even without my position as your father’s steward. My family is one of the oldest and most prominent families in all of Dementia, and I am the only one left to hold all of the wealth they had brought with them from Tamriel. My ancestors were descended from kings, you know.”
I smiled, trying not to laugh, because I knew what he was doing. “And…your point is…?”
He stopped me by taking my arm, looking straight into my eyes. The intensity of his gaze made me shudder, and I was surprised by his abrupt and informal manner with me.
“I have much to offer to a beautiful and well-bred young woman, such as yourself.”
“What can you give me that my father cannot?”
“I can offer you freedom,” he replied, as we began to walk again. “And a title…I am a lord, you know.”
“Yes, I do know… But what makes you think I want to marry you?”
He smiled. “I can see in your eyes that you are interested.”
“In being tied down? No, thank you.”
He stopped again, taking my arms and looking at me intently. “I will not deny that I want you, Syl. Say you will be my wife, and I’ll give you everything that you desire—including the freedom to come and go as you please.”
I pulled away, taking his hands off me. “And if I say ‘no’? Will you try to murder me for refusing you?”
Laughing, he reached out to take my hand again and pressed it to his lips. “You have a wonderful sense of humor…. The answer is, no—I shall not murder you. Apart from the fact that your father would surely execute me, I have no desire to ever hurt you, Syl. And I would never force a woman to be with me.”
“I find that hard to believe,” I replied, as I had heard differently.
“You are bold,” he said, his jaw flexing.
“I am honest,” I retorted. Then he shrugged.
“Perhaps…but that was meant to be a compliment. I like brazen women.” He paused here to look me over. His eyes burned with desire, and he went on to say, “I will not deny that once you make the decision to be my wife--.”
“If,” I corrected him.
“Yes,” he sighed, “—if you make the decision to be my wife, you will be expected to remain completely loyal to me.”
“What would happen if I were not?”
His jaw set firmly and I could see that he did not like my question. “I will not tolerate infidelity. I had enough experience of that with my first wife.”
“Your first wife—what happened to her, exactly? Did you kill her when she was unfaithful to you?”
He laughed again. “I do like your feistiness. And your sarcasm…. It’s enticing.”
“You wish to tame me,” I observed.
“I want to ride you,” he replied hungrily, pulling me close to his body in a moment of impassioned fervor. “I like my horses wild.”
I should have slapped him; he would certainly have deserved it. But his intensity was almost intoxicating, and I had never been with a man before, though I wanted to be. His forcefulness was exciting to me, a naïve and innocent elven maiden who had lived a very sheltered life. I had wanted to experience the fullness of my womanhood ever since I began turning into one; but I managed to control my youthful urge, and I pulled myself away from him.
“I am not a horse,” I said, feigning insult at his last comment. “I am a lady, and you will speak to me as such. Good day.”
I began to walk away, toward my quarters, but Lucian followed and stopped me from going inside. He grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me aside, where we were hidden around the corner, by the rarely used alternate door to my father’s private garden. Someone was walking in the corridor nearby, so we were very quiet, as Lucian held me close to his body in the shadows. When the servant was gone, having turned down another corridor, I pulled away from him and slapped him across the face.
“How dare you put your hands on me?! I could have you thrown in the dungeon! Don’t think that my father would even hesitate to torture you for your indecency.”
“Please,” he said, “I meant no disrespect, honored madwoman. But how long are you going to go on teasing me the way you do? What I said before, and what I did just now—I simply meant….”
“I know what you meant,” I said, cutting him off. “But you are a fool if you think I would give into your advances in such a way. I am an innocent woman, sir—but you would treat me like a common harlot.”
“No, milady, I…I never meant to treat you in such a way.” He dropped to his knees to beg my forgiveness, reaching up to grab me by the waist, touching my bare flesh, and making me yearn for more. But he only meant to plead with me, saying, “Milady, please, forgive my insolence. I got carried away. You have this power over me that I cannot understand…. Can’t you see that I want you for myself?”
“As your wife, or as your harlot? You have not made your intentions all that clear to me, madman.”
“Syl, I want you to be my wife. I want to give you all that you desire and more. I want to share with you my fortune, my manor, and my bed. Please. Will you do me the honor of accepting my hand in marriage?”
“Why would I want to do that? I am barely sixteen, milord—hardly ready to settle down and be a wife, when I haven’t even begun yet to live. Besides, I’m not sure that I trust you.”
“I’m not going to kill you, if that’s what you mean. I do not dispose of women in such a manner. The only women I have ever killed were lovers who were trying to kill me for my money.”
“And how many has that been?”
“Well, most of them, actually,” he replied with a grin that seemed out of place.
“And how do you know that I won’t do the same?” I asked, returning his smile.
He chuckled and took my hand, placing it on his arm. “We shall just have to trust each other, won’t we?”
Now I smiled; but then I pulled away and began walking toward my quarters. He followed me again, but I stopped him at the door. “I’m sorry, honored madman, but I am not interested in your offer. Now, if you’ll excuse me—I need to get changed, and I do not want your company while I do so.”
He sighed in disappointment and stepped back as I closed the door in his face. Just to be on the safe side, as I did not trust him at all, I locked the door and left the key inside, to prevent him from peeping, should he desire to take such a risk.
So Syl has discovered cutting? It seems like a perfect fit for the Demented. Likewise the belief that pleasure and pain are intertwined.
Syl has indeed gone through a rite of womanhood, being accosted by a persistent pervert. And one who is 3 times her age no less. I cannot tell you how many times I have had men literally follow me around. Once even after I got in my car and drove off. I was on my way to the police station when he finally gave up and turned down another street.
I am sure we will not be seeing the last of Lucian. Given that this is Dementia, I am sure it can only end one way, with someone stretched out on the floor in a widening pool of blood. Likewise, now that Alanwen has discovered Syl to be a real threat, I am sure we will be seeing a final reckoning there as well. Things are certainly looking exciting!
nits:
but you would treat me like a common wh*re.
I feel you pain here, as the forum swear filter will change the word you want. But putting a * in the middle of it does not look good. I suggest using a word that will pass the filter. Such as strumpet, harlot, or tramp.
A delightfully hormonal episode that fits both darkly and perfectly into Dementia.
First, Syl discovers an intoxicating relationship between pleasure and pain. Fortunately, healing spells entirely change the fabric of 'practicing bleeding'. Secondly, she battles with an understandable desire to 'run her through' after dropping Alanwen to the floor at swordpoint. After all, Syl believes Alanwen to be responsible for the death of her mother and trespassing into her father's affection. I agree with SubRosa, that I suspect Syl and Alanwen are far from done with each other. Finally, Syl is both repulsed and intoxicated by the older Lucian's ardent advances. I suspect that even at her young age, she is fully his equal at teasing, enticing and thwarting ardor. In each of these cases, you do a superb job of capturing what Syl is feeling.
I'm thoroughly enjoying this!
Argh... those forums can harbor some terrible idiots. Not nearly as bad as the Nexus, but still....
Syl has discovered EEEEEMO!!! NOOOOO!!!
Well, to be more serious, masochism is a good way to hammer home the point of this realm being one where the abnormal is normal. If Syl does enjoy spilling her own blood, that's her decision, but I'm going to have to draw the line on if she decides to try a bit of body-painting. She's a madwoman, not a savage.
Now, if you have Syl fall in love with a lion-man, we could probably call that envious pillock Gaston! He is a bit smoother than him, but nevertheless, he is not the kind of guy I would want to hang out with, and I am glad Syl was able to resist his advances despite her attraction.
I agree with SubRosa, the shock of Syl being a cutter was quickly replaced by the feeling of it being apropos for what we know of her in game and in your story. Bravo for slipping that in and letting it hit us like a ton of bricks and knock us off our seats.
Syl is def growing up in this one, liking the tease; fearing the actual game. Awesome Write !!
SubRosa: Indeed, Syl and Alanwen do not make for a very loving friendship, do they? But perhaps Syl has carried her hatred for Alanwen further than she ought? And Lucian--of course, we can already see in his persistence that he is not likely one to give up... It doesn't bode well...
Acadian: Thank you! Yes indeed--Syl is on quite the hormonal roller-coaster at this point. She does a pretty good job keeping herself under control, but perhaps only because her survival depends on it. She is certainly no weakling, and Lucian doesn't seem to realize his mistake in wanting to control her...
haute ecole rider: Thank you--and I certainly understand the lack of comments. I often find myself at a loss for words, even as I reply to the wonderful comments all of you give. I feel like I just repeat myself over and over again, and I can't really express the fullness of my gratitude in words... I am very glad that you are reading and enjoying it, however.
TK:Aww, no body-painting with her blood? All of the next four chapters revolved around it! Now I have to go back and re-write them... J/K
No, she's not a very artistic sort, anyway. She will be getting distracted from her wonderfully-blooming "career" as a Demented warrior, however, as you are about to find out. She has a long road of distractions, mistakes, and learning the hard way ahead of her....
mALX: Thank you! Indeed, quite shocking, yet perfectly fitting. Actually, I got the idea to add cutting to Syl's story from four places: Cutter the smith, the Dagger of Friendship (very obvious what its purpose is...), studying adolescent psychology, and watching lifetime movies... All of these combined to form the image of the adolescent Demented wood elf who would one day become the duchess of this rather unusual land...
All: I am, as always, so glad to have you reading and enjoying my interpretation of the Duchess of Dementia's early years, and I hope you will continue to enjoy following her journey through madness... Thank you all.
Chapter 4.2—The Duke’s Delinquent Daughter
Though I was sixteen years old, my father still would not give me very much freedom. He didn’t want me going out with my friends in the city, day or night. Even Muurine thought he was being too strict, but she would never dare to voice her opinions to his face. Instead, she hinted that she would turn a blind eye if I were to decide to sneak out of the palace at night--but if I were caught it would all be on me. I was entirely fine with this, and I started sneaking out right away, not even thinking of the dangers that my behavior could have posed. Youth is often coupled with ignorance, and risk-taking is all too common, even among the Demented. I was certainly no different….
After I was sure that my father was in bed for good, and when the coast was clear, I snuck through the palace and out to the grounds, wearing a dark hooded cloak so as to stay better hidden in the shadows. It wasn’t easy to go unnoticed as I crept through the shadows, trying to stay out of sight, as the Seducers and Saints out patrolling the grounds had eyes like those of a hawk. I was very good at sneaking, though, as my father had given me lessons when I was a child, just for the fun of it. I had soaked up his lessons on sneaking and lock-picking thoroughly, and now I finally had a real chance to use those lessons to my advantage.
Having made it to the door that led to Crucible, I let out my breath, realizing that I had been holding it. I was past the hardest part, but I still had to get through the city in the middle of the night, without being recognized by the Seducers that were on duty there. Making sure that my face was well-hidden beneath the hood of my cloak, I went through the door and carefully made my way down the long staircase, nodding when the Seducer standing at her post greeted me. I was relieved that she didn’t appear to recognize me. Once I was on ground-level, I was mostly safe to roam the streets without being recognized, and I relaxed a little.
I turned to look back up at the stairs, amazed that I had done it. I had snuck all the way out of the palace for the first time since my childhood. It was such a rush, and I couldn’t believe that I hadn’t tried it sooner. What had I been missing?
I took the back streets to avoid being seen, just in case one of the Seducers might still realize who I was, and I made my way to the house of my Khajiit friend, Shavari. Shavari was the daughter of two of the most prominent members of my father’s court, but her parents were much less restricting than my own father was, and she had some of the most infamous parties in all of Crucible. Everyone who wanted to come was invited, but most of those who went were young and foolish, myself included.
Though I had never been to any of Shavari’s parties before, I knew most of the people that were there. Two men I didn’t know eyed me hungrily as I walked by, in search of Shavari. Though I liked being admired, and I wanted to know what it was to be with a man, for some reason I suddenly felt awkward and modest, and I looked away as my face grew hot with embarrassment. I thanked the Madgod it was too dim inside for them to see me well enough to know, and I soon found Shavari standing among a group of friends in a nearby room.
“Syl!” she purred excitedly, coming to embrace me into the fold. “Madgod, I never thought you’d make it to one of my parties! However did you convince the Duke to let you come?”
“I didn’t,” I replied, with a mischievous smile.
Shavari was shocked momentarily; then a smile spread across her catlike face and she clicked her tongue on the back of her teeth. “Well, I never thought you for the type… What changed your mind?”
“I needed to break free,” I replied. “I was being stifled in that palace up there, and I’ve had enough of following my father’s unfair rules. I’m sixteen. I need to breathe, and to live. I’m here for the same reason as everyone else, after all.”
“Perhaps,” she replied in an odd sort of manner. What was she thinking?
Her yellow eyes turned from one side to the other, as she examined our surroundings, then she pulled me aside to speak where no others could listen.
“Syl, now don’t get me wrong—I’m glad that you’re here. I’ve wanted you to come for a long time, but…you need to be careful about how you handle yourself, if you know what I mean?”
“N-No…I don’t know what you mean, Shavari. Should I?”
She smiled vaguely, but I think it was more of a mocking smile than a friendly one, and her ears went back as she bent in closer to whisper, “Syl, some of the people here are…different from the sort of people you are accustomed to at the palace. The men are especially so, and you won’t find many of them acting like gentlemen while they are here.”
“Oh,” I replied, finally grasping her meaning. I blushed a little, and was surprised at myself that I suddenly felt so modest. At court, I flirted freely with the men, and I had even kissed some of them when no one was looking. But now I was out of my usual surroundings, and it was very different.
“Look,” she said, her ears going up again as she took my arm, “I’m not trying to frighten you, or make you uncomfortable. I just want you to know that you have to be more careful around some of the men here—your usual games could wind up getting you into trouble, as the men here aren’t accustomed to empty flirting, you see?”
“Yes…I see. I’ll keep that in mind. Thank you.”
“Of course. I’m your friend—it’s my duty to make sure you don’t get hurt, especially at one of my parties. Just try to relax and enjoy yourself, and watch who you talk to. Be yourself, but don’t let anyone try to make you do anything you don’t want to do. If you feel threatened or uncomfortable, just come and find me, and I will take care of things, yes?”
I nodded, but I didn’t reply. I suddenly felt a little more nervous, wondering if perhaps I should have stayed at the palace after all. What if my father was right? But then I shook those thoughts from my head and tried to follow Shavari’s advice—relax and enjoy myself. I was smart enough to figure out who I ought to avoid, and I could handle myself pretty well with the dagger I kept hidden beneath my skirts, should anyone try to mess with me.
After a couple drinks of wine, I began to feel better and I found the party quite enjoyable. It was nothing like the dull and formal parties I was used to at court, where the only thing to enjoy was the dancing and the live entertainment—which usually consisted of my father’s enemies being tortured in one form or another. But Shavari’s parties were unlike anything I had ever seen, and I was surprised to find that her parents were conveniently absent for the duration of these parties.
Everyone there was drinking, and some were playing party games that only the Demented can enjoy. Our games are dark, and they often involve self-mutilation and torture of one form or another. Pain is our pleasure, and we delight in the agony of ourselves and others.
Some people at the party used skooma right out in the open, and the smell of it made me want to throw up. I had always hated it, though I was used to it because of my father, and I avoided the skooma addicts at the parties without question.
My first night out promised not to be very eventful, and I had every intention of staying only for a short time before sneaking back to the palace. But that all changed rather unexpectedly, when I heard a voice from behind me say, “Greetings, Syl!”
Hearing my name called so suddenly, I was startled, and I turned around to see Galvon Redoran standing there, with a handsome smile. He was a black-haired, grey-skinned Dunmer, and I knew him well from my days spent with Muurine as she gossiped with friends. His mother, Davilia, was one of Muurine’s closest friends, so Galvon and I had spent much time together while they gossiped over tea. As we grew into hormone-charged youths, he began developing a deep infatuation with me, while I simply enjoyed flirting with him. I’ll admit, I was really a terrible flirt in my youth, but I hardly realized that I was even doing it.
Galvon pressed my hand to his lips, and I smiled as I greeted him. Then he asked how I was doing, and how I had talked my father into letting me come to the party. I told him basically the same thing that I had told Shavari, and he was impressed that I would risk so much by disobeying my father.
“Well, I’m glad to see you here,” he said with a charming smile. “Shavari has the best parties in Crucible. Are you enjoying yourself, thus far?”
“I am. But I wouldn’t mind another drink. Some wine, perhaps?”
“I’ll get that for you! Wait right here.”
I smiled as he ran off to pour me a goblet of wine. When he returned with two glasses, I graciously took one and we drank a toast to freedom. We talked for awhile, laughing about his mother’s new favorite hair-style, which made it look like there was a grey bee-hive growing from the top of her head. She was a very pretty woman, but she had a knack for finding the most outrageous outfits and hair styles to ruin her lovely façade.
The more I had to drink, the more our casual talking turned into flirting, and before I knew it, we were headed up to the bedchamber together. I was too drunk and confused to stop it, and though it was the first time for both of us, Galvon seemed to know what he was doing. It was not, however, what I had been expecting—and to be perfectly honest, I was a little disappointed. Until it happened, I had always envisioned that my first time with a man would be special; I wanted it to be like it was in the romantic novels I had read, where love and passion blended to create the perfect atmosphere in which I could be swept away. But instead, I felt awkward the whole time, even after it was over. Galvon, however, was left in awe.
“That was amazing!” he whispered breathlessly as we lay beside each other afterward. He leaned over and tried to kiss me, but I pulled away and began straightening my dress. I didn’t want him to see the disappointment, embarrassment, and regret that was already written on my face.
“Syl, what’s wrong?” he asked, when I headed for the door. “Was I not good? It’s just that I’ve never done that before….”
I rolled my eyes, managing to put on my tough exterior, and I let out a sigh. “Relax, Galvon, you were fine. But I need to get back to the palace, before someone realizes I am gone. It’s almost sunrise.”
He grabbed my hand to stop me from leaving, and then he said, “I want you to stay. Please, Syl, just a bit longer—I love you.”
“Galvon, it was just sex. Let’s not bring love into it.”
“So, that’s it? You just made love to me, and now we’re over with?”
“I didn’t say that. But I don’t want you bringing love into our relationship—I’ve told you that before.”
“So, we’re in a relationship?” he asked, with a hopeful smile.
I rolled my eyes, and said, “I don’t know. Right now I just want to go home. I’m very tired.”
He nodded and agreed to escort me to the palace staircase. We walked very slowly through the streets, and we didn’t talk very much. It was too awkward, and I didn’t want to talk about it. But all of a sudden, we heard a noise, like someone had stumbled into some old crates in an alley nearby.
Galvon drew his sword and pushed me back, prepared to defend me as a tall, thin, and sickly looking fellow stumbled out of the alley toward us. We thought for sure he was going to attack, but he simply stopped and asked, in a thin, ghost-like voice, “’ey, you got some skooma? I ain’t gots none, and the prices ‘ave got so high, I can’t hardly affords it, y’know?”
I was still terrified, as the man continued to look at me in a way that I perceived as threatening. But he was only interested in feeding his habit.
Galvon thrust his sword’s tip forward just a bit, to spook the man, saying, “We don’t have any skooma, old man. Now get out of here, before I have you arrested for harassing a lady of Lord Gelebor’s court.”
The man backed off at that threat, looking at us both fearfully, then turned and started to walk away, mumbling to himself, “I ain’t meanin’ anybody no harm. I just need some skooma….”
When the man was far enough away, Galvon re-sheathed his sword and turned to me. “He’s gone, Syl. You’re safe now.”
I smiled a little, responding by saying, “That was very brave of you, Galvon. I thought for sure he was going to attack us.”
“That old man? Nah, he’s just an old skooma addict. Some of them will try to kill for the drug, but most of them are too weak and feeble even to try.”
“My father’s not, and he has skooma every day.”
“Yeah, but he’s got the money to support his habit, so he can keep himself from getting sick from withdrawals.”
“I never knew you were so courageous,” I said again, in an attempt to hide the fear that encounter had caused me. “Thank you for protecting me.”
He smiled modestly and shrugged. “I’d do anything for you, Syl. I could never let anyone hurt you.”
I offered a thankful, although forced smile, and then continued walking, eager to get home, while trying hard not to cry. I knew he still wanted to talk to me, but we were already close to the palace. When we got to the staircase, I pulled up my hood again and left him without much of a goodbye.
The Duke’s Delinquent Daughter
Alliteration ftw!
Youth is often coupled with ignorance, and risk-taking is all too common
Yep, some things never change.
the live entertainment—which usually consisted of my father’s enemies being tortured in one form or another.
Ahh, now that is good old fashioned fun!
So Syl has gone to her first wild party, and had her first pony ride. I thought your depiction of her first time was excellent, because it is so common to reality. No earthquakes, no fireworks. It's just sex, and then it's over, and on comes the awkward morning after. Except with Syl it was still the night before!
Galvon seems to want a lot more from their relationship than Syl is capable of giving. I wonder if he really feels anything for her, or if perhaps he is just using her because of her position as the Duke's daughter? I get the feeling that if the Duke finds out, he will be the 'entertainment' at the next party though.
I was completely swept into Syl's evening for a time, and hope you will take that as testament to your skill. Nicely done!
It is good that Syl's first time is behind her, yet I feel a touch of sadness that it was not more special for her. At least she knew the fellow's name.
Your vague references to the sadistic/masochistic nature of the party games were so very and appropriately . . . Demented.
Syl seems to have a detachment about her life that wasn't there in the early chapters, even after her mothers murder. I noticed some of this in game even with her paranoia. You depicted it well - like seeing a window into where it evolved and a few of the catalysts that brought it about.
Like Acadian, I hate to see her first time be because she was drunk and flirting - not filled with the feelings it may have been had the man been Thadon. Of course the first time is always awkward and not given to experiencing fireworks, etc. - but to have no emotional attachment to either the man or the act - that is a sad beginning for her.
All I can say is ... hope to heck she doesn't become PG from it, lol. Great Chapter !!!
SubRosa:Thank you, and yes--it was important that I not get into the cliche of portraying Syl's first time as this wonderful experience complete with fireworks and all of that, simply because I wanted to portray a realistic first-time experience. And also, I wanted to show what happens when someone who lives a sheltered life gets their first taste of freedom...
Also, your insights are always so good and inspiring. Your commentary is much valued, as is the commentary of all my readers!
Acadian:Thanks! I am glad you enjoyed her night as much as her!
And I agree that it's better she knew his name, and at least had something of a relationship with him. Not perhaps what there should have been, but that is sadly how it so often is.
Also, glad you enjoyed my description of the Demented nature of the parties. Yes, somehow I don't think the residents of Bliss would be too fond of the parties held in Crucible, that's for sure.
mALX:I am so glad you caught onto the detachment that really started with the onset of adolescence for her. It's like she sort of developed a way of distancing herself from her own life, as a means of protecting herself from all the pain and sorrow and darkness that life in Dementia really throws at you.
And not to worry - according to lore, elves aren't usually fertile until they reach full maturity. So, she should have another year or two before she has that to worry about...hopefully....
Chapter 5.1—Blood and Wine
While I did remain friends with Galvon, I wanted to forget about that night with him and to keep our relationship platonic. I knew that he didn’t like it, but I reminded him that I never promised him anything, and I continued to enjoy myself at Shavari’s parties while trying to behave myself. Of course, the mixture of alcohol and youth did not allow for constant success, but I was pretty good at controlling myself when faced with the advances of all the men at the parties who would have loved to sleep with the Duke’s daughter. I rarely gave into the raging lust, much to the dissatisfaction of many men.
Muurine didn’t like it when I began returning home a little tipsy. She expressed her concerns, warning me about the dangers getting drunk could pose. “Too many of the young people like to get drunk at parties nowadays,” she said to me, “leaving them vulnerable to be mugged in the streets or taken advantage of—or, Madgod forbid, even worse….”
I rolled my eyes, too foolish and young to listen to her advice, saying, “Oh, Madgod.... Muurine, you’re starting to sound like my father, always worried about me, and for no reason. I’m fine. None of my friends would ever take advantage of me—they don’t need to.” I stopped to chuckle a bit, then finished by saying, “I give of myself enough rather freely.”
I laughed at my joke, but Muurine didn’t even flinch. She was not amused. “Syl, I am serious. You are acting like a fool. You are going to get yourself killed if you keep all this up, and then I’ll be left to take the blame when your father decides to execute me for allowing you to act like this.”
“You’re not allowing me, remember? You’re not supposed to know.”
She sighed in frustration and threw up her hands, then climbed into bed and went to sleep without even saying goodnight. And so, I had won the argument—for now. The next morning, however, it was Muurine who felt she had won.
I slept late, missing breakfast—much to my father’s displeasure—and I woke up with a splitting headache. Muurine laughed a little, saying, “I remember those days….”
“Ohh…. Just tell me how to make it go away….” I laid in the bed, holding my forehead and feeling like I was on the brink of death. If I wasn’t going to die, right then I certainly wanted to. Nothing could have been as bad as how I felt at that moment, so I thought. Unfortunately, Muurine couldn’t give me any relief.
“Sorry, dear,” she said, sitting on the side of the bed and giving me a damp cloth to hold over my eyes. “There are no spells or potions to relieve hangovers.”
“Well, there should be!” I exclaimed. That was followed by a miserable, “Ohh….”
Muurine laughed again, shaking her head as she moved some hair away from my face. “I told you that you shouldn’t be getting drunk at those parties…. You missed breakfast. Your father was not pleased. You’re lucky I covered for you, though.”
“Thanks,” I said, with a touch of sarcasm.
“Now do you think you’ll stop drinking too much at the parties?”
“You think I got drunk on purpose? I wasn’t trying to drink too much, Muurine. It just happened.”
“You don’t have to get drunk, you know. It’s a matter of listening to your body. When you start to feel the alcohol affecting you, stop.”
“That’s easier said than done,” I replied, unwilling to listen to her words of wisdom. Again, young and foolish….
“Well,” she said, “if you go on doing this to yourself, then it serves you right. No one has ever been successful in finding a cure for hangovers, though many have tried. You just have to take some responsibility upon yourself, or you’re going to suffer.”
“You’re not helping,” I grumbled. When she started to respond, I launched my pillow at her, and said, “Stop talking! Just let me suffer in peace!”
She chuckled a bit and returned my pillow to me, then got up to walk toward the door, every clank of her high-heeled shoes on the stone floor making my head pound as if it were going to shatter to pieces.
“I’ll leave you to rest,” she said, before leaving. “Your father believes you are ill. He insisted on sending for a healer, but I assured him it was a minor ailment, which should be over by the end of the day on its own…. Perhaps you should think twice about going out again tonight. But, if I know you—which I do—you won’t.”
She was right. I went out again that very night, doing the same thing all over again. I could have prevented myself from getting drunk. I felt what Muurine had been talking about. But everyone else was doing it, and I didn’t want to be left out. So, I joined in and drank too much, regretting it again in the morning. Muurine refused to cover for me again, so I had to go about my day as if nothing were wrong, while she chuckled and smirked; and I hated her all the more because of it.
Syl's first hangover! Not the last from the looks of it either. I see like most people, she did not learn tolerance from her experience.
But everyone else was doing it, and I didn’t want to be left out.
Ahh, to be a teen. It is not easy being different from everyone else. Especially when you are as young as Syl.
Nice to meet more NPCs whom we know from SI, like Una and Ushnar. But best of all Cutter! She is one of my favorite NPCs in the game, not to mention the SI. Not in the least because she is a goth girl. I love her lines about blood and ripping bodies apart. It is wonderful to see her here as an apprentice to the previous smith.
Syl continues to evolve and transform episode by episode as she grows darker. You are really managing this well!
Looking back, she has come a long way since her kiss with the little boy addicted to chocolate. When the little fairy princess talks about torturing her foes someday, the talk is beginning to match her actions. Again, very carefully crafted in such a way that everything she gets into seems to flow naturally for her. Cutter, and her influence on Syl, seems quite significant.
Syl's experimentation into the dark side of SI is leading her in a downward spiral she won't easily pull herself up from. I wonder if Cutter is somehow connected to the pretty girl that watched her from the borders that day she was with Thadon? Great Write !!
SubRosa:That is something I know from experience, in some ways. I didn't fit in because I didn't follow the crowd. I certainly understand the desire to, though, and I thought it was fitting for Syl in her desire to escape the pressures of living under her father's rule. She's rebelling, and not necessarily in a good way...
Oh yes, and Cutter was always one of my favorite NPCs. Something about her has always appealed to me, so I thought she would make a fitting friend for young Syl... And little by little I will bring in more people from the game. Some don't come in for awhile yet, but many of the connections are beginning to show, at this point.
Acadian:Thank you. Evolving Syl's character is something I've put a lot into, because I've been wholly concerned that I would not do it correctly. And yes, Cutter definitely plays a huge role in Syl's evolution, because Syl is most impressionable in her current state of transformation from childhood and adolescence into adulthood.
mALX:A downward spiral, indeed. And, like most things, it will get much worse before it gets better. She will learn much from this experience, though....
Chapter 5.2—Obsession
The more I was spending time with Cutter, the less time I spent with Galvon and the rest of our friends. Most of them didn’t mind it so much, but Galvon was growing increasingly jealous. I began feeling threatened by him, as he was starting to stalk me obsessively, and I couldn’t seem to go anywhere in Crucible without him being there, watching me.
Finally, one day, I decided to confront him about it. He had been spying on me as usual, but he tripped on something and stumbled, falling into some crates, and that caught my attention—as well as the attention of all the other people walking in the area. He tried to hide himself again, but he knew I had already seen him, so I narrowed my eyes and approached him, not even attempting to hide my annoyance with him.
“I saw you there, Galvon. Come out and show yourself, at once!”
After a few brief seconds, he peered out from behind the crates, and then he came out with his head down, looking like a dog with its tail tucked between its legs. He smiled awkwardly, and raised his hand slightly, muttering, “Hi, Syl.”
“Why are you following me?” I demanded.
“I…was just in the area, and…I--.”
“Don’t lie to me!” I spat. “I know you were following me. This is hardly the first time I’ve noticed. I could have you arrested and tortured in my father’s dungeon, and don’t think I would hesitate to do so, if you continue to stalk me.”
“But, Syl, I…love you!” he cried. I was horrified, as he knelt there before me in the middle of the street, proclaiming his love for all to hear. A few bystanders watched the scene with mixed expressions. Honestly, it was pathetic.
“Get up! Stop making a fool of yourself, Galvon!” I said. “I have had enough of your jealousy and your obsessive behavior. I will not tolerate it any longer. Leave me alone, or I’ll tell my father about you stalking me.”
He remained on his knees, and he wept into his hands. I wasn’t sure whether to be more angry or embarrassed. I was quite a bit of both, actually, and I rolled my eyes impatiently. He was making a ridiculous scene, and people were laughing at us!
“I thought you would love me!” he cried through his tears. “I thought you cared about me!”
“Just get away from me, cur! You disgust me! I despise you!”
Perhaps I went a little overboard, insulting him as I did, but I was furious with his behavior. After that last outburst from me, he got up and ran off, disappearing for awhile. I felt somewhat guilty for saying such things to him, but I had simply had enough, and I didn’t care if I never saw him again.
Meanwhile, I continued sneaking out three or more nights a week, and my father still didn’t have any clue. He was too busy playing around with his mistress to care, anyway; but I was glad he was distracted. It kept him off my case, at least….
Sneaking around through the back streets of Crucible at night was dangerous, though, especially for a young woman who was walking the streets alone. I knew I was taking a risk that way; but I didn’t really see how easy a target I was for anyone looking to cause trouble, until I found myself in a very bad and nearly fatal situation.
It was especially dark that night, and it had been raining off and on all day. The streets were muddy and the air was cool, and a thick blanket of fog descended into the city. This, alone, made me nervous, but then I got the sense that someone was following me. It was a horrible, terrifying feeling, but I tried to ignore it while I picked up my pace. Thinking I heard the sound of footsteps behind me, I panicked. I started to run, but then I ran straight into a man who caught me in his arms, and I screamed.
The stout Breton man who had caught me laughed at my terror, and I tried to flee. But when I whirled around, I found myself face to face with a tall, slender and fair-haired Imperial, who waved a dagger in my face. He was the one who had been following me, and it seemed they had drawn me into a trap. He laughed in a calm, dark manner, which frightened me all the more.
“My, my, my,” he said, looking at me while his friend held me tightly with a dagger pressed to my throat. “What’s a pretty little thing like you doing out this late at night, and in this part of town? Don’t you know there are bad men out here, who might do you harm?”
“P-Please,” I begged, “let me go….”
“Certainly, madwoman,” he replied. “But first, my friend and I must teach you a lesson about the dangers of being out here so late at night without a chaperone.”
I swallowed hard, and asked, “What are you going to do to me?”
The Imperial smiled and looked down at my heaving bosom, and I knew then what he had intended. I was horrified, but I couldn’t move because of the dagger pressed against my throat. The Imperial, seeming to know that I was hiding something, reached his hand up under my skirts, sliding them up my legs until he found what he was looking for—my dagger, strapped to my thigh.
“Aha, I just knew I would find something hidden here,” he said with a smile. He pulled the dagger out of its sheath and looked closely at it. “Well, well, well—this is quite a dagger, madwoman. A rare honor, to be given a dagger like this.”
“My f-father is the Duke,” I stammered. But the men only chuckled at my claim—whether or not they believed me, I can’t say, but they didn’t seem to care even if they did.
The Imperial then used my dagger to slice through the laces on my bodice, and his friend laughed with excitement as I began crying and begging them not to hurt me. But he just ignored me, and said ferociously, “Now, let me see--!”
I closed my eyes as tears slipped down my cheeks, and I fully expected to be murdered that night. The Imperial smiled devilishly, while his stout Breton friend continued to press the dagger into my neck, and I said aloud, in a miserable voice, “Sheogorath, help me!”
The next thing I knew, I opened my eyes just in time to see the Imperial’s menacing smile turn into dread as the sharp end of a blade came through him from behind. All of us gasped.
The Breton dropped his dagger in surprise, while the Imperial looked down at the sword that was going through his abdomen. When the sword was pulled out, he dropped to his knees, blood dripping from his mouth as he began to choke on it, and that’s when I saw Galvon standing there behind him, holding a bloodied long sword.
He slashed the blade across the Imperial’s neck, severing his head in one quick swipe, and then he charged at the Breton, who had long since let me go. I watched in amazement, unable to move, as Galvon ran him through. When the man fell dead, Galvon turned to look at me, but I was still too shocked to move or even to say anything. Even more shocking was the look in his eyes—they were dark and almost just as evil as the eyes of the men who he had just slaughtered. It sent shivers down my spine, but I reached toward him and began trying to thank him, only to be cut off.
“I should have let them hurt you!” he cried. “It would have been your own damn fault.” I was stunned by his harsh words, and I couldn’t speak as he continued to glare at me angrily. Then he continued, saying, “But I couldn’t let that happen to you, Syl, because I love you.”
“Galvon, I’m…sorry--.”
“Don’t be. I don’t care anymore. If you don’t love me, I can’t force you to be with me. I’m a fool to have fallen for you in the first place. Go home, or back to Cutter’s—I don’t care. But don’t expect me to save you the next time you find yourself in trouble, Syl.”
He began to walk away, but then I stopped him, grabbing him by the arm. “I didn’t ask for you to save me, Galvon. I don’t need a god-damned hero! But…thank you anyway. You have shown your worth.”
“Just as you have shown yours,” he said, pulling away. But again, I stopped him.
“What is that supposed to mean? I just gave you a compliment, and you shot me down. Why does it have to be all or nothing with you, Galvon? You should have just been happy to have me at all.”
“I went out of my way to please you, Syl!” he snapped, turning on me. “I wanted to be more than just friends with benefits with you, but you’re too much of a harlot to care!”
I slapped him across the face when he said that, taking him by surprise. My eyes glared hotly at him as he rubbed his sore cheek. Then I tore into him, saying, “How dare you speak to me in such an appalling manner, Galvon Redoran! I am a lady of esteem, and my father is the Duke of Dementia. Most men would give anything to have what you have, but you’re too selfish and controlling to let me go! I am not your property, nor any other man’s, and I will not be tied down to a life of quiet submission with anyone! If what I offer isn’t satisfying enough for you, then go find someone else to give you what you want.”
“I want you, Syl!” he cried. “Don’t you see that? I don’t want anyone else—no other women, not even ten—not even a hundred—could give me the satisfaction that you have given me.”
“You have not been satisfied, Galvon. You are not satisfied, because I won’t settle down and stay devoted to you alone. What makes you think I am going to change?”
“Because love can move mountains, Syl,” he said, taking my hands in his and holding them together. “I love you, and I know that you will not go on this way forever.”
“You do not know me very well, then; and it’s clear you have not been listening. I am not going to give myself to you anymore than I already have. Now go away from me, and do not ever speak to me again. You have shown me the extent of your love, and I am not moved. Your harsh words and cruel name-calling have given me all that I need to know how deep your love goes. Goodbye, Galvon. May the Madgod be with you.”
I left him then, to return to the palace, and he never spoke to me again. Eventually, he moved away, after his mother was killed when a skooma addict broke into their house in search of money. What became of him I’ll never know…. Perhaps I was unfair to him, but I had to be honest about how I felt, and to do what was best for both of us in the end. I never held anything against him, and only felt fondness for him in my heart. But I couldn’t love him as he wanted me to, and I wasn’t going to lie just to make him happy. I had to be honest, even if it meant breaking his heart.
That was an embarrassing scene in the streets with Galvon! I wonder if Syl's father heard of it? If so, I suspect it will go badly for both Syl and Galvon. But especially Galvon!
OTOH, when Syl was accosted in the alley, I was expecting it to be Galvon attacking her. What a lovely twist to have him come to the rescue (because he was undoubtedly following her as well).
and I will not be tied down to a life of quiet submission with anyone!
I practically cheered when I read this! Go Syl!
“I love you, and I know that you will not go on this way forever.”
This almost made me laugh. Such a wonderful switch of the traditional gender roles here. It is usually the woman who is dumb enough to believe that her a-hole b/f who treats her like crap will change his ways because he really loves her. So pleasant to see it the other way around!
nits:
He began untying my corset from the front
Corsets are laced in the back. Bodices are laced in the front. The reason is that corsets are made for the wealthy, who have servants to tie them up for them. Bodices are for everyone else, who have to tie them themselves. (although I have corsets, and can tie them myself. You just need a mirror and some practice.) Plus, you also said that one of the thugs used a dagger to cut through the laces of her bodice a few paragraphs earlier.
Ah, yes, I see what you mean. I'm into corsets, too, but I've never had a real one....
I'll change it--since she was sneaking around she'll have on a bodice, and I'll remove the corset... I was thinking she had a corset underneath, but I guess that wouldn't make sense... :facepalm:
Such delicately painted but steady growth Syl continues to portray. In this episode she strikes me for the first time as a fully grown young woman. She is still young and I have no doubt she will continue to grow a great deal, but she knows her own mind and makes choices that have some thought behind them.
The scene where she was accosted and held at knife point was especially well done in terms of providing a foreboding atmosphere of darkness, right down to the fog that blanketed Crucible. What a rich backdrop you provide!
Nit? What I'm going to offer is very subjective, so please simply consider it and feel free to disregard it if you choose. You have a tendency to perhaps over embellish your speech tags or render them redundant. Trust your readers to grasp your intent with a lighter touch. Some examples:
“Don’t lie to me!” I spat, glaring at him with fury.
The words themselves, the '!', spat, glare, fury - one or perhaps two of those things is enough to make the point.
“But, Syl, I…love you!” he cried, pouring his heart out to me.
His words and the '!' and cried all make it clear he is pouring his heart out.
“Get up! Stop making a fool of yourself, Galvon!” I said sternly.
The words and the '!' leave no doubt that Syl's tone was stern.
“P-Please,” I begged, in a trembling voice, “let me go….”
The P-Please makes it clear her voice is trembling.
“My f-father is the Duke,” I stammered fearfully.
The f-father makes it clear she is stammering.
My recommendation is to, whenever possible, tend to favor letting the dialogue itself convey the emotion. Do not avoid simple speech tags like 'I said' that do the job of telling us who is speaking in a most unobtrusive and almost invisible manner.
Powerful scenes in this one, Syl continues to push everyone away from her. I hope she got her dagger back !!! Great Chapter !!!!
SubRosa:Oh, terribly embarrassing! I would have hated being in Syl's shoes at that moment! Galvon is definitely not the guy for Syl--he's too much of a...well, a weakling. She wants a man who worships her--but within reason. She is definitely a strong woman. I like to call Syl my "towanda." (If you've seen the movie Fried Green Tomatoes, you'll know what I mean.)
And also, thank you again for pointing out my error with the corset/bodice thing. I've always loved both, but had yet to quite understand the differences between them. But now that you've clarified that for me, I shan't make the same mistake again!
(Also--I had a corset of a cheaper sort that I was also able to tighten and tie on my own, with practice, so I definitely understand what you said about that. I want a real one, but it's something I need to save up for... I love costumes of that sort! )
Acadian:She is definitely ahead of her time, in a way, as a strong woman who is determined to break free of traditional roles and constraints. I've always seen the Shivering Isles as an interesting mixture of my favorite historic eras--Medieval, Elizabethan, and Victorian. It has elements that can be taken from all of them, so I thought it would be fitting for the Demented to have more of a Victorian Era mindset, in which Syl feels stifled and constrained.
I'm glad you liked my creepy atmosphere for the scene of Syl's attack. What you said is exactly what I was aiming for.
mALX:oops! I guess I forgot to mention the dagger after Galvon rescued her! I should go figure out how to sort of fit that in somewhere! lol
I'm glad you picked up on that--she is like me in that way. She wants to be noticed, but at the same time, she wants to be invisible. It's quite the dilemma, lol! Sadly, she will eventually push pretty much everyone away, perhaps going overboard in her desire to be free and independent. It takes a lot of work to get a characteristic like this balanced!
Chapter 5.3—Obsession
When I returned home the night of my attack, Muurine was waiting for me, as always, and she just about did a flip when she saw the laces of my bodice hanging loose, and the tiny cut on my neck where the dagger had dug in. She could see that I had been crying, and she was alarmed at my disheveled appearance.
“Madgod, Syl, what happened? Who did this to you? Please don’t tell me you were--.”
“Nothing happened,” I cut in. “I’m fine. Galvon took care of it for me.”
“You were attacked then?”
“Like I said, Galvon stopped it before anything happened. I’m fine.”
She sat on the side of the bed and watched me as I bent down to view my reflection in the looking glass, using a wet cloth from my washbasin to clean my face and neck. Then I healed myself, having noticed the cut, and began readying myself for bed. I didn’t talk, and I didn’t even look at Muurine, but she continued to watch me closely, still concerned about what had happened.
“Syl, won’t you tell me anything?” she asked finally, after waiting for a time for me to speak.
I let out a sigh as I stripped off my dress and threw it on the floor by the shoes I had just finished taking off. Then I answered, “There’s no need, Muurine. Nothing happened to me, so what’s the point in talking about it? Just so you can make it into the morning’s gossip?”
“No,” she replied, offended that I would even suggest that, although it was likely true. “I’m simply concerned for your well-being. You’re like a daughter to me, Syl, and…if somebody hurt you, I would want to know. I’d make them my next test subjects for the spells I’ve been working on, actually….”
“Well, I wasn’t hurt. Galvon happened upon the scene, and the men who tried to attack me are now lying dead in the street. Does that satisfy your need to know everything?”
She crossed her arms over her chest and rolled her eyes a little, as if hurt by my attitude. Then she stood up and began getting into her bed, saying, “Fine. I can see that I’m not wanted here.”
“Oh, Madgod,” I cursed under my breath, annoyed by how easily hurt she was, though I’m certain it was all a pretense.
I pulled on my nightgown and walked over to her bed, bending down to give her a kiss on the cheek. She opened her dark brown eyes a little and almost smiled up at me, then said, “You know, I really do think of you like a daughter to me, Syl. You’re the closest thing to a daughter I have ever had, and I’ve raised you since you were a year old….”
“I know, Muurine,” I said, smiling faintly and sitting on the side of her bed. “And I’m sorry you got stuck with me, and that I’ve been such a handful.”
“Oh, not at all, dear,” she said, getting comfortable in her bed and stretching a bit. “You’ve been a real treat. Difficult at times, yes—but always a wonder, and a blessing as well…. You’ll understand it one day, when you’re a mother.”
“Do you think I will be, one day?” I asked, thinking about it for the first time in my life.
“Of course, dear.”
I smiled a little, thinking about it. “You know, I think I’d like that. Being a mother, I mean. I’ve never really thought about it before.”
“Your time will come I’m sure, dear. Just be careful about what sort of men you are letting into your life, though. You wouldn’t want your child to be sired by a brute or by someone who’ll abandon you one day.” She paused to yawn, and then added, “But you don’t need to worry too much about it at this point, since you will likely not even be fertile for a couple more years.”
“Perhaps not,” I replied, thinking quietly. I yawned then, and got up off the bed, going to my own across the chamber. Muurine was practically already asleep, and she didn’t hear me say goodnight. So, I climbed into bed and let out a sigh, thinking about the terrifying events that had happened that night. Then I closed my eyes and whispered a prayer before blowing out the candle on my nightstand and drifting off to sleep.
Syl's homecoming to Muurine shows just how much the two have drifted apart. Where once Muurine was the central figure in her life, now she is merely one more moon in orbit of our, older, wilder wood elf.
I was not surprised to learn that her father knew what was going on (well probably not the being attacked part, and the wild sex) But no more goth makeup!
I loved Syl's musing near the end, about how life changes you between your youth and maturity. It is amazing how your feelings, views, and priorities change. In the case of Syl it is her paranoia. But to a less graphic extent, it happens to all of us. This is a good touch, as it helps us feel empathy for the older Syl.
Syl's interactions with Muurine spoke to truth and were very natural.
Her musings near the end made perfect sense and were quite poignant, shedding more light on her transformation. It seems she still burns a torch for Thadon.
This is wonderful to read!
I don't think I could say it better than SubRosa did. She pulled out everything in this chapter that I planned to comment on - and said it better than I could have, lol.
In the poigniency of that last scene is the confession that may be her reason for shoving everyone away - her feelings for Thadon. I wondered when that would begin again, and hope the story won't skip to it already in full swing. I would love to hear the details on their re-connection.
AWESOME WRITE !!! WOO HOO !!!
SubRosa: What a disappointment, right? No more parties, no more sex, no more goth makeup! Ada is laying down the law once again, but will Syl submit? She can only take so much confinement before she needs to break free--a bird cannot do well trapped inside a tiny gilded cage. You hit it right when you pointed out the changes in Syl's relationship with Muurine, also. Eloquently spoken!
Acadian: Though I don't want to do it too often, I do like having her swing back to the present sometimes as she writes. Hinting at what is to come while offering a little more depth into her current thoughts and feelings about her past is essential to her character, I think.
And that torch she burns for Thadon is surely what gets them both into trouble at the end. Sheogorath will not tolerate it forever, though he does so enjoy toying with them and watching them squirm. In many ways, I intend to paint Sheogorath as something of a villain in this story, as he rightly is. However, even he is cursed with madness, so he is a likeable villain--we feel torn right along with Syl, as far as the Madgod is concerned...
mALX: Yes, SubRosa has an excellent and beautiful way of speaking--she pulls it all out so nicely in the way she writes, I agree.
And I'm so glad you noticed the struggle in Syl-the pushing and pulling of everyone in her life, as she grows and develops will be a key feature in her story. In a way, she is tormented by the struggle of good and evil, more so than most people perhaps, because of the Realm of madness... Her spirit is good and light, but the insanity which inflicts her fights to consume her in its darkness. We see the result of it in the game, somewhat, of course.
And not to worry--there is a great deal to cover before I get to the end. I'll cover most of Syl's life between the first and second books, so there is much more to come!
Chapter 6.1--Matchmaker
Sneaking out of the palace after my father had told me no more parties was entirely impossible, as he had a Dark Seducer posted right outside my door like a sentinel, day and night. Muurine was chastised for allowing me to go, even though I swore to my father that she knew nothing about it. He knew better than to believe us, and he sent Muurine away, saying that I had no need for a governess anymore. She went back to living at her uncle’s house again, so she was still nearby, and Father always allowed her to visit. At least this way she had more freedom to do as she pleased, and she didn’t have to be so tied down to raising me, especially now that I was grown.
My father promised that if he saw enough improvement in my studies, I may be allowed to go out on occasion, with an escort and a chaperone, to make sure no one might try to harm me. But what he would consider satisfactory improvement was nearly impossible to accomplish, and my life became dull and tedious. I needed an escape—a way out of this pointless existence. But with the Dark Seducer standing guard over me everywhere I went, that seemed to be out of the question, and the only thing I could do to enjoy myself was to go into the practice chamber to work on my combat skills, which had been greatly reduced because of my neglect.
Most of the time I stuck with blades and bows, both of which I had developed a passion for. I enjoyed hunting with my father from time to time, but he had lost interest of late, and he would not allow me to go out alone, so I was on the verge of giving up archery altogether. But then an old friend showed up, right in the nick of time.
Sindorin had not been to Crucible in nearly seven years. He was little changed since that time—but I was a completely different story. Now that I was a grown woman of seventeen, Sindorin didn’t even recognize me when Muurine brought him to the palace the day he arrived for a visit. I had been out walking the palace grounds—the closest thing to freedom I got anymore—when they came in the door from Crucible. He took one look at me, and he was swept away. He stopped in his tracks and looked at me with his mouth agape and his eyes wide with attraction. Muurine stood silently when I approached them, waiting for him to figure out who I was on his own.
“Good day, madwoman,” he said, bowing politely and pressing my hand to his lips. He could barely take his eyes off me, and I can’t begin to express how good it made me feel—finally, after all those years, he saw me not as a child, but as a woman.
“Good day,” I replied with a lady-like dip, looking at him intently, and waiting for him to realize who I was. Unlike Muurine, though, I wasn’t patient enough to wait, so I dropped a subtle hint. “It is so good to see you again, Sindorin of Ashwood. It has been so long.”
He looked at me for a moment, completely dumbfounded. “Sorry, do I…do I know you?”
Muurine choked back a laugh while I smiled with amusement at his confusion. Then I said, “Have you forgotten me already? It has only been seven years. I’ve not changed so much, except, perhaps, that I have grown…”
Realizing suddenly who I was, he gasped and looked me over, surprised and perhaps even a bit uncomfortable. “Syl?! By the Madgod, look at you! You’re all grown up!”
“Does this surprise you?”
“Well, no; I mean, ah…I just wasn’t expecting you to be so…so grown up…”
Muurine shook her head and chuckled, placing her hands on his shoulders, but speaking to me. “He means appealing.”
“No, I don’t!” he protested, blushing a bit. Then he turned back to me, and said, “I mean…it’s not that you’re…not appealing; it’s just that…well, I’m sure it would not be appropriate for me to…. Aunt Muurine, you’re not helping!”
“Why don’t we go inside,” I suggested, trying to ease his discomfort. “I’m sure my father would be glad to see you.”
“That’s a wonderful idea,” he agreed. Then we all started toward the palace.
As we walked up the stairs together, Muurine turned to me, and whispered, “He means appealing.”
I giggled and glanced over at Sindorin, who seemed all too embarrassed and uncomfortable. Then we went inside the House of Dementia to see my father. He was glad to see Sindorin, as he had always been fond of him. He was like the son that my father had never had, and the two of them got along perfectly in those days.
After catching up with my father for awhile, Sindorin excused himself and went out to the palace grounds alone. He seemed to be in a more solemn mood than what was normal for him, and Muurine prompted me to follow after him when my father became distracted again with you know who….
Sindorin was standing on the lower battlements, leaning on the railing and gazing pensively out at the waterfalls that cascaded from the mountains nearby. He didn’t hear me approaching, so I startled him when I said, “I thought you had left.”
He turned his head to look at me as he startled, then he let out a sigh and stood up, smiling faintly as he tried to avoid looking at me. “No, I was…just getting some fresh air.”
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“About what?”
“About what’s bothering you,” I replied. “Or, am I mistaken?”
“No,” he said with a sigh. “You’re not mistaken….” He paused for a moment and looked up at me finally, and I could see the longing in his eyes. “I just wasn’t expecting you to have changed so much.”
“Does this displease you?”
“No, not at all. On the contrary, it…it overwhelms me….”
“In what way?”
He looked at me again for a moment, and then asked, “Do you really not know, Syl? Are you truly that naïve; or are you simply playing with me as women often like to do with men?”
I didn’t reply. I honestly didn’t know what to say. It was a bit of both—I was delighted by his attraction to me, and I longed to hear him come right out and say it. But I also had a hard time believing it was true, if only because I had dreamed of this for so long. Finally, he sighed and let out a despairing groan.
“You were only a child when I saw you last! And now…you’re a woman. And you’re…you’re…. By the Madgod! You’re beautiful. I never thought I could have these kinds of feelings for you, Syl. I’m thirty-seven years old, and you’re just a child to me. And yet…you’re not. You…you’re the most beautiful woman that I’ve ever seen, and I feel… like it’s wrong for me to feel this way for you. And yet…nothing feels more right.”
He became quiet suddenly, and he dared himself to look up at me again, curious to see how I was going to react to his outburst of despair. I stood there, quiet and serene, watching him thoughtfully as he examined my face for any hint of what I was thinking. Then he let out a sigh of frustration. “Madgod, you’re impossible to read!” he cried, throwing up his hands and turning away in shame, saying, “I’m sorry I ever said anything. I should have known better….”
Before he could leave or say anything more, I reached up and took him by the face, bringing his lips down to mine and kissing him passionately. He was stunned, but then he settled into the kiss and wrapped him arms around me, kissing back. When we stopped, he looked at me with question, unsure of what to say, or even to think. I smiled.
“Don’t you see?” I asked quietly, with tears in my eyes. “I have longed for the moment you would say these things to me, ever since I was that little girl on your shoulder. I just never thought this day would ever really come.”
He looked at me a moment longer, in disbelief. Then a soft smile spread across his lips, and he bent down to kiss me again. Everything about that moment seemed perfect, and I never wanted it to end. Nothing could have brought me down from that place of sheer bliss—until we heard Muurine’s voice coming from behind us, and we both came back to reality.
“Well, what have we here?” she was asking, a knowing smile on her lips. “Is that my nephew locking lips with my Syl? How exquisite! The two of you would make a charming couple, I daresay.”
We were both embarrassed that we’d been caught, but at least it was only Muurine. If it had been anyone else, it might not have gone over so well.
Sindorin let out a sigh, and said, “Hello, Aunt Muurine. What is it that brings you our way?”
“Oh, I was just wondering where you’d both gone off to…. But now I know.”
“How convenient,” he said, rolling his eyes a little, knowing full well that she’d had every intention of finding us together, in one way or another. Muurine was very sly like that, and I’d confided in her my feelings for Sindorin, so it didn’t surprise me in the least.
“Well,” she said with a smile, “forgive me for having interrupted. I suppose I’ll have to be more careful where I take my walks from now on.”
“That won’t be necessary,” said Sindorin, still terribly embarrassed and somewhat annoyed.
Muurine turned to me now, and said, “Syl, my dear, your father is wondering where you’ve run off to. It’s time for you to resume your lessons.”
I sighed with annoyance, and then turned to Sindorin. “Perhaps we shall talk some more later?”
He smiled at me, and I felt the fluttering in my stomach that I’d read about in Alanwen’s romance novels. I was certainly in love with him.
“I should like that very much,” he said in reply to my question. Then he took my hand and pressed it to his lips, saying, “Sheogorath bless you, for all of your days.”
I smiled timidly then hurried off to the palace to resume my lessons for the rest of the day.
So she finally gets Sindorin to look at her the same way he does ... Earana. I wonder if it will be all she dreamed of, or if she will find herself pushing him away as well? Great Write !!
How wonderful to see Sindorin. Even better to see that he and Syl seem to feel the same way about each other now.
Delightfully presented!
Nit: 'He took one look at me, and he was swept away.'
How did Syl know he was swept away? This passage screams for you to show us what Sindorin did, and let us draw the possible conclusion about his state of mind. Remember, you are in Syl's perspective here, so have her share with us what she saw.
Ah, yes! Thank you for that! I have now changed it in my post and in my archives!
Syl's finally getting the passion she so desired for the past several chapters, what a turnaround!
Syl really did get into that adolescent pandering for a while there. Parties, drink, drugs, sex, deception, and robbery? I think you covered the lot there (well, except for Grand Theft Equine). It was good to see some sense return to her in the end, though, even if it came by the edge of a knife. Throw away your dignity, and you paint a very clear target on your back for those who have done the same.
I hope Syl's life starts getting better, but knowing how, in the present, she is a paranoid wreck, I really can't be sure. At least she could have a good life for a small amount of time before the Champion of Madness comes along and ruins her life.
I'm caught up again, as well.
Sindorin returns. I hope the servants can clean up the drool he left on the palace grounds before someone slips on it. Hmm, I wonder if he is the son of Uncle Leo?
and the two of them got along perfectly in those days.
In those days? I think I see some foreshadowing here of future problems. Perhaps when Daddy learns that Sindorin and Syl have been locking lips on the battlements? Such a very sweet scene that way btw. This being the Shivering Isles, it can only end very badly of course. Muurine's "accidentally" stumbling upon the pair is another foreshadowing of that.
mALX--Thanks! We'll just have to wait and see, won't we?
Acadian--Thanks! Sindorin was Syl's first love, so of course I had to bring him back into the story for a little while.
TK--Will her life get better, you ask? Probably not. I am glad you are enjoying her tale of sex, blood, and madness, TK. There is so much more to come--hopefully you continue to hang around!
SubRosa--lmao! Yes, I suppose there could be a few broken necks... But then again, the Demented seem rather fond of breaking necks, so maybe they left it with the hope that someone would slip on it?
Chapter 6.2—The Caged Bird
I studied for a couple of hours straight, but all I could think about was Sindorin. The way it had felt to kiss him, and the look in his eyes as he gazed at me with yearning—it was just like everything I had read about, and I had never felt this way before now. It was exciting and new, and I felt like I was living in a dream. I could hardly concentrate on my studies, but I knew that my father expected progress, so I tried to focus on what I was supposed to be doing. And yet, I couldn’t stop my mind from straying to my girlish fantasies again. I wondered, what would it be like when he made love to me for the very first time? He had plenty of experience, I was sure of it, as he’d spent a lot of time with other ladies of my father’s court who were eligible, and I had seen him flirting often when I was a child. I had been filled with envy then, but now I was the one he wanted, and I was thrilled by this new stage of my life.
Sitting at my desk, a book laying there open before me, I was in the middle of my fantasizing when a Seducer approached me. I sat up and cleared my throat uncomfortably, feeling my face grow hot as I hoped that the Seducer could not somehow read my mind and see the things of which I had been thinking.
She bowed respectfully, paying no attention to what I was supposed to have been doing, and saying, “His Lordship wishes to see you, my lady. He is waiting in the garden for you presently.”
“Thank you,” I said, putting on my regal exterior, while inside I was still incredibly embarrassed.
As the Seducer walked out, I got up and closed the book, then made my way to the private garden, using the entrance that was just a short distance from my quarters. My father was waiting, just as the Seducer had said; I got down on my knees, kissing his hands in a respectful greeting, as usual. He smiled down at me and waited, then helped me to rise. He had me take his arm and we began walking together around the garden.
“It is good to see Sindorin again after so many years, isn’t it?” he began. Oh, Madgod, did he know? But he continued, saying, “I have always thought of him like a son, you know.”
“Yes, Ada,” I replied in a quiet voice. “You’ve known him since he was a boy, have you not?”
He nodded once, and then cleared his throat. “He is a fine marksman, Syl. If you would like, I will allow the two of you to go out riding together, so you can practice your archery some more with him. I know you haven’t been out in a long time, and it would be good for you to get some practice again.”
“I would like that very much, Ada.”
“Good. Then it is all settled. You will spend your afternoons riding with Sindorin, for as long as he is willing to remain in Crucible. I have already spoken to him on this matter, and he was open to it. Of course, you will be chaperoned.”
“Of course,” I replied, hiding my disappointment. “I would expect as much.”
My father smiled and patted my hand, but he remained thoughtful for awhile. Finally, I asked if there was something else he wished to talk to me about. He sighed a bit uncomfortably, and then stopped to look me in the eye. “Syl, I want you to be happy,” he began. “You know that, yes?”
“Yes,” I replied, still a bit confused. “Ada, is something the matter?”
He sighed, then straightened himself and cleared his throat, seeming to put it behind him. “Never mind…. You should return to your studies. Perhaps we will talk another time? For now, I have much work to do.”
He bent down to kiss me on the forehead, then smiled at me. “You look so like your mother….”
I was pleased with this, and I smiled delightedly. Then my smile faded, and I said, “I miss her.”
His eyes were teary, and I was surprised at how vulnerable he seemed; it was so unlike him…. He nodded slowly, and softly said, “I miss her, too; more than you know…. Well, to your studies then. I will see you at supper tonight. Try not to be late, as you know it displeases me.”
“Yes, Ada, I will try.”
“Good. I shall see you then.”
He squeezed my hand, and then walked toward the main hall, leaving me there in the garden alone. His Seducers continued their patrolling, paying no more attention to me than was necessary, and I leaned back against a boulder there and sighed. I had never seen my father that way before, and it worried me. What was he thinking just then? Why had he looked at me that way, almost as if he were looking at a ghost from his past? He claimed that he missed my mother, yet only days before I had heard him telling Alanwen how glad he was to be rid of her. It had injured me to hear that, but I had tried to ignore it. And now he was telling me that he missed her? Was he lying to me, or to Alanwen? And whatever the case was, why?
******
The next afternoon, I went out with Sindorin, and we rode side by side, smiling at each other frequently, as lovers often do when they are unable to express their feelings any other way. The two Seducers followed behind us just a short distance away, and I knew they had been instructed to be sure nothing happened between Sindorin and I. They watched us closely, ready to report anything to my father which might be considered indecent. We laughed about it with each other, but it really made us considerably nervous.
When he helped me to hold my bow, he knew I had been studying archery for several years, but he used this as an opportunity to get close to me. He stood behind me, with his body so close to mine, and I’m sure the Seducers knew what we were doing. They knew I wasn’t a novice archer, so I hardly needed him to instruct me on the proper stance, but we did it anyway, as there was nothing they could do about it.
He placed his hands upon my waist, to straighten me properly, and I struggled to concentrate on my bow, instead of his hands on my body. When I was ready, I shot at the target he had posted on a tree, and I purposely missed. He knew what I was up to, and he smiled a bit then came over to ‘show me’ the proper stance again, this time helping me to shoot. It was just a little game we were playing, as it was all that we could get away with in such circumstances, but we were hardly interested in archery at that moment.
After I had shot a few arrows, he took me over to retrieve them all, pretending to be explaining to me what I needed to improve on, while the Seducers continued to keep an eye on me. When we were far enough away that they couldn’t overhear us, though, he stopped talking archery, and said, “I missed you terribly. I had hoped I would get to see you again last night, but you were still at your studies.”
I smiled and raised my brow a little. “Last night?”
“Well, I mean…yesterday before supper. I went to the palace to see you, but your father told me you were unable to accept any visitors.”
I rolled my eyes and sighed. “He won’t let me have any fun. He says I don’t study hard enough, but I’m studying all the time. If he’d just let up a little, and allow me to go out from time to time, I might actually study harder, because it would not get so boring, as it does when I’m at it all day long.”
He reached out to touch my cheek, and I closed my eyes to his touch. “Have patience, little Syl. He’s your father. He can’t help being hard on you, because he wants you to have a successful life.”
“Success at what? If he had his way, I’d be locked in the palace until he could marry me off to one of his courtiers. He doesn’t want me to be free. I’m like a little songbird in a gilded cage, and he’s my captor.”
Sindorin glanced over at the Seducers, who were still watching us like hawks. “Madgod, don’t they ever blink?”
I smiled. “My father has them watching us, to make sure you don’t do anything indecent to me.”
He blushed and cleared his throat uncomfortably, saying, “I would never take your innocence from you.”
“I’m not that innocent,” I replied, meeting his eyes before retrieving my arrows from the target and heading back to continue the practice.
I glanced back over my shoulder at him, and I could see he was still stunned, as he leaned on the tree. When he recovered from his surprise, he stood up and followed, clearing his throat again and saying, “Well, shall we continue with our lesson?”
“You’re the teacher,” I replied, casting him a smile that seemed to make him struggle to concentrate.
“All right, then,” he said, trying to clear his head. “We shall do a few more rounds, and then we’ll return to the palace. What do you say?”
“That sounds marvelous,” I answered, and he cast me an almost chastising look when I continued giving him an enticing stare. If only we hadn’t been chaperoned just then…. But with my father controlling the reigns, when would we not be?
Syl's fantasies over her books were very sweet and refreshing to see. Goodness, she is quite taken with Sindorin!
So Daddy is putting the two of them together! I bet he will regret that. Syl probably too. Sindorin - otoh - will probably not live long enough to do so...
nits:
I was in the middle of my fantasizing when a Seducer approached me with a message from my father.
The bolded part is made redundant by the the Seducer's dialogue. You might consider deleting it.
“You’re the teacher,” I replied, casting him a smile that made it hard for him to concentrate on the lesson, instead of the thoughts that were racing through his mind.
You are slipping out of POV here. Syl would not know if her smile made it hard for Sindorin to concentrate or not, or about what thoughts he might be having. She might guess is all. Remember, we only see what your POV character does, hear what they do, think what they do, etc...
You do a delightful job here of delivering on your theme of a bird in a gilded cage. From Syl's studying daydreaming to the taste of freedom riding and shooting with Sindorin under the watchful gaze of the Seducers.
It is touching to see Syl's hormones in alignment with her heart.
And more mystery surrounding Syl's father. His motivations seem inscrutable, but. . . he is the Lord of Dementia after all.
I have to agree with Acadian here. The heated longings between Syl and Sindorin have to take a back seat in my curiousity over this new mystery with Syl's father !!! Great Write !!!
SubRosa:Oops! I guess I'll have to fix that slip-up! Thanks for pointing it out!
Acadian:If only we could be certain of a lasting, healthy relationship between them... And Syl's father is one of those characters who just seem impossible to figure out... Even I am confusled [sic] by him sometimes, and I'm the one who created him, lol!
mALX:Thanks! I am, as always, pleased to know you are enjoying it!
Chapter 6.3
My father allowed Sindorin to take me on a two-day long hunting expedition over the weekend, and I was thrilled to be given a little more freedom. Of course, we were not allowed to go without a couple of Seducers for chaperones, so we were not completely alone together. Still, we would make the most of it, and we rode out together early one Fredas morning, with enough supplies to last us until Sundas.
After setting up camp, we took our bows and our quivers of arrows and headed away from the camp by foot, followed at a distance by the Seducers. We had chosen to go after grummites for sport, laying low behind some bushes and trees up on a hill outside of Knotty Bramble, one of the caves the grummites inhabited. There weren’t any grummites outside the cave guarding the entrance, which was unusual, so we waited leisurely for some to appear, talking in low voices until we heard their croaking voices as two of them came out of the Bramble.
It was then we turned our attentions to the frog-like grummites that walked upright and acted like primitive human-beings. The two we saw were huge, hulking giants, both of them carrying crude grummite cleavers—their deadliest weapons. They were some of the toughest of grummites—this we could tell by their size more than anything.
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“Well now, here we are,” Sindorin said in a low voice, readying his bow and watching them closely as they paced around, patrolling near the path to the entrance. “Watch closely, Syl, as I bring them down with one arrow each.”
I rolled my eyes and waited to see him shoot. He got up to his feet, crouching there and making his aim. Then, just when he was about to shoot, I gasped and reached out to grab his ankle, throwing him off and causing him to miss. I laughed quietly and got up as he sighed and looked down at me with annoyance.
“Very funny, Syl. Now you get to be the one to go retrieve the arrow from down in that swamp. I’ll not waste it—these are the best arrows money can buy, and they are very expensive. Much better than your obsidian arrows, I can say that.”
“Let me see them,” I said, holding out my hand. “I have yet to use a bow and arrows that can out do the ones the Dark Seducers use.”
“Be my guest,” he replied, handing me his bow and one of his arrows. “Let’s just see how well you do with these. They’re not what you’re used to, and it takes a lot of practice.”
I smiled faintly as I concentrated on my aim; then I released the arrow and we both watched as it glided gracefully through the air before striking one of the grummites right between the eyes, killing him instantly.
Sindorin was stunned; but then he recovered, and said, “Lucky shot.”
“Oh really? I’ll show you a lucky shot.”
With that, I pulled out one of my own arrows and shot again. This time the arrow went right through the other grummite’s temple, just as it was running over to its dead companion to see what had happened. He also died instantly, and I smiled and handed the bow back to Sindorin.
“Another lucky shot,” I said with a hint of good-humored sarcasm.
Sindorin took the bow and replaced it on his back, chuckling a bit, and saying, “Guess you showed me.”
“I guess I did,” I replied, flashing my eyes at him. “Did you forget how skilled I am with a bow?”
He let out a sigh and chuckled a bit, saying, “You could teach me a thing or two about archery, eh?”
I smiled and then we went down to search the bodies, taking bottles of poisons they had on them, as well as the cleavers they’d had on their belts.
“These weapons should fetch a nice sum at Morga’s don’t you think?” Sindorin asked, holding one of the cleavers up.
I smiled and placed my foot on one of the grummites to pull my arrow from his head. Then, after searching for Sindorin’s lost arrow together, locating it stuck in a stump near the marsh, we returned to our camp with our loot and cooked up the eggs we’d collected from the grummites’ egg sacks, to go with our meal. While the Seducers stood nearby, always on the look-out for danger, we dined on the grummite eggs, dried beef, fresh strawberries, and an assortment of fire-roasted vegetables, such as onions, fungus stalks, and blister pod caps. Sharing a bottle of cheap wine, we rested together beneath the shade of a willow tree, admiring the beauty of the landscape that surrounded us. Dementia is truly the most exquisite place in all existence, and I can’t imagine any place being more beautiful.
Sindorin laid back, resting on his elbow, while I rested upon my back with my eyes closed in the afternoon sunlight that drifted through the leaves on the tree as a gentle breeze blew. As I lay there, I felt his hand begin to gently stroke my cheek, and I looked up to see him smiling down at me, his crisp blue eyes brimming with pure love and admiration. I felt like the luckiest woman in all the Isles as he gazed at me that day, the afternoon sun shining down through the trees.
That night, when darkness fell and the Seducers stood guard over our camp, Sindorin snuck into my tent. He was wet from the rain that had begun to fall an hour or so earlier, and his loose hair fell over his face. I was completely in awe of this beautiful man who stood there before me—the man I had loved for so long. When he came to me, slipping his arms around my waist and drawing me close to his body, I was entirely swept away. This time, it felt like all the romantic stories I had read. I found that night, to my greatest delight, that love and sex could, in fact, be the same.
******
My father didn’t seem to notice the change between Sindorin and me after we returned from our hunting trip, and we continued to go out every afternoon together. However, he now sent three Seducers with us, and I knew that he suspected something. I felt eyes on me constantly, and it became rather annoying to have so little freedom living under his roof. The only way I could possibly escape that now, would be to move out, but that was never going to happen, as my father would never let me get out from under his authority. I felt like I would be trapped forever, but at least there was hunting and the archery lessons—the closest thing to freedom I ever got.
“Do you love me?” I asked Sindorin point-blank one afternoon, while out on our excursion, and he looked into my eyes when he gave his answer.
“You know that I do.”
“Then why don’t you ask my father to marry me? Then we can be together, and he’ll never bother us again.”
“Marriage?” he asked, straightening uncomfortably. “You—you want to marry me?”
I felt my face grow hot, and I realized I had spoken too brazenly. Muurine had told me many a time never to speak to a man about commitment unless he broached the subject first. Madgod, I was such a fool! “Well, I mean…it was just…. I’m sorry.”
I didn’t know what to say, and I felt like I wanted to cry, but I couldn’t let him see it, so I turned away and began heading for our horses, ready to leave.
“Syl, wait!” he called, running after me and grabbing my arm to stop me. The Seducers both became more alert, watching more closely as they perceived a possible threat. Sindorin realized himself and backed down, but they still watched us to be sure nothing happened, and he spoke in a voice only just above a whisper.
“Syl,” he said again, glancing at the Seducers for a moment, “I didn’t mean to make you feel as if marriage was not an option. I love you, and I want to spend my life with you, but…you’re still very young, and--.”
“I’m still only a child to you,” I cut in, not even bothering to lower my voice. “Don’t worry, I get it. You want to marry someone old and boring, not someone like me!”
The Seducers couldn’t help but listen now, as I was speaking rather loudly, and Sindorin stopped talking quietly, too. “Syl, now wait a minute! You know that’s not true. I want to marry no one but you, but you’re only seventeen. No elf is ever happy in marriage at such a young age. You need to experience more before you will be ready to settle down with anyone.”
“I’ve experienced plenty! If you think I’m just an ignorant and naïve little girl, then you know nothing about me at all. I know what I want, and it is you. I love you, Sindorin; I have loved you for as long as I have known you. What more do I need than that?”
Forgetting about the trouble we might get in, he pulled me into his arms and started kissing me passionately. But then he pulled away just as suddenly and grabbed the reins of his horse, leaving me stunned and rejected.
“What are you doing?” I asked, running to catch up as he began heading back to the road. “Why did you stop?”
“We can’t do this, Syl. I can’t have you.”
“Because of the Seducers?”
“Because of your father,” he replied, looking up at the palace on the cliff behind the city, both of which created a backdrop for all of this.
I looked at the palace, and I could see a figure standing by one of the windows on the palace grounds. I couldn’t see the person’s features, but I knew it was him. He had been watching us all this time, for who knows just how long.
“Come on,” Sindorin said to me. “We have to get back. I’m sure that he’ll be waiting for us when we get there.”
I took my horse’s reins and followed silently, feeling overwhelmed and wanting to cry. Part of me hated my father for doing this to me, but the other part of me strove only to please him. I feared what he would do to Sindorin, and to me, if that was him in the window, watching the whole scene from afar. I just prayed he would be lenient to us both.
Aww, love blossoming and blooming! I'm so glad that Syl's emotions enhanced and allowed her to fully enjoy their time in the tent.
And some grummite hunting!
I'm curious to see what happens next regarding Sindorin and Syl's father.
Nit:
'But then he pulled away just as suddenly and grabbed the reigns of his horse,
I took my horse’s reigns and followed silently, '
In both these passages, you want the word, reins instead of reigns.
A bosmer bowgirl, with a faint smile? How perfect! Syl is indeed growing up, showing that she had indeed learned something after all. Perhaps she will employ that archery skill to rid her father of that concubine?
Ahh, young love, and the first argument over the future. But worse, being caught by daddy, which I had not expected to happen for a little longer. It looks like Sindorin will be the entertainment at the next party!
Acadian:Oh, thank you for that nit! I hadn't even realized there were two different kinds of reigns! lol
SubRosa:Not a bad idea, employing her archery skills against Alanwen...
Chapter 6.4—Freedom at a Price
My father was not waiting for us on the palace grounds, as we had feared, but he was waiting in the main hall. He looked at both of us with disappointment and fury, and he ordered me to go to my quarters where we would talk when he had gotten through speaking with Sindorin. I knew better than to disobey, though I feared for Sindorin, and I went to my quarters to wait nervously there.
Half an hour had passed before my father came to me, and I trembled when my door opened and I saw him there. He seemed to have cooled down some, though the disappointment was still all over his face, and I was ashamed that I had let him down. At the same time, I felt that he was being unfair, because I loved Sindorin more than my life itself.
After closing the door, my father came over to stand before me, and I kept my head down in shame, as I knew he expected of me. To raise my head or to meet his eye would have been seen as defiance, and I was expected to remain submissive, as he was not only my father, but also my Duke.
“You have displeased me yet again with your unwillingness to follow my rules,” he began, his voice cold, stinging at me like ice. “All I have asked is that you act like a decent young lady, but you can’t even keep your skirts down long enough to listen.”
“Ada, it was only a kiss,” I started to say, defending myself without raising my voice, so as to stay submissive. But then he slapped me with the back of his hand and I fell back upon my bed, my eyes welling up with burning tears as he continued to chastise me, yelling loudly.
“I am your father! You have disobeyed me for the last time! I don’t care what you think of my rules; as long as you are living in my House, you will obey them without question! No more friends, no more parties, no more hunting with Sindorin! You will stay in your quarters, day and night, except when I say otherwise! You will take your meals in here, alone, and you will continue with your studies under strict supervision. If you so much as bat your eyes at a man, I will have him executed, and you will be beaten! Is that clear?”
“Yes,” I whispered, barely able to speak.
“Good. Then your sentence begins right now. Get to studying. I want to see progress in your knowledge of the history of the Realm. You are to read about the fall of Vitharn, and you will be questioned in the morning, to be sure that you have learned something from it.”
He began toward the door, but I stood up, and managed to ask, “What about Sindorin?”
He stopped and took in a breath, but he didn’t even turn to face me. “He has been sent away and banished from the House of Dementia. You are not to see him again, so forget about him and get to work.”
After saying that much, my father left, and I collapsed onto the bed and wept for over an hour.
but you can’t even keep your skirts down long enough to listen.
Youch! And how many skanks have you lifted the skirts of daddy?
He has been sent away and banished from the House of Dementia
In how many pieces I wonder?
Now that was quite the bombshell that Syl's father dropped! Not exactly a surprise, as it was obviously what Alanwen had intended all along. But it is still as devastating as one of her father's physical blows. Syl reacted with the rage I expected, given the circumstances. Too bad she was not able to finish the job on Alanwen before her father got there.
As the title said, now Syl finally has her freedom. But purchased with much pain. I have no doubt that this is not over though. Removing Syl from the palace was an error that I suspect will prove fatal for both her father, and Alanwen. For now Syl will have the opportunity to engineer her revenge upon both. Which I hope will be bloody and final. I am sure it will take a while for her to get there, but it seems as inevitable as the sun rising.
nits:
I wanted to slit her from ear to ear
Did you perhaps mean slit her throat from ear to ear?
Yes, Syl has finally gotten her wish of freedom, and I for one am glad it came at the price of the loss of her father. If he was willing to choose a morally ambiguous harlot over his own daughter, then if he were my father, I would have nothing more to say to him. A good father always respects the wishes of his kin, and it is obvious Syl's does not. When Syl likened herself to a pet bird, she hit the nail right on the head.
I get the feeling that the next time Syl meets her father, it will be with cold vengeance in her heart.
In the meantime, I look forward to seeing just how much Syl enjoys (or doesn't) her new life outside the palace, as fallen royalty. She had better buckle down, though, because if there is one thing palace life can do to you, it is shelter one from the true evils of life. Syl has only had one experience with such people, but now she must learn to live among them after nearly two decades of protection by her blood status. Mistakes are going to be made; that much is certain at this point. Let's hope they aren't too bad, I don't want to see Syl get hurt.
I find it hard not to feel Syl's father set this up between the two of them - allowing them to go on a two-day hunting trip together where they will be in the same tent? How could he possibly be mad if they did something when he all but threw them together in an intimate setting? He couldn't have expected anything less than her deflowering (had she still been a flower).
Sindorin is acting oddly skittish, too. Why would he be hesitant to ask the father's permission for marriage rather than make it appear like he is just toying with the Duke's daughter's goodies and has no intentions beyond that? It seems the father would be much happier to learn Sindorin wants to marry her than just roll her in a tent.
You have quite a mystery going on in these relationships, intriguing bits of information that reveal tantalizing glimpses but the undertones promise a bigger story than we are seeing - can't wait to find out more !!!! Awesome Write !!!!!
The first scene was both powerful and poignant.
Syl's imprisonment in her room and seeking comfort through cutting herself is actually fully understandable - testimony to how well you have developed her for us.
'Suddenly I felt as if a wall had tumbled down upon me. The news hit me like a bolt of lightning, and I was stunned. I wanted to kill her. I wanted to slit her throat from ear to ear. She was going to take my Ada away, just as she had been planning ever since she killed my mother. But I was not going to let her. Somehow I had to stop it.'
Syl has a reaction here that is very true to her nature as you have shown us. The violence that followed also seemed somehow perfectly fitting for Syl.
“Get out of my House,” he said, gritting his teeth just to keep from hitting me. “You are not welcome here any longer!”
At this news, I actually found myself saying, "Yes, freedom for Syl at last!" Alas, I see Syl does not feel that way, and again, you make her thinking so very in keeping with her nature, for I overlooked that she does indeed still love her father:
'I let her lead me out, but I felt numb and betrayed. I thought my life was over that day, and a part of it was. I was no longer Ada’s faerie princess anymore. Alanwen had finally won. He was all hers.'
Clearly, this marks a significant turning point for Syl.
SubRosa:Thanks for pointing out that I left out "throat" in that sentence, lol. Sometimes I think faster than I can type...or is it the other way around?
TK:Aww, I'm so glad I've managed to make you care about Syl! It's what I was hoping to do, and that you express your hopes for her not to get hurt is quite touching!
As you said, it seems more than likely that she will end up getting hurt, but suffering has its purpose in life, after all--we can learn from it.
mALX:Actually, they were supposed to be in separate tents... However, it would seem the Duke ought to have known better. Glad you're still hanging in for more! Yay!!
Acadian:Thank you very much, sir! *bows respectfully* I am thrilled to know that my writing is doing that which I was hoping it would do--yours and...all the other comments are certainly testimony that I should indeed continue writing--not just for my own sake, but to add enjoyment and (hopefully, ultimately) learning through an activity that I fear is slowly dying--reading. But still, I feel so inferior to all of you, who are such skilled writers--so to hear you all encourage and praise my writing...I am left speechless, and all I can say is, again, thank you all!
Chapter 7.1—Exiled
Sindorin threw his arms around me the moment he saw me follow Muurine into the house in Crucible that day. “Syl! I cannot believe you are here! How did you get your father to let you come?” When he looked at me again, he saw that I had been crying, and then he noticed the somber expressions on mine and Muurine’s faces. Then he asked, “What happened?”
Muurune sat me at the table and pulled Sindorin aside to quietly fill him in on the details. When they finished speaking, he came to kneel before me, taking my hand, and saying, “Oh, Syl, I…I’m sorry.”
I couldn’t speak. What words could possibly have conveyed what it felt like to be exiled—disowned by my own beloved father? Fresh tears filled my eyes, and though I tried to fight it, I began weeping again. Sindorin pulled me into his arms and held me as I wept, and I was comforted by the warmth of his embrace. But nothing could possibly fill the void that was left in my heart that day. Nothing could heal the ache of abandonment that surrounded me.
Something is decidedly odd about Sindorin. He wakes up to a woman he is in love with snuggling him in his bed and merely stirs a little ... hmmm. Add that to him not stepping up and asking the Duke for her hand in marriage - oh yeah, Sindorin has some secrets of his own I'll bet. I wonder what they are, lol.
Syl not doing as the Duke bid and returning to him with an apology - that was probably a decision based in her youth, I was surprised Muurine didn't advise her to take that route. And a secret - one that Muurine obviously CAN keep, lol. A great chapter !!!
mALX: Yes, Muurine does actually have the ability to keep some secrets. When her life depends on it, then she knows very well how to keep her lips sealed....
Chapter 7.2—Exiled
Though I felt a sense of sorrow at leaving the city of my birth, I was excited and giddy about starting a new life with Sindorin in Ashwood—a city which had mystified me since I was a little girl. When we arrived, nobody knew who I was at all. It was such a relief to feel a sense of anonymity, for probably the first time in my life. I began to relax a bit, seeing that I wasn’t being watched so closely, like I always was in Crucible, where almost everybody knew who I was.
Life with Sindorin in Ashwood was wonderful, and for the first week I was unbelievably happy. He was so kind and respectful, and he showered me with love every single day. But it didn’t take long for me to realize I would not be happy in Ashwood for the rest of my life. After the first week, Sindorin began spending a lot of time going out on the hunt, and he would be gone for days at a time, usually only returning home for the weekend. I thought he would want me to go along on the hunt, but he seemed less than enthused when I asked to join him.
“Listen, Syl, I just need some time alone. I am not used to being around anyone this much—I need more solitude. And besides, I would prefer it if you stay here, where you will be safe.”
“I do not want to be your princess in a tower, Sindorin!” I argued. “I can handle myself in a battle just as well as you—I don’t need to be locked away for safe keeping!”
“Please, Syl,” he said, lifting my chin and wiping hot tears from my cheeks. “It is not easy for me to change the way of life I have lived for longer then you’ve been alive. Next time I will let you come with me—but this time I just want to go alone.”
Looking up at him, I let out a sigh. Then I said, “All right. Go, then. I will not stop you.”
“Thank you for understanding,” he replied, kissing me and patting me on the cheek before heading to grab his bow. He stopped before going out the door, and turned back to me, saying, “Please make sure you stay home while I am away, and do not answer the door if anyone knocks. You never know…. I’ll return in two days. I love you.”
“I love you, too,” I answered quietly, though I couldn’t look at him. And then he was gone, and I was alone once again.
“Well, she was executed, naturally.”
How very demented! That Muurine said this in a rather blasé manner is testimony to how well you have crafted her for us.
And another mystery! This time about Syl's first governess.
Then Syl and Sindorin went off to Ashwood with such high hopes. Very poignant how things didn't work out there for Syl, and a sad return to Crucible.
Nit: 'While I lied there,'
You want 'lay' here. Lay vs lie can be very confusing and become even more so in the past tense. A correct example: 'Yesterday I lay in bed all day reading. Finally I laid my book on the table and put out the light.' I highly recommend you google 'lay vs lie' and try to get comfortable with the quirky differences.
Blessings of the Madgod! What a wonderful story! It's always nice to see another writer here (and a Bosmer no less! )
I am loving what you have done with the Shivering Isles! I don't get to visit with my Argonain as much as I'd like so it's nice to read your wonderful descriptions of the brilliant madness. You have given a huge depth to characters that I have never really spoken to 'in-game' and for that I congratulate you. I particularly loved the early scene with Thadon and Syl as children in Bliss, Thadon chasing after his chocolate as it floated away made me giggle. The romance between Syl and her lovers was also wonderful to read.
I look forward to future chapters with much anticipation!
mALX: Yes, Sindorin is rather detached, as you can plainly see. He does love Syl, but he is a madman, after all, and somewhere in his past lies the reason for his current inability to show more emotion and caring. It's unfortunate, because if not for that, he might have been a wonderful man for Syl to spend her life with. But, alas! it could not be.
Acadian: It probably helps me write the Demented characters with their so very twisted perspective because one of my favorite films growing up was The Addams Family with Anjelica Huston. In fact, Anjelica Huston is, in some ways, my inspiration for Muurine's character--I could see her as Muurine perfectly, though Muurine is more of a mixture of some of Ms. Huston's most memorable roles. I love writing these characters because they are just so very different...
hazmick: How wonderful it is to see a new reader join in Lady Syl's House of Madness! I am so pleased to hear that you are enjoying this rather bittersweet story of Syl's (and Thadon's).
Chapter 8—Dreams of Passion
It was a warm, sunny day in the Shivering Isles, and Thadon wanted to take advantage of the weather. He spent much of the day walking on the palace grounds, or sitting in the Halcyon Conservatory with a good book. He snacked on chocolates while he read, sipping wine from a silver goblet, and dreaming of the far off places in the stories he read. Then he began nodding off, an effect from the greenmote he had eaten with the midday meal wearing off, mixed with incurable boredom, when suddenly a voice called his name.
He opened his eyes, and when he saw who it was, he let out a sigh, and asked, “Is it really time, my Lord? Must I do this right now?”
“It is time,” said Lord Antonius, the tall but portly Duke of Mania. “We must prepare for the feast. This is a marvelous day for you, my boy—the day your destiny begins to take shape. I thought you would be excited about this day.”
“I am,” Thadon responded, “but can’t I have a few more minutes? I was having the most wonderful dream about a childhood friend, and I don’t want to leave it just yet.”
What a lovely insight into the life of the manics and Thadon's early court days. I wonder, does he take chocolate with his greenmote?
I think the young Bosmer is in love! If only he knew who that familiar face belonged to!
Great chapter M'lady.
My dear Syl... why must you break these hearts so?
It seems Syl hasn't quite gotten used to the fact that she is no longer royalty. Frankly, her complaints about living with Sindorin seemed like she's been spoiled by being able to live as she wished for most of her adolescent life. But, by the same token, she was also a prisoner of her father's will, so this could go either way.
It is disheartening to see her leave Sindorin, but at the same time, she now knows he is not the one in life she has been looking for. I wonder who is?
And I wonder if she is ever going to get to pay a visit to Cyrodiil, too? I would love to see Masser and Secunda rise in person, myself!
7.1
I wonder what this secret was that Syl's wetnurse was executed for learning? Maybe who Syl's real father was? Or real mother was? Interesting...
7.2
I was not surprised at the courier's note of further banishment. I expected as much. I am also not surprised to see Syl's little love-nest with Sindorin quickly become stifling as well. For his own part, I am certain that married life (for even if it is not official, that is basically what it is) is quite a shock for him. Loving someone is one thing. Being able to live with them is something else entirely. Especially when you are used to doing everything your own way.
Syl's dream, and the mystery man in it, now that sparks some ideas. Why do I keep thinking of Thadon? I suppose only time will tell the answer to that.
Now there we were, standing before one another in the parlor, but it was as if we were an entire world away from each other.
I loved how you did the entire scene, but especially this. I have been there and done that myself, and that is exactly what it is like. Well written!
But it’s not enough
This is another excellent realization, and a most basic truth that people can only learn the hard way. Love is not enough. It takes more, and often that is just not there.
This note is copied and pasted on everyone whose story I am having to neglect for a few days - mainly because my eyes are burning too badly to keep looking at the screen :
"I'll be back!" (spoken in an Arnold voice). I haven't had time to read this week - way too much going on, my week has been hectic as H !! When I have gotten any free time my eyes and mind were burned out, lol. I'll be back to read this when I get a bit of a break in the rat-race pace around here. (sorry about that )
hazmick:Thank you! And yes, I believe Thadon does indeed take chocolate with his greenmote!
TK:I break these hearts because it gives you an insight to this seemingly terrible person from the game, of course! Unfortunately it only gets worse before it gets better. Must have much pain and sorrow to create the future Duchess of Dementia, after all. But I'll give you a little to look forward to: Through all the misery she experiences, there are little rays of sunshine and happiness that will manage to peek through all the clouds.
SubRosa:Hmm, you may be onto something. Time will only tell, of course. And Sindorin was a learning experience that she had to go through perhaps, to know what the real good thing is when it comes... Soon perhaps?
Chapter 9.1—Desperation
After returning to Crucible, I found that most of my old friends no longer cared for me, now that I was no longer in my father’s favor. Now that I was disgraced, I was nothing to them. So much for true friendship…
Cutter was still friends with me, but she was busier with learning to be a blacksmith, so she didn’t have much time to spend with me. However, she made it clear that she still valued my friendship, and on her free-time she would have me over at the smith shop to hang out together, usually just the two of us.
Sometimes Dumag gro-Shadborgob would also hang out with us, as he was Morga’s son, and also Cutter’s lover at the time. I could never understand her attraction to him, but they seemed very fond of each other then, and he would at the very least try to be friendly. However, he apparently had always had an interest in me, and he had asked Cutter to get me to go to bed with him one time. I was hardly interested, especially since I assumed the two of them were going steady, but apparently Cutter thought it would be fun. She was particularly wild in those days, and she could get me to do just about anything.
Dumag had offered to pay me for it, which I would have turned down in a heart-beat. But my two week stay at the inn was about to come to an end, and I had no money. If I didn’t get the 20 drakes it cost for a room, I was going to be out on the streets the very next night. But Dumag was willing to pay 10 for one time with me, so out of desperation, I agreed. I would make up the difference my own way.
In her chamber at the smithy, I asked Cutter if she would let me drink a couple bottles of wine first, but she vehemently said, “No! Absolutely not! Syl, how can you say you do or do not like it with him, if you’re too drunk to remember any of it?”
I glanced over at Dumag, who was waiting patiently on the bed in his loin cloth. He saw me look at him, and he made what appeared to be a smile. I forced myself to return his smile, and then looked back at Cutter. “All right,” I said with a sigh. “I’ll do it without getting drunk…. But can I at least have just one drink, to get me a little more in the mood?”
“Sure,” she said, handing me the bottle she had only just wrenched from my hands moments ago. I took one drink—one very long drink—and she had to yank the bottle away, so I wouldn’t consume it all. “You cheat!” she said with a snicker.
I smiled and said, “You said I could have one drink. You didn’t say how long it could be.”
She rolled her eyes and grabbed my arm to pull me toward the bed. She took a swig of the wine herself, and handed it to Dumag, who accepted it graciously. Watching Dumag drink the wine then, I felt suddenly very modest and shy about this whole thing. Cutter, having noticed, reached around my waist to untie my bodice herself. I felt very awkward, but Dumag grinned. “Mmm, I like that. You two gonna put on a nice show for Dumag before we begin?”
“If you want us to,” said Cutter, much to my shock and horror.
“Cutter! You can’t be serious?”
“Sure I am,” she replied. “Why not? It’ll be fun.”
“I…can’t do this,” I said, shaking my head. “Please, Cutter, let’s just get on with Dumag, or else I want to go home.”
She rolled her eyes and let out a sigh. Was she actually disappointed? “Fine, whatever,” she said. Madgod! She was disappointed!
I swallowed hard and came closer to the bed, and Dumag held his arms out to me, saying, “Come on, sugar. Let’s get this on, shall we? I’ve had my eye on you for a long time.”
Cutter had turned away, and I was surprised that she seemed so upset that I had opted out of giving Dumag a show. I wanted to talk about it, to find out why, but Dumag was eager, and I knew she probably wouldn’t talk about it anyway.
I’ll admit it wasn’t terrible—lets just say that orcs are rather well-endowed. But when it was over, I had already made up my mind that I never wanted to sleep with an orc again. It just didn’t appeal to me. Cutter went with him after he finished with me, and I took the half-drunk bottle of wine and went to sit in a corner with it, wrapping my black, lace-edged shawl around my shoulders to keep warm. I wanted to go back to the inn. I wasn’t in the mood to party anymore, so while they enjoyed each other’s company, I let myself out.
I was still a little on the drunk side, and I walked a bit unsteadily through the foggy streets. Everything seemed more frightening to me when I was drunk, and though my senses were not as sharp, I felt more alert in trying to focus and get off the dangerous streets. I was starting to wonder if having my father’s Seducer bodyguards follow me everywhere wasn’t such a bad idea, after all, and I wished I could have had them with me that night. Usually Cutter walked me home, but now I was pretty sure she was angry with me.
When I heard a set of footsteps following behind me suddenly, I felt even more worried, and I placed my hand on the small steel dagger Sindorin had given to me, just in case I ever needed to defend myself. If anyone tried to attack me, this time I would be ready.
I was relieved when the footsteps soon faded, as if the person had turned in another direction, and I relaxed. Then all of a sudden I came face to face with a tall, well-built man who looked as if he were up to no good. I nearly screamed.
“Sorry, madwoman,” the gentleman said with an eerie smile. “I did not mean to frighten you. I was only out for a stroll; I love the foggy nights in Crucible. They feel so refreshing, would you not agree?”
I stood there, dumbfounded. Was he seriously trying to make polite conversation with me? Or was there something else, something more sinister, behind it? Honestly, I was terrified, and I no longer had my dagger to protect myself with.
When I didn’t respond, the gentleman smiled. “I can see you are not one for talking. That’s all right.” He looked me over for a moment, then his smile broadened and he raised his brow. “Hmm, I wonder,” he said, thoughtfully. “Would you, perchance, be interested in providing your services to me? I realize that it is quite late, and you were probably done for the night, but…well…I’d be willing to pay very generously.”
Suddenly I realized the man was offering me money in exchange for sex. He thought I was a…a street-walker! I almost laughed. But then…hadn’t I just had sex with Dumag for 10 drakes? And I knew I was in a rather desperate situation, not wanting to be out on the streets, so I put on a smile, and asked, “How much are you willing to pay?”
He pulled out a plain leather coin pouch, taking out a few drakes. Not much, for what he was asking…. But then he tucked the money into his shirt and offered me the pouch that was heavy with coins. I couldn’t believe it. There had to have been at least 20 drakes in there, if not more. I accepted it graciously, and then we went into a nearby alley together, where I gave him his dues.
When the man had satisfied himself, he tied his breeches and walked away, vanishing into the foggy night and I pulled open the pouch to see what I had. I was astounded when I counted 25 drakes, and I had to count it again just to be sure. Now I had enough for one more night at the inn, and a little extra. The thought of sleeping with men I didn’t know was not very appealing to me; however, it gave me a bit of an idea, and I hurried back to the inn to get a couple hours of sleep until the alchemist’s shop opened in the morning.
Chapter 8
So nice to see an episode about Thadon! I have been wondering how he was faring, and if he was still on the fast track to becoming the next Duke. He certainly has a much better relationship with his Duke than Syl does! I liked the contrast this gives us to the House of Dementia, where torturing people is the entertainment for parties. Where the Duke of Mania is the life of the party. I think I would like the Manic parties better... Although from the glimpse you have given us of what that it is like to be Duke of Mania, I can see how it would wear people out.
So Thadon is dreaming about Syl? How delightful! Then his considering that the woman in his dreams is just a symbol projected by his on unconscious, showed a great deal of self-awareness.
Chapter 9
Desperation indeed. Poor Syl is finding out that life is not so easy without a silver spoon in your mouth. She is going to have to learn to work for a living, and it looks like she started with Dumag! Hopefully she can find a better way to make money than that. Given what happens later during her midnight stroll, I guess not! Still I wonder what that idea was she had at the end?
nits:
Chapter 8
You seem to be head-hopping again in the first part. It starts with Thadon alone, so that section must be from his pov. Then as soon as the Duke arrives, we are in his thoughts. Then near the end, we are definitely in Thadon's head, as we know that Syl is in his thoughts.
Even so, he was well-built and unbelievably handsome, with soft brown hair that fell to his shoulders, and those gorgeous and unique eyes.
Unless you want us to think that Duke Antonius is bisexual, and has a crush on Thadon, you might want to reword this (if he is, and he does, then excellent!) At least, my impression was that this was from the pov of the Duke? Maybe it was Thadon thinking of himself?
You head-hop again at the beginning of the second part. We start out firmly entrenched in Thadon's pov as he thinks about the blond hottie. Then we suddenly swerve into said hottie's head, as we know that she definitely wanted to sleep with him. And it keeps going back and forth as the part goes on.
Chapter 9
Are you going with a septim and a drake being the same coin? I bring it up because many people have them being different denominations, usually with the septim being gold, and the drake being silver (so that x drakes equal one septim).
SYL! I am shocked! Why did poor Cutter get left out, it seems very rude to treat your host in such a way! A brilliant chapter, it is wonderful to see what goes on in that head of yours/hers. I can only imagine what Thadon would say if he heard about this...assuming that he had not consumed his own body weight in greenmote chocolate and still had the ability to speak
SubRosa:oops! Didn't notice the whole septim/drake thing. I meant for it to be drakes; I'll go back and fix that. THanks!
Pov--that's what I probably struggle with most when writing third person, which is why I think I prefer first person much of the time... thanks for pointing that out. I'll go back and figure out how I can remedy that.
hazmick:Yes, Syl and I have become rather entwined, haven't we? I'm not nearly as naughty as she is, though, lol. Only in my imagination!
Chapter 9.2—Desperation
The very next morning, I went to the alchemist’s shop, hoping to buy the ingredients I needed with what little money I had left. Thankfully, I had just enough to buy what I needed to make that elixir I used to make when Cutter and I would steal money from all those lusty men at the inn. I had every intention of doing that again, at least for a little while, so that I would not be out on the streets.
Muurine was surprised when I knocked at her door asking to borrow her mortar and pestle, and she quickly pulled me inside, looking out to be sure no one saw her welcome me into her house. “Of course you may use my mortar and pestle, dear. You can use anything you need—but what is it for?”
“I…want to make some potions to sell.” Of course, that wasn’t exactly the truth, but I wasn’t about to tell her I was going to use it for a crime spree.
“Come,” she said, “you must be quick. You may use my equipment upstairs in my quarters. Are you hungry? Do you need anything else?”
“No, thank you,” I replied with a slight smile. “I do not wish to put you at any more risk than I already am just by being here. I will be quick, and I will let myself out.”
“Well…all right, then,” she said, hesitantly. “Go on upstairs. But let me know if you need anything.”
I thanked her quickly, and then headed upstairs to get to work. Pulling out my ingredients: rot scale and worms head caps for the paralysis, and alocasia fruit to mask the bitter taste, I worked carefully to be sure I got the proportions just right for maximum effect. When I had finished, I had three small vials of my paralyzing elixir, and I tucked them inside my empty coin purse for safe keeping before slipping out without saying anything to Muurine.
WOWZA! I certainly didn't expect that! Should've stuck with the potions and made some money there, just to keep things safe. I hope Syl has learned her lesson...never seduce a man without Cutter there to help you...is that the lesson? A brilliant chapter, keep up the good work!
Sorry it took so long to get over here and read, this month has been unbearably hectic so far.
It is shocking to think of the Syl in game going through all this, and I keep wondering if it is what eventually drives her to set up that underground sanctuary with the tunnel system leading into the Palace. Great Write !!
“Last I checked, honey, you ain’t a customer.”
rimshot please! Arwen Syl tried the same stunt on the same guy twice! Doh! She really needs to pay more attention to their faces! It ended predictably. Poor girl. This is certainly quite the change from her sheltered life in the palace.
hazmick: Of course that's the lesson! What other lesson could she learn from this?
mALX: This, perhaps, and many other things contributes to Syl's paranoia... She's living a hard life, unfortunately...
SubRosa: I think with Sharag's line there, Syl got her pride hurt a little, eh?
Yeah, she wasn't really paying close attention, was she? She was pretty disoriented, most likely... Sadly, there is more struggling on the way for her, before things get better....
Chapter 9.3—Desperation
After being caught by the Nord, there was no way I was going to try that little stunt again. Not without Cutter, anyway. But now I was left in an even more desperate situation, and I had to stay on the streets that night. I found some shelter in an alley, keeping myself hidden behind some crates, but I couldn’t sleep. The ground was damp and cold, just like the air, and I was terrified in such a situation. I shivered, pulling my now tattered and dirty shawl around myself, closing my eyes to ignore the insects that were flying and crawling all over the place. Mosquitoes bit me anywhere they could find bare skin, and I wanted to cry because I was so afraid of being on the streets. When I felt something crawling on my ankle, I screamed and leapt up, running from that place until I was near the inn again.
It was so cold that night, and a light rain was beginning to fall. There was no way I was going to sleep on the streets. But the only other option I could see at that moment was to prostitute myself at the inn. A shiver ran down my spine when I thought about the spider that had been on my ankle before, and I decided that I would rather sleep with a stranger than to sleep with insects in the mud.
When I went into the tavern, there was a lot more commotion than there had previously been. The larger amount of people meant there was more to choose from, and it didn’t take long for some of the men to show an interest in me. I felt a mixture of embarrassment and shame when I accepted an offer and followed the man up to his room. I was grateful it was quickly over with, and I had earned myself 12 drakes for my services. But that was still not enough for even one night at the inn, so I had to go back down to the tavern and find another man to provide my services to. This would become a nightly ritual, necessary for my survival during that period in my life.
I learned quickly to ask for the money up front, because I had a couple of customers leave after having me, without having paid. It infuriated me, but I felt helpless in my current situation. At least there was a pretty steady flow of customers, because there were people who were constantly moving around through the Isles. Back then, it was almost too easy for people to get into the Realm, whether they were welcome or not, and most of the men I went with I would never see again. There were a few times when I ran into men from my father’s court, and they could easily recognize me. At first, I was worried. But then I found that those men were just as eager to pay for me as any other. There was no such thing as a gentleman in bed.
I never had a problem finding customers, and before long I was making enough money to do more than just survive, and I had my own room at the inn. There were plenty of men around who were more than willing to pay a good price, in order to have their way with an attractive young woman, no-strings-attached. All I had to do was look good, show a little skin, and drop subtle hints that I was available. Then the men would come to me in order to live out their darkest fantasies, or simply for a quick fix. The job was easy, and it paid well. The best part was the sense of anonymity between me and my customers—save for the ones from my father’s court. The men didn’t care who I was or where I was from, as long as they could have their way with me for awhile. And for the time being, that was just what I needed.
Hooray for Cutter! I'm happy that the two Bosmeri have managed to sort things out between them, Syl needs all the friends she can get at the moment. Now they can both get back to business
I particularly enjoyed seeing Ushnar in this chapter, showing his love of dogs from an early age. Maybe that puppy ends up being his Skinned Hound? I'm interested in the reason for his fear of cats, is that something you shall be visiting?
Poor Syl! Teresa could have given her some pointers on finding a good place to squat. I wonder what that was curling up against her ankle? A cat, or a rat!
So back to the tavern it is, where Syl has already learned some of the harsh realities of prostitution, such as being stiffed by her customers (I tried to avoid the pun, but there is no way around it).
The real gem here is of course Syl's utter cluelessness concerning Cutter's feelings for her. Yep, sometimes people can be just that blind to another affections, no matter what the genders involved. I have to admit to being in that position myself once. Poor Cutter, I have also been in the same position as her. Like the song goes, Love Stinks.
Nits
forced to do chores around the house while my uncle sat on his british boat all day
It appears that one of Her Majesty's naval vessels has made its way into the Shivering Isles. Probably looking for mad King George...
hazmick:Ushnar has always been one of the few orcs I have ever liked! As for his fear of cats...we'll see.
mALX:I'm relieved she redeemed herself!Hopefully she will continue to do so, now that she's hit rock bottom--the only way to go is back up!
SubRosa:Eek! Whatever it was, I'm sure Syl never wants to find out! Especially if it was a spider...
She has inherited my arachnophobia, though I haven't really mentioned it in the story just yet, lol.
And thanks for pointing out the british boat! It's rather odd that he would keep a boat in his house, instead of using a chair!
Chapter 10.2—The Breton Farmer
My career was not entirely without gratification, and a few of my clients were actually enjoyable, though most of the time it felt like a chore and I would nearly have given anything to never have sex again. However, there was one client who left a particularly profound impact on me—a man by the name of Claude Petrick. He was an older man of somewhat limited means, but he approached me one night and asked for my services. He seemed shy about it, almost like he felt ashamed, but he offered enough drakes to satisfy me, and I went up to my room with him.
He was very impressed, and after we had finished, we lay in the bed together, and he stared up at the ceiling to recover from his awe, saying, “I haven’t been with a woman like that in years….”
I was used to such comments, many which were false, but I smiled faintly and took a sip of wine to quench my thirst. He rolled over onto his side to examine my slender form, and I saw him watching me, though I pretended not to notice.
“How old are you?” he asked suddenly. “You seem very young to be a…a…well, a…”
“A prostitute?” I finished for him, seeing that he was trying hard not to offend me. He nodded, and I smiled. “I’m eighteen. I’m quite old enough.”
“Eighteen?” he asked, somewhat shocked. “I was hoping you were at least a little older than that…. I thought elves always looked younger than they really were?”
“We do,” I replied. “When we’re older.”
“Oh…I see.” He became silent and turned over onto his back. He was bothered by my young age, but I didn’t know why. I had been with plenty of men who were his age, some even older, and none of them concerned themselves with my age.
Moving closer to him, I began kissing his chest, and he didn’t stop me. But he wouldn’t look at me. Smiling, I asked him if he wanted more. He looked at me finally, and I could see that he did. But he only sighed. “I can’t afford it. I shouldn’t have had you even once. But I couldn’t resist you…. I’ve never been good at resisting temptation. I thought I had cured myself of that flaw long ago, but…I guess I was wrong. You were too irresistible.”
“Are you married?” I inquired. He was surprised that I would even ask.
“How did you know?”
I smiled. “The married ones are the only ones that ever stay and talk. And you talk as if you are harboring guilt for having me. Your wife will be displeased.”
“Yes,” he replied with a nod. “She will be—if she ever finds out.”
“Is she beautiful?”
“She used to be. But now….”
“But now she’s old and marred,” I finished. All men were the same.
“Well, yes,” he replied, slowly. “But that’s not why she isn’t beautiful to me now. She is a very cold and spiteful woman, cruel to me and abusive to our children. I loved her once, but that was a very long time ago.”
“How many children do you have with her?”
He looked at me sideways and answered, “Eleven.”
I was amazed, and even somewhat disturbed. Elves could never have that many children—and thankfully. Most only conceive once or twice, some never at all. Children are very rare among our race, so they are most precious to us when they come. With humans and other races, it was not so much.
“I can’t imagine having eleven children,” I said aloud. “That’s so many….”
“Well, we humans can’t stop having children very easily, unless we stop having sex altogether….” I smiled, and he did too. Then he continued. “It’s good, though, because we live on a farm. So, there is plenty of help once they all become old enough to work.”
“A farm? Where?”
“Just outside Ashwood,” he replied. “Have you ever been there?”
“Yes,” I replied, pensively. “Many times... I have a friend who lives there.”
“Do you? Who?”
“He’s high elf. His name is Sindorin.”
“Oh, Sindorin! I know him quite well, actually. He hunts for us sometimes, and we trade—his meat for our produce and eggs. How do you know him?”
“He’s…just an old friend,” I replied. “Almost family…. H-How is he?”
“Oh, he’s well, I would imagine--though he seems more down than usual, for some reason. Spends most of his days and nights out hunting, but that’s the way he’s always been. Don’t see him all too often, ‘cept when he brings us some of his kills for trading—once a week, usually. If you want me to, I’ll tell him you said hello.”
“No, that won’t be necessary. He…wouldn’t know me anymore.” I lay back and let out a sigh, and he knew better than to go on about it, as he saw that the subject made me uncomfortable.
“Have you ever been to a farm?” he asked, changing the subject.
“No. I’ve only ever lived in the city.”
“It’s a much different lifestyle,” he replied. “A lot of hard work. But the children don’t mind. Keeps ‘em healthy, and strong.”
“How old are they?”
“Well, my youngest, Irene, is four. But my oldest…well, he’s twenty-six.”
“Oh,” came my reply. His oldest was eight years older than me. No wonder he was somewhat disturbed when he found out my age.
He smiled and looked at me. “I’m Claude, by the way. Claude Petrick. Might I have the privilege of knowing your name?”
“I don’t usually give out that information to my clients,” I replied. Then I smiled, and said, “But I’ll make an exception, because I feel I can trust you. My name is Syl.”
“Syl,” he repeated, thoughtfully. “You have the same name as Lord Gelebor’s daughter….”
I turned away and sat on the side of the bed, saying, “It’s…just a coincidence.”
Claude eyed me suspiciously for a moment, then said, “Quite a coincidence, madwoman. Not a very common elven name, I should think. Never heard it before, other than the Duke’s daughter….”
I looked at him over my shoulder and let out a sigh. “If you know so much, then you must know that my father isn’t speaking to me now.”
“So I’ve heard. They say you tried to kill his wife.”
I rolled my eyes and got up, grabbing my clothes to get dressed. “She wasn’t his wife when it happened, and there’s a lot more to the story than what’s been circulated in the gossip circles. That murdering fetcher would have very well deserved to die by my hand.”
“Who did the Lady Alanwen murder? I’ve never heard any of this, milady.”
“She is responsible for my mother’s death; but she has my father under her spell, so he covered up her treachery and swept it under the rug. But I’ll avenge my mother’s death, when the time is right. Alanwen will not get away without punishment.”
“But, I thought that….” He stopped himself, suddenly, clearing his throat with discomfort. Then he got up and came near me, taking my dress, which I was about to slip on, and laying it on the side of the bed. Then he took my face in his hand, looking down at me with caring eyes. “I believe you shall have your vengeance one day, madwoman. But do be careful about it, when it happens, as I should hate to have something happen to such a fine young woman. And I promise, I shall not tell a soul about anything you have said to me, nor about your identity. I shall take it to the grave with me.”
“I believe you speak honestly, Mr. Petrick,” I said, looking into his sincere brown eyes. “A rarity, indeed….”
He smiled. “What am I worth, if not my word?”
“I like you, Mr. Petrick,” I said suddenly. “If you want, I’ll let you have me for the remainder of the night, free of charge. What do you say?”
“Well, I would love that, milady, but…wouldn’t you be losing out on other customers?”
I shrugged. “I have enough for now. One time won’t make any difference to my survival. Do you want me then, or not? The offer won’t last forever.”
He smiled, and replied, “How could I refuse such a generous offer?”
“But, there is one thing,” I said, before letting him undress me again. “You have to promise that you won’t tell anyone about this deal—if word got out, I’d go out of business.”
“I won’t tell a soul,” he replied. “You have my word.”
******
Claude Petrick was a very gentle and passionate lover, and he was more than impressed with me. Though he was in his late forties, and, being human, certainly looked his age, I grew quite fond of him over the next couple of months. He came to Crucible once every two weeks just to see me, though he really couldn’t afford it. Knowing his financial state, I let him have me for very little pay, and it quickly turned into a full-fledged affair. It did cost him, though. He had to lie to his family about why he was going to New Sheoth every other weekend, and that bothered him only because he was an honest man who loved his children.
Claude was fascinated with me—as a woman, as a lover, and as a friend. He said that I made him feel young again, and he found in me something he had not found anywhere else—a sense of freedom and a lack of judgement. He even said that he was in love with me, though he knew that I was not in love with him. But I liked him, and he made me feel good about myself again. We both found something in each other that could benefit us in one way or another, and I would always appreciate what he brought to my life.
I continued to sell myself during the week, while spending my weekends with Claude. We would sometimes just talk for hours, getting to know each other on a deeper level. And while I never fell in love with him, he held no illusions that I ever would, so he was never bothered by it. He just appreciated my acceptance of him, and I was happy to have some form of a relationship with a man for once. It had been awhile since I’d had a man who wanted more from me than just sex. Claude was a good man, and I shall never forget him.
The relationship, good as it was, would have to come to an end eventually, of course. It ended somewhat abruptly, when he simply stopped coming to me, and I never saw him again. I thought of him from time to time, hoping his life was going well, and grateful for the ray of light he had shined into mine. But for all the good my affair with Claude Petrick had brought to my life, the repercussions I would have from it would be a thousand times greater. My punishment for having that affair would devastate and change my life forever, though it was too far ahead for me ever to see it in time to stop it. For, how could I have seen what was to come…?
Hooray, Syl made a friend. Although I have never used prostitution to find friends it seems to work for her The abrupt end to Claude's visits worked well, as does the mysterious ending. I am officially intrigued.
GAAAAH !! Foreshadowing !! Urg !!! Great Chapter !!! And I have to agree, great to see Syl find a friend. Now I am eaten up wondering what the trouble it brings will be and why he stopped coming suddenly !!
Claude Petrick is certainly an interesting character. You portrayed him very well, giving him a great deal of depth, and making it easy to feel sympathy for him. He certainly had a good effect upon Syl! At least for the moment. The ending certainly leaves some ominous threads dangling...
nits:
That murdering [censored]
I suggest a forum-friendly term here, like fetcher.
hazmick: The Claude mystery makes for a really great twist later on in the story. It's my hope that by the time it all makes sense, you will have nearly forgotten about it...
mALX:I just had to give her one nice guy to make the prostitution gig less miserable for her....
SubRosa:Thanks for the tip. It's so hard, becausee while I understand the censoring, it takes away so much freedom of expression... I'll take your advice though. Fetcher is a good lore-friendly word, too.
Chapter 11.1—The Penitent One
When I arrived at the inn one Middas night, Sharag immediately cast me a dirty look, as usual. I merely smiled and set 20 drakes on the counter, which was the price for a room for the night. He begrudgingly set the only available room key on the counter, and then asked, “So, when do I get a piece of you?”
“Not even in your dreams,” I replied, reaching to grab the key with a smirk on my face. But he grabbed my hand and held it down tightly.
“You know,” he said, “you could have your rooms for free every night, if you would just give me some every once in a while.”
I pulled my hand away, along with the key, and gave him another smirk, saying, “I would never profane myself with such filth, for any price.”
Sharag only growled as I walked away, making myself comfortable on a bench near the wall. Sitting in a provocative manner, with my skirts lifted just enough to reveal a hint of my gartered thigh, it didn’t take long for me to snag my first client for the night. I winked at Sharag as I took the man to my room to service him; when the man had satisfied himself, he left and I began to get cleaned up so I could go down to wait for another customer. A few moments later, however, a knock came at the door, and I was surprised to see Sharag standing there when I opened it. He stank of beer and sweat—nothing out of the ordinary—and I had to take a step back from him in order to breathe.
“What do you want?” I asked of him, not even bothering to hide my displeasure.
“I want to have a word with you,” he replied. “Let me come in, or I’ll come in anyway.”
“I’ve not one word to throw at a dog,” I said, my well-known sharp tongue coming to play. But this only angered the beast, and he came into the room, slamming the door shut before coming at me. I didn’t have time to snatch my dagger off the night-stand before he grabbed me by the throat and shoved me back against the wall, prepared to choke the life out of me. I tried to fight him off, but he was much larger than I was, and at least twice as strong. I was no match for him without a weapon.
“You want to call me a dog one more time, you smart-mouthed little tramp?” he asked, beginning to squeeze my throat with just one hand. I began to feel faint, and my whole body tingled, as I felt the life draining from me with the loss of air. But just before I would have blacked out, he released me and I fell to the floor, coughing and gasping for air.
Before I was able to get back up, Sharag grabbed me by the arms and nearly threw me onto the bed. I began kicking and screaming, but then he only became more violent, slapping me and holding me down with much force. “So, you can sell yourself to every man that walks through the door, but you won’t have me for any price?” he asked, holding my wrists above my head. “Fine then—go ahead and keep fighting. That’s how I like it, anyway.” He began to pull up my skirts, and he forced my legs apart. “I’ve had my eye on you for a long time, even before you came waltzing into my tavern with that friend o’ yours. Don’t think I don’t know who you really are, Syl.”
I managed to pull my dagger off the table nearby, having just enough time to thrust it into his side before he could stop me. Letting out a roaring yell, he grabbed the dagger from his side and looked at it, then at me. “You’re a sneaky little witch, ain’t you? No matter. I like a little pain to make it more exciting.” He slapped me across the face very hard, then tossed the dagger to the floor and healed himself with a spell. I was shocked that it hadn’t even fazed him.
As he proceeded to force himself on me, I tried screaming for help, but he covered my mouth with his big, filthy hand. It didn’t last very long, and I was relieved when he left without doing it again. Then I lay on the bed, completely still, and it was only then that I allowed my tears to fall. I tried to get off the bed, but then I collapsed to the floor and began to throw up.
I left Crucible Inn through the back entrance, not wanting to be seen, and I just began running with no destination in mind. I just wanted to get away—as far away from there as possible. I ended up in a deserted alley, where I fell to my knees in the pouring rain. I laid my face in my arms, over an old crate that was there, and wept without holding back. I had never been more humiliated and ashamed in my life, and the feelings of helplessness it left me with was terrifying. I was all alone, with no one to talk to, and I was certain that there was no one who really even cared.
That...was..briliant! So this is where Cutter gets her strange obsession from, you are doing a wonderful job of filling in the backstories of characters that I never really take much notice of (as much as I hate to admit it).
One bad guy down and another memorable...client...for the record.
I also cannot wait for more of the Claude mystery!
hazmick:Thanks! I...don't really know what else to say, to be honest. I love that you're enjoying this. It's very reassuring.
Chapter 11.2—The Penitent One
The events with Sharag more or less put an end to my prostitution, and I knew that it was time to face my father once again. I had long since forgiven him for choosing Alanwen over me, but I wasn’t sure if I was really ready to face him. More than anything, I wasn’t sure if I was ready to accept his marriage to the woman I believed was my mother’s killer. But it bothered me immensely, and I longed to make things right between us again. He was my father, and up until Alanwen came in and destroyed everything, we’d had such a good and strong relationship. I missed what we’d had.
If I went and begged forgiveness, would I be surrendering myself to Alanwen, as well as to my father? Or, had I let her win by staying away for so long? It seemed that either way, Alanwen came out as the winner. But which case was worse? That’s when it hit me, and I decided. Alanwen preferred it the way it had been for the last two years, having my father all to herself, with no one to interfere. If I stayed away, she was winning. But if I returned, with the sincere desire to seek redemption from my father, I had a better chance of finding out a way to pull the rug out from under her, and knocking her down off her pedestal. Yes, I had to go back. I had stayed away for much too long.
The House of Dementia was little changed in the two years since I’d been there. Everything remained as my mother had chosen to decorate, and that came as a relief for me. My father sat in his throne in the main hall, looking much older than I remembered; had he been worrying about me since he had disowned me? Alanwen sat to his right, dressed in the finest gown that money could buy. Hmm, I thought to myself, almost laughing at the irony, we’re dressed to match. We were both wearing dark violet satin.
Lucian Jarol, my father’s loyal steward and most trusted friend, sat to my father’s left, looking bored and exhausted, ready for a nap. When all of them saw me approaching, though, every one of them perked up, and their eyes watched me with a mixture of curiosity and suspicion as I bowed low to my father. Alanwen did not appear to be very pleased that I was there, but I did my best to ignore her, as the mere sight of her was enough to make my blood boil.
“Well, well,” my father said, expressing his surprise. “So, the dissident daughter comes to redeem herself? Or am I mistaken? Speak, madwoman. What brings you to House Dementia?”
“My lord,” I said, bowing yet again to show my humble submission to the man I had revered almost as much as the Madgod himself for most of my life. “I beseech you, Father, for a moment of your time that we may speak in privacy.”
He took a moment to consider my request; then he gave a small nod before rising from his throne to come down to me. Holding out his hand, he watched me closely as I pressed it to my lips. He was looking for any signs which might lead him to believe that I was insincere. Feeling satisfied enough to trust me, he offered his arm.
Alanwen began to rise, intending to follow—she seemed eager to prevent me from speaking to my father alone. But he ordered her to stay, and led me to the private garden, where we could be completely alone—except for the two elite Dark Seducer guards that were always on patrol there.
We walked in silence for awhile, and he wouldn’t even look at me. But he held my arm tightly, his hand over mine, and I knew that he was relieved to finally see me again. He had missed me. I could see that he was holding back. He wanted to speak—to embrace me. But he also wanted to be strong and hold onto his pride. I would have to be the one to begin, though it went against custom. So, I forced myself to stop, and he finally looked at me, wondering why I had. Our eyes met, and he could see that I was truly sorry for having displeased him. That’s when he let go and embraced me, saying, “Oh, Syl, I’ve missed you so. You don’t know how hard it has been to deny you for so long. You are my daughter, my blood—my pride and my joy. But what you did to Alanwen—that was wrong.”
“I know, Ada, and I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have allowed myself to get so carried away.”
“I think it was more than just carried away, Syl—you nearly killed her!”
“But, Ada, she has to be punished for what she did to Mama. She killed her! Murdered her in cold blood—and then you go and marry the woman, giving her everything that drove her to commit that crime in the first place.”
“Syl,” he said with a sigh, “Alanwen had nothing to do with your mother’s death. I’ve told you that time and time again. It was…an accident.”
“An accident?” I scoffed. “How was it an accident? Mama died from drinking poisoned wine, on my tenth birthday for Madgod’s sake! There was no accident. If you know why she is dead—if Alanwen truly had nothing to do with it—then why won’t you tell me what happened? My whole world came crashing down that day, Ada. It hasn’t been the same ever since. Alanwen took my mother away from me that day, and then two years ago she took you away from me, too.”
When I had said my piece, my father sighed and reached for my cheek, touching me softly. I closed my eyes just long enough to flush away the tears that had begun to build. “You have grown to look so much like her, Syl,” he said, in a gentle voice. “There’s no trace left of that innocent and naïve little girl I raised, is there?”
“No, Ada. I’m not a little girl anymore.”
He sighed again and closed his eyes. Taking a deep breath and letting it out slowly, he took my hand, pressing it to his lips. “Perhaps you are ready, then, to know the truth. Come. I must show you something.”
He laced my arm through his and took me to his quarters. Once there, he loosened a brick in the wall to reveal a small cavity I had never known was there; a clever place to hide precious treasures and deadly secrets, which I have often used, myself. He pulled out a small wooden box, using a tiny key which he wore on a leather cord around his neck to unlock it. He seemed hesitant as he searched through the contents to locate a worn, faded note. Handing it to me, he let out a sigh, and said, “This holds the truth about your mother’s death. You…may want to sit when you read it. Here….”
He pulled out a chair for me, which I hesitated to seat myself in. I was afraid of what I would find in that note, though I was eager to know what really happened to my mother. My father seemed reluctant, but he knew that he couldn’t keep the truth from me any longer, as it was tearing our family apart. Sometimes I wished he hadn’t told me, for it was more difficult to bear. Just as the lies had torn us apart, the truth would tear my soul into shreds, and I thought I could never come to terms with what had happened on that terrible, devastating day when I was only ten years old.
Once I was seated, I carefully unfolded the parchment and began to read what appeared to be a note written in my mother’s hand.
“My husband, my child, I am sorry that I must leave you like this. But I cannot bear to live any longer. It may seem hard and painful for you both, but I know that you will be better off without me. My little Syl, forgive me for choosing this wondrous day of you birth as the day of my death. It was never my intention, but I cannot continue to be strong, even for you. Perhaps one day you will understand, and perhaps you will be able to find it in your heart to forgive me. I can only hope it will be so. Please know that even now, I love you both more than words can say, and I do this for you as well as for me. I’m sorry. Madgod, forgive me for what I am about to do…. Adrial.”
It hit me like a ton of bricks, and I couldn’t take it in all at once. I dropped the note, and my father bent down to retrieve it, and to offer me comfort. I began shaking my head, quietly saying, “No. No, it…it cannot be true.”
“Syl,” my father said, reaching to put his arms around me. But I pushed him away and rose from my chair.
“No, I won’t believe it!” I cried, as the first tears began to sting at my eyes. I tried to run, but he held me tight and wouldn’t let me go, even when I tried to pull away, saying, “No….”
I started to go weak at the knees, and he knelt on the floor with me, still continuing to hold me, and saying, “I know it’s hard to believe, Syl, but it’s true. Madgod, I wish that it wasn’t. I’m sorry. I wish I had foreseen it, so that I could have stopped it—but there was nothing I could do. Nothing any of us could do….”
“How could she?” I cried, feeling anger toward my mother for the very first time. “How could she leave me like that? How could she betray me? I thought she loved me…. I…thought she cared!”
“Syl, your mother was a very confused woman. She was depressed, and lonely, and what she did was selfish. But she did love you. She just…didn’t want to live anymore, and I don’t know why.”
“You did this!” I cried suddenly, getting up and pointing at him with an accusing finger. “You are the one who beat her! You are the one who had affairs all the time! You drove her to take her own life! It’s your fault!”
He got up slowly and nodded his head in agreement, much to my surprise. “Yes,” he said, sighing with apparent remorse. “I did. I did drive her there, Syl, you’re right. And I live with that guilt every day of my life. Don’t you think I would give anything to bring your mother back? To make it so that she hadn’t done what she did? Or, at least to make it so that she would have done it on some day other than your birthday, so that you could have a birthday every year without the shadow of that tragedy hovering over you like a thief in the night. I know that I was wrong to treat your mother as I did, and I have served penance for it every day since. But I was not the one to slip the poison into her cup that day, Syl. She did that herself.”
He stopped then and took a deep breath. Then he continued, “I wish to Sheogorath I could give your mother back to you, Syl. But all I can offer you is your father. I am still here for you, and I pray that you have come back to me for good this time. I would hate to see you leave again, knowing that you might never return. I have been worried sick ever since that day I cast you out onto the streets.”
I stood there a moment; then all at once I ran to him, into his arms, crying bittersweet tears at our reunion. I forgave my father for everything that day, and he also forgave me.
Though it was hard, I apologized to Alanwen. She didn’t seem all that thrilled with my apology, but she accepted it with a stiff nod and excused herself. My father seemed uncomfortable, but he told me she was just not feeling well that day. I didn’t believe it, but I was not about to argue. I was sure that she was jealous and disappointed that I was being accepted back into the court, and back into my father’s life. I couldn’t see any other reason for her attitude.
My father practically begged me to come back home, to live in the palace again. He promised to give me all the luxury and comfort that I had been accustomed to before. The only thing he wanted was for me to promise him my loyalty and obedience, which meant living under his law. I didn’t want to be out on the streets again, so I readily agreed to his terms.
Poor Syl! One cannot help but to feel sorry for her, even knowing what she will turn out to be. She has really hit her lowest spot I think, after being raped by the innkeeper. That was one tough orc! I liked the fact that he was not even fazed by being stabbed. It really brought home what a beast he is.
Her revenge with Cutter was sweet. It was certainly never so well deserved. Here we do see one of the steps Syl has taken to her ultimate fate as Duchess. After this, I expect she will discover that she has a taste for indulging in vengeance. She certainly has plenty of targets in her father's palace...
So a suicide note from Syl's mother. I wonder who wrote it though, her mother, or Alanwen? or perhaps Syl's father? There is one way for her to find out. If she goes to the Hill of Suicides and finds her mother there, she will know.
Finally, a wonderful cat fight and hissy fit by Syl after her return to the palace. I loved the fact that she threw her own father's behavior in his face like she did. I still cannot wait until she kills both him and Alanwen.
nits:
After the initial shock wore off, he smiled slowly. “I knew you’d come around eventually.
Once you’ve had orc, you never go back!” He kicked his leg as he laughed, and I struggled to hide my disgust as I watched him. But then he stopped, and pointed down the counter at his brother, saying, “I’ll just leave Borzol in charge again. Hey, Borzol! Take over for a few. I’ve got some…business to handle.”
It looks like the forum threw in a manual line break after eventually.
SubRosa: Poor Syl, indeed! But you're right--knowing she will one day rise to be the most powerful woman in Dementia does make it easier to go through this very painful stage in young Syl's life with her. But it is times like these that helped condition her for her role as the paranoid duchess--after all, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger...or insane...right?
Also--I finally got around to fixing the head-hopping in Chapter 8. I hope it turns out better, anyway. Again, thank you for pointing it out to me. The nits you and Acadian have been good about pointing out have been so much appreciated, because it helps me to improve on my writing and be more aware of how I put the scenes together. Thank you.
Chapter 12—Too Early Seen Unknown…
“She actually called you a harlot?” Muurine asked in surprise, as she poured our tea one afternoon, a couple days later, when I had gone to her house to visit.
“Well, she said that I looked like one,” I answered, “but it’s all a matter of word-play. To say that I look like one is the same as calling me one.”
“And your father took her side?” she asked, taking her seat. When I nodded, she shook her head and sighed, saying, “’Tis a shame, I think, that your father would allow his wife to say such things. But he allows her to do almost anything she wants, as far as I’ve seen. She gets away with a lot more than your mother ever did, that’s for certain.”
As she took her first sip of tea, I thought about what she had just said, realizing it was true. My mother had gotten beaten for just about anything and everything, but Alanwen was walking around there with her head held high, acting like an exalted queen.
“You know, Muurine,” I said suddenly, “you’re right.”
“Of course I’m right,” she said simply.
But I went on, saying, “There has to be more to it than what meets the eye. She is up to something…. Even if she didn’t murder my mother to take her place, Alanwen is not a complete innocent. It must be sorcery. She must have him under a spell of some sort, to get away with everything so easily. It is possible, isn’t it? There are spells which can do that aren’t there?”
“Well, yes,” she replied thoughtfully. “Many a clever witch has used spells from the school of Illusion to trick men into loving them, but…Syl, I’m not sure that that is what is going on. To be perfectly honest, I don’t think Alanwen has enough knowledge of spell-casting to charm your father so successfully. No offence, but as poor a spell-caster as you are, I think that Alanwen knows even less about the arcane arts than you do. I don’t think she’s even capable.”
“But I’ve seen her make potions and poisons—she’s a very skilled alchemist.”
“Yes, but alchemy and spell-casting are really two completely different types of arcane knowledge. You should know that. Even the most ignorant mage can learn alchemy, if he has a mind to—but it takes real talent and passion for someone to master spell-casting.”
“Yes, you’re a rarity, indeed,” I said, to which she smiled and shrugged her shoulder.
“I may be one of the most skilled sorcerers in Dementia, but I am not the best.”
“I never said you were,” I replied, in a tease.
“Gee, thanks,” she responded. “Aren’t you a flatterer?” We both paused to drink some of our tea, and then she let out a sigh. “Alanwen is not such a bad woman, Syl,” she said, much to my surprise. “I think you judge her too harshly. I don’t why you insist on hating her so.”
“Since when did you become her biggest fan?”
“I didn’t say I adore her, Syl. I’m just saying she isn’t as awful as you like to think. She’s certainly no saint—I’m not excusing all of the things she has said and done. But I don’t hate Alanwen, and I’ve actually found her to be a fairly decent woman. I’ve just never expressed this to you, because you are always going on about how much you hate her.”
“I do hate her, and I always will. She may not have literally been responsible for my mother’s death, Muurine, but Alanwen played a part in it as much as my father did. If my father had been faithful, and if Alanwen had not come in and interfered, my mother would still be here. It wasn’t until after Alanwen came into the picture that my mother started slipping away. And I will always hold her partially accountable for my mother’s death, even if it was a suicide.”
We both became quiet after that, as there was really nothing more we could say. And after having spoken so openly about my mother again, I felt a renewed pain and even a sense of guilt. Would I have been able to do anything to stop it? Could I have said something, done something, to have convinced my mother not to take her own life, if I had known that it was coming? Had I not been a good enough daughter to make my mother want to stay?
“I’m sorry,” I said suddenly, rising from my chair. “I have to go.”
“Syl,” said Muurine, standing up to stop me. “Please, don’t go. I didn’t mean to upset you--.”
“It’s not you, Muurine,” I assured her. “I…just need some time to think. We can talk some more later. Tonight at the party, perhaps.”
“All right then,” she said, nodding in agreement even though she was still troubled by my sudden change in mood, “tonight. I’ll see you then.”
We embraced briefly, and then I hurried out, trying to suppress the feelings of immense pain and guilt that were brought out by my memories of the past. No matter what the truth was, my mother’s death had always haunted me, and it always would. Nothing could ever erase the pain of losing my mother so abruptly and at such a time as I did. It certainly didn’t help that I had been the one to find her like that. I shall never forget that awful sight; it haunts my dreams even to this day….
Over the past couple months, I've been going back over part one and editing it, to fill it out more and make it even more entertaining and interesting. The first chapter was, by far, my weakest chapter. As SubRosa and Destri Melarg both pointed out, I was doing too much "telling" and not enough "showing." I went back over it then to try to fix it, but it has continued to remain my least favorite chapter, and I knew I could do better--I just wasn't sure how to correct the "second introduction" feeling of Chapter 1.
Finally, a couple weeks ago, I decided that the only way to fix Chapter 1 for the best would be to start over from the beginning and completely rewrite Chapter 1, keeping a few things from the original, but otherwise writing all new material. After doing that, the original Chapter 1 became way too long, though, so now it has been split into two chapters. If everyone here doesn't mind, I would like to start posting the re-written Chapter 1 and the new Chapter 2. Please let me know what you think.
And one last thing--again, I want to thank all of you for reading and offering advice and support. And a special thanks to both Destri and SubRosa, for their advice about Chapter 1--I always remembered what both of you said, and it helped to keep me working on that chapter.
Chapter 1.1--Born in the Realm of Madness
It had rained all morning, but that was no surprise. It rained most days in Dementia, and there was almost always constant cloud cover. The sunshine, then, was a rare gift which I treasured as a young child. Sneaking out of my chambers was too easy in the afternoons, when my governess lay down for a nap, expecting me to do the same. All I needed to do was lie in my bed and feign slumber until I was certain she was no longer conscious. Then I opened my eyes and, with a smile, crept out into the vast palace corridors, eagerly taking the opportunity to slip away in search of adventure.
I was in my sixth year, curious and full of mischief, as are most elves at such a tender age. There wasn’t much to do in the House of Dementia, and even at that age, my father insisted that most of my time be taken up with studying. So, naturally, I found great joy in escaping from my rather tedious and boring duties to use my natural ability to sneak through the shadowed corridors of the palace unseen.
My father’s private garden was only a short distance from my bedchamber, and none of the courtiers were allowed to walk there without my father’s permission, so I could have it almost entirely to myself. Only the royal guards were there at that time of day, while my father was holding court, and with my tiny frame it was easy to go unnoticed by the towering Mazken.
It was always a relief to get out of the lifeless and confining walls of the inner palace and smell the damp, musty air that was always left behind after the rain stopped. The grass and moss were so much softer beneath my feet than the cold, hard stone that was tempered only by a rug here and there. Why anyone would want to live indoors all the time, I couldn’t understand at that age. Being outside, among the trees and the birds and the wide open sky was so much better than being inside, with a roof over my head day and night.
The pale aquamarine glow of the withering moon plants always amazed me, and after hiding myself safely within the bushes and trees, I admired the way the light reflected off the rocks and leaves. But then I continued on, carefully climbing into the weeping willow tree that graced the garden with its sorrowful beauty. I enjoyed sneaking around in the garden, with my father’s guards completely unaware of my presence—I felt courageous and cunning when I was able to fool the hawk-eyed female warriors known as the Dark Seducers.
With a smile on my lips, I climbed across until I was near the door that led to my father’s private quarters, and then I waited for the patrolling guards to be out of sight before I jumped down and started for the door. But then I stopped dead in my tracks, when I heard, “Halt! You are trespassing in the Duke of Dementia’s private garden!”
Letting out a sigh of disappointment, I slowly turned around to face my captor, fearing reprimand. But when I looked upon her face, I felt immense relief. It was Jansa, the friendlier of the two Dark Seducers that patrolled in the garden. Jansa could easily have squashed me, a tiny little wood elf against a towering Mazken, but instead she smiled.
“You need to work on your sneaking, young mistress,” she said, looking down at me. “Perhaps next time you will be more successful at remaining undetected.”
“How did you see me this time, Jansa? I was wearing green.”
“The green of the trees is a different tone than the green of your dress,” she responded in a simple, matter-of-fact way. “But you did better this time than the last. There has been notable improvement.”
“Next time, I will make it all the way to the door before you catch me,” I said, as she began leading me toward the exit.
“I’m sure you will. But for now you must return to your quarters as the Duke commands, so I can return to my duties.”
“Aww,” I whined, as she opened the door that led back into the corridor from whence I came. But before she could usher me out, I heard the deep, stern voice of my father from behind us.
“Is that my Syl Aranel sneaking around in my garden?” he asked. When I whirled around to see his smiling face and dark but loving eyes, I was elated. He held his arms out to me and I ran to him, giggling as he lifted me up onto his shoulders to take me back into the grassy area. “What are you doing out of your quarters, young lady? Am I mistaken, or are you not supposed to be taking a nap with your governess?”
“I didn’t want to sleep, Ada! There’s too much to do and I wasn’t tired!”
I always called my father ‘Ada’, which is the endearing form of the elven word for father, ‘Adar’. Though most elves in the Realm of Madness were no longer in touch with their native elven tongue, in my family we spoke both Tamriellic and the Bosmeri dialect of the elven language. And so, my father often called me his ‘Syl Aranel’, which means ‘faerie princess’.
“My little Syl, not tired?” he asked, feigning shock. “And I imagine you were not interested in practicing your penmanship, either?”
“No, Ada,” I said with a laugh as he lifted me off his shoulders and set me back on the ground, tickling my waist in the process. Then I explained, “I wanted to play outside today! The sun is out!”
He paused to look up through the open roof, squinting his eyes, and said, “Ah, so it is.”
“Ada, why are you always so busy? I wish you and Mama could play with me all day long!”
With a sigh, my father knelt down before me to look me directly in the face and offered a weary smile. “I know it is hard being away from us so often, Syl, but I am the Duke of Dementia. It is my duty to look after the people’s needs. And your mother, as my consort, must be at my side while I am holding court.”
“Where is Mama? Why isn’t she here with you?”
“She is taking tea with Lady Jarol, my steward’s wife,” he replied. “But I am certain that as soon as she is finished, she will want to spend time with you.”
“Can we play outside?” I asked.
“Well, I would imagine that if you ask your mother, she will gladly play outside with you,” he said. But then we were interrupted when my father’s steward, a nobleman of Imperial ancestry, approached with a message for my father.
“My Lord,” said the steward with a bow, “forgive me for interrupting.”
“’Tis no matter, Lucian,” my father replied. “I trust you have good reason for coming to me now, when I have just begun taking my break from holding court?”
“Indeed, I have news that I believe will be most pleasing to Your Lordship, concerning the insurrection.”
“Is that so?” my father asked. Then he turned to me, and said, “Syl, I have some very important business to which I must attend. You may stay here and play for a little while under the supervision of my Seducers, but then you must return to your studies until you mother comes to see you.”
“Yes, Ada,” I replied, hanging my head in disappointment. Then I watched him and Lord Jarol walk away together, exiting through the side door, which is the same one through which I had entered. My father rarely left that way, which struck me as somewhat odd. But very quickly I forgot about it, and instead I began playing.
Jansa and the other guard continued their patrols, and while I avoided the other one, I decided it would be fun to follow closely behind Jansa as she made her rounds. She very quickly noticed me walking behind her and mimicking her movements, but she pretended not to notice me at first, allowing me to have my fun. I could tell she was watching me, though, out of the corner of her eye, and I thought it was all very amusing.
When she did finally stop, she looked down at me, and asked, “Are you trying to be Mazken, child?”
“What’s Mazken, Jansa?”
“It is my kind,” she replied. “Just as you are Bosmer, I am Mazken.”
“But I thought you were Dark Seducers?”
Jansa chuckled, and patiently said, “We are Mazken, but our rivals the Aureals gave us the name Dark Seducer. That is why many refer to us as such, but that is not what we call ourselves.”
“The Aureals?”
“The Aureals are the Golden Saints,” she replied. “They are the ones who serve Mania, just as we Mazken serve Dementia.”
“Oh,” I said thoughtfully. “So…it’s just like how I am a Bosmer in the elven language, but in Tamriellic I am called a wood elf?”
“That is correct,” Jansa replied with a nod. “You have a remarkably quick mind, for a mortal child. An admirable quality.”
She was about to continue her patrols, when I began following her again, and said, “I like you, Jansa. When I grow up, I want to be just like you.”
“But you are not Mazken,” she replied. Then she stopped, seeming to rethink her response, and said, “You can try, if you’d like. But I must continue my rounds. Please stay out of trouble, young mistress.”
She began walking again, and I still continued to follow, this time examining her curiously. After we had rounded the corner, I suddenly asked, “Why is your skin purple?”
Jansa smiled slightly, and responded, “Why is your skin peach?”
I had never really thought about it before, and I looked down at the skin on my hands. After pondering the subject for awhile, I finally lost interest, finding it to be of little importance, and I decided to ask her a different question. “What is that?”
She stopped and looked down in the direction I was pointing, and then she said, “This is a mace. It is a weapon that I keep to protect myself and defend your father, the Duke.”
“What does it do?”
“It does what I make it do,” she replied simply. “If I want it to break a man’s bones, then that’s what I will make it do.”
I stopped and gasped, asking, “Why would you want to break someone’s bones?”
“To keep them from killing the Duke.”
“You mean Ada!?”
“Yes.”
“Why would someone want to kill Ada!?” I asked in horror.
“I wouldn’t know. I am not able to discern what is in their minds when they decide to turn against the Duke.”
“What is…discern?”
“You ask too many questions,” she said finally. I could tell she was slightly annoyed, though I think she was trying to be patient with me. “Shouldn’t you be returning to your chambers now? You ought to obey the Duke.”
“He said I could play for a little while.”
“And a little while has now passed,” she replied. “I think it is time for you to go back inside the palace and return to your studies, as your father commanded, young mistress.”
I sighed in disappointment, but I could tell she was losing her patience, so I decided to obey. Without saying a word, I turned around and headed back—the long way—to return to my quarters.
Once inside the palace, I began walking the short distance back to my chamber, when I suddenly became distracted again. It was my keen sense of hearing which alerted me to the agonizing cries rising up from the dungeon—a grim and forbidding place which, up until that day, I had never seen. Alarmed but ever-curious, I could not resist sneaking down to the lower part of the palace, ducking in the shadows when I heard one of the Dark Seducers on patrol nearby. When she had passed, I continued down the stairs with caution, and peered through the partially open door of my father’s torture chamber.
Seeing the man in chains, screaming and crying and begging for mercy as my father did unspeakable things to him, I gasped quietly and stood there to continue watching, riveted by the horrifying scene. Never had I seen so much blood… Never had I witnessed such a cruel fate as that man’s… And never had I known that my beloved Ada was capable of doing such terrible things.
It was only when I felt someone grab my tiny shoulder and pull at me that I finally managed to turn away from that scene. I let out a terrified scream, but was hushed quickly by Muurine, my Altmer governess.
“Shh…Hush, child,” she whispered. “You are not supposed to be here. Come—return to your chamber at once.”
Muurine towered over me, being high elf, and when I was a girl she had long dark hair that was almost black. She was beautiful and somewhat mysterious, but she treated me very warmly most of the time, and she was unbelievably patient with me though I was a difficult child to raise.
I was in tears when we returned to my chamber, asking, “Muurine, why was Ada hurting that poor man?”
“That ‘poor man’ is one of your father’s enemies, Syl. If your father wasn’t hurting him, he would have hurt your father. But that is the end of the discussion. You were supposed to be napping, not sneaking around in the corridors—do you have any idea how dangerous it can be for you to be wandering around without a chaperone, Syl? You must not disobey your father’s orders—he has legitimate reasons for making the rules as he does, and rules are meant to be followed. Now, to your studies….”
Though I continued to protest, Muurine brought me to the writing desk and made me sit down, where I had to spend the next half hour practicing my penmanship, and trying to forget the awful scene I had just witnessed.
My father was a subject of great confusion for me growing up. He was the most powerful mortal in the Isles, aside from his counterpart, the Duke of Mania, and most of the people in Dementia feared him. Though I had often seen my father’s dark side as a child, with me he was kind and loving, only hard when he needed to be, and never cruel. I adored my father—he was my hero; so, it may come as a surprise to some that I ever became Duchess of Dementia at all—for, the way to the throne was not my birthright, nor my heritage. It was a position given to those who had earned the Madgod’s favor, and anyone was eligible to take control of one of the ruling Houses. How I came to sit on the throne I’ll not go into now, but I will say this much—I did not inherit the throne from my father, as that never happens in Dementia. There is a lot more involved than that, and it is always very bloody.
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