@mALX- Several have tumbled to the identity of “the assassin.” His role will become more clear- but not for some time.
@Black Hand- There will probably be more cliff-racer endings… And I do not think ANYTHING will ever equal that screenie of the Imperfect… Just saying.
@McBadgere- My thanks. The Interludes are as much to boggle as to inform- I must admit.
@Olen- My thanks about the way this works for the forum. Serial novel-writing is rather fun for that reason. The reason for the journal entry will become more clear with the first post of the new chapter. And yes- you correctly deduce the identity of “the assassin.”
@minque- Appears a more direct “intervention” is about to take place. But- with Seth and Trey- who knows? And especially with Athynae and myself doing the writing.
Where we are- Athynae and Athlain are together once more, and she has been cured of lycanthropy. The identity of the figure in Athlain’s dreams and of Athynae’s tormentor has also been revealed- Hircine, Daedric Prince of the Hunt. But even so, their path is far from clear.
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Chapter 16
The trek to the cottage from the cave was not a great distance, but by the time we arrived I was exhausted. It just made me realize the toll the lycanthropy and the healing had taken. The cottage looked the same as it had last I saw it, like a picture, perfect for a novice artist to attempt to catch the serenity and never quite succeed.
Athlain stepped onto the porch and opened the door and I was not far behind. I stepped in to the exact room I had left. Everything was just as it had been, every bowl, utensil and bottle where they belonged. Just inside the door my pack and the rest of my gear was leaning against the wall. The katana’s sheath was where I had tossed it when I departed to save the world… never mind.
I scanned the room again. Something- something just wasn’t exactly as I had left it or someone had been here. The hair on the back of my neck raised and every muscle tensed. Everything looked the same. I closed my eyes to enhance my other senses….
“What is it ‘Thyna?” Athlain had turned- I could tell by his voice that he was walking toward me.
I put up my hand to stop him “Sshh, just be still, be quiet.”
He stopped and I went back to my intense meditation to no avail. Still I couldn’t help but feel something was off, not quite perfect. “Do you feel anything different?” I asked Athlain finally.
“Like what?” And I couldn’t tell if his look was one of concern, or fear that I had lost my mind.
“It just, I don’t know, feels different. Everything appears to be the way I left it, but something is making the hair on the back of my neck stand on end.” When I said that his expression eased a bit; he didn’t often question my instincts and this was obviously purely instinct because there was nothing out of place that should have set it off.
“Come on, sit down; maybe you are just over-tired.” Athlain pulled out one of the chairs at the small table where I had prepared potions for him what seemed like an age ago. I walked to the chair and sat, still on edge. Maybe he was right; maybe I was just too tired.
He started placing kindling in the fireplace. “What are you doing? We aren’t going to be here long enough for that. We don’t have time, remember? If it weren’t for my other weapons and the rest of my armor still being here, I would probably have come by myself to get the journals.” I raised an eyebrow in accusation because he had briefly resisted coming the cabin until I reminded him that everything I needed still here, except my katana.
“I don’t want to argue Thyna, not now. We are here and you need to be warm, regardless of where we are. One night isn’t going to make any difference now, one way or the other. A good night’s rest and you will be much better to travel tomorrow.”
I really didn’t like that commander voice; no I did not. But I didn’t want to argue either. Truth was I did really want to be warm, it seemed even my bones were cold, and the thought of sleeping on a bed, even the one in this cottage, that was almost flat, was a welcome reprieve from a cold stone and dirt floor with only a pallet. And blankets, I would never take a blanket for granted again, or a fireplace, or …I let the thought go; I didn’t want to delve that deep just yet. I knew it was there, waiting, and I would visit it and hold it close- just not right now. I wanted to be where I could truly savor all that held new meaning, after what had happened, a whole new understanding and appreciation.
“Thank you.” My lame response came after an indeterminate delay, but it was a response, and wasn’t argumentative or sarcastic or any of those other horrid attributes I seemed to be so skilled at using.
“I’ll fix us something to eat and you can rest. We will leave at first light, which will put us where we need to be by late tomorrow afternoon at the latest.”
“Please stop coddling me, Athlain. You would not make a good mother. I am not arguing so just leave it where it is.” He turned from his task with a quick nod and that not quite a grin that said
‘Very well.’I continued to scan the room until my eyes focused on my pack. My eyes locked on the strap that tied to keep it closed.
Oh no! I started toward the pack, filled with dread. When I crouched in front of the canvas bag and put my hand under the tie to examine it more closely I heard Athlain.
“Thyna, why did you leave a note?” There was a bit of humor to the question.
“I didn’t.” I tossed the words over my shoulder as I pulled the string that would release the tie.
Suddenly the scene in my mind changed and I was sitting in Uncle Seth’s lap and he was showing me how to tie my pouch so I wouldn’t lose what I put in it.
“Tie it like this, both strings together, make a loop then pull the loop through itself. Then if you need to open whatever is tied it is as quick as pulling the free strings.” I swallowed, knowing what I was going to find as I opened my pack.
“Um Thyna, the note is sealed with….”
I cut him off “Red wax.”
“Yes, how did you know?”
“It’s from Uncle Seth.” I reached into the pack and proved my theory; the journals were gone.
Breath; it’s ok;Seth has them. I turned to face him and said matter-of-factly “The tie on my pack wasn’t mine, it was Seth’s.”
Athlain was staring at me like he had been hit in the head with a hammer but forgot to fall. I never did understand why Athlain was so afraid of Uncle Seth. I mean sure he was kind of eerie I guess, appearing almost out of nowhere, but even after reading his journals and knowing what he had done and who he was, something I didn’t think Athlain knew nor did he need to, I understood the heart of the mer. I felt like I did, anyway. He wouldn’t hurt those he counted as family and somewhere I knew Athlain was covered under that blanket.
“He was here?” Athlain drew the words out as if they were a death sentence, sitting hard in the chair.
I walked to the table and held out my hand for the note. “Good grief.” I added, “Breathe Athlain; you are going to pass out,” as I released the wax holding the note closed.
I stared at it for a moment, laughing at the irony, mad as a wounded rat that he had been here and didn’t … stay. Sadly, I realized how much I really wanted to see him, felt somehow like I needed to.
You need to rest, you look tired. I have the journals. I will return them to where they belong, unless you want to find me and get them. But Athynae, you need to talk to your mother! And it was simply signed “
S”.
Like I could find him, right. If Uncle Seth did not want to be found, he could hide in an open field.
“He was here,” Athlain repeated, this time looking “green around the gills,” as the ship captain had put it.
“No, he sent his trained pet to retrieve the journals and leave me a note.” I shook my head; he could be so dim sometimes.
“What did he mean by ‘you look tired’?” His eyes opened wide as he questioned me.
“Obviously he saw us, but didn’t see fit to hang around for another 25 breaths to say hello.” Now I was just mad. He was going to get as much as he gave when he scolded me about taking the journals. I would take the scolding; I deserved it, but so would HE!
“He
saw us? And he didn’t shoot me with a poisoned dart?” Athlain slipped deep into his own thoughts for a moment, looking like a scared animal trapped between a fire and a sword. “Thyna what would he do if something happened to you while you were here with me?” His voice was almost shaking.
“What? What do you mean?” If he didn’t look so frightened I would have laughed, but something told me now was not the time.
“What would he do? He would surely feel the need to take it out on someone. What would he do to me?”
“Feed you to the slaughterfish, of course. Really Athlain, this is getting ridiculous. Why would he feel the need to do anything? One, he isn’t my father, and two, he isn’t really even an uncle.” Saying that lit a torch somewhere in my head, but I didn’t pause to think about it. “He’s just been a friend of Mother and Father since before, well you know. Besides he is NOT that bad. You act like he is death’s messenger.”
“That’s how he always made me feel.” I swear he shivered.
“He isn’t a soft, warm kitten.”
But he had held me and dried more than a few tears, “but he has a heart, Athlain, and he cares about the people he considers family.”
“Well that makes me feel so much better. Really, I mean he’s spent so much time with me. Training me how to use a sword, how to shoot a bow. Oh wait- that wasn’t me- it was
you. He didn’t train me to use those because
I couldn’t use them!” What was that tone? He’d never acted jealous before so I didn’t think that was it. Maybe it was just because I
really didn’t understand why he felt the way he did about Uncle Seth; I never had.
“But he has never hurt you, or even threatened you. He even gave you a dagger, did he not?” I asked in hopes that it would emphasize the point.
“He gave me a dagger, looking all dark and sinister, along with that threat you think he never made.” He said, in that voice from long ago that said ‘
Please stop picking on me.’It didn’t work back then and it wasn’t going to work now. “A threat, really? What did he say, Athlain? ‘Hold on to this so you’ll have it when I come to slit your throat?’ ” I knew it was going to be something that he had misconstrued- I just couldn’t imagine what it might be.
“Those journals were in my Father’s study; do you think I never sneaked a look at them? I know some of the things he’s done.” I wondered which “things” he was talking about, but knowing that he had read some of it was probably enough to stoke the flame of his unreasonable fear.
“What did he say?” I was getting frustrated with this nonsense; it was like that girl that came two summers ago with her parents to visit Mother. She was older than me and she was petrified of Cook. It was beyond explanation. Cook was tiny, not old and not young; she had been our cook since long before I was born and to my knowledge had never hurt anyone. Mother called it a phobia, just something she couldn’t control. I guess that meant Athain had Sethophobia, and I wondered if it was curable.
“He handed me the blade and he said, ‘Keep it with you always. When the time comes to use it- you will know.’ "
“What do you think he meant by that, Athlain? Use it to kill yourself? He gave it to you to keep you
safe! He said the same thing to me when he gave me my dagger. How can you use it when the time comes if you don’t have it with you?”
“You didn’t see his eyes, Thyna. They screamed at me
’or else’!”
“I have seen him in some pretty dark moods, being the one that caused it more often than not, and he didn’t grind me up and feed me to the racers.”
Athlain reached behind his neck as if to rub the tension, but as he brought it from behind his head he had the dagger in his hand. He laid it on the table. I had never seen it before that I could remember, but I would have known it was Uncle Seth’s if I’d found it at the bottom of the lake. The dagger he had given me, I knew, he had had made himself. It fit my hand like my leather gloves, even accommodating my pinky that was just a tad crooked because I had broken it when I was 4 or 5 and tried to heal it myself because I didn’t want Mother to know what I had been doing when it happened. The dagger that lay on the table was black; not just the hilt, which was hand-wrapped black leather, but the blade as well. I reached down and pulled my own dagger from my boot and laid it on the table. Side by side the two blades looked like the absolute opposite of one another. His seemed to suck the light from the air; it was almost invisible on the table, where mine was like a mirror, a beacon sending beams of light from the facets in the blade as well as the carvings and stones of the hilt. Athlain’s was a bit smaller than mine, the blade not quite as thick, but just as wide; his had a slight curve, mine did not; his looked sinister where mine looked almost like jewelry. I was not fooled by appearances though; I had no doubt that one was just as deadly as the other.
“Athlain he made this dagger with his own hands.”
How did I know that? “Do you think he would give it to just anyone?”
He still didn’t look convinced, but I do think he eased a bit. Looking somewhere beyond me he said, “It never needs sharpening. I have used a whetstone on it but only out of habit. I have used it to cut bone when I killed a deer for food and it sliced through it as if it were butter on the table.” He was far away, thinking about Azura only knew what.
“I don’t know what either of them is made of, but I have never seen one that glistens as mine does or absorbs the light as yours. Mine is the same though; ever sharp, and if yours is like mine in all ways except appearance, then it is perfectly balanced as well.”
“Huh? Oh, right, probably. Do you think he’s angry at us for taking the journals?” Athlain propped his head on his hand.
“Us? Which us are you referring to? Me and the mouse I carry in my pocket? Last memory I had of the events,
I was the one who took the journals and you were half a world away at the time.”
“But you were coming to me.” He picked up his dagger and returned it to its hidden sleeve. I really was so proud of him, how far he had come since…and now I find out that he is even thinking, planning enough that he has his dagger behind his head in a sheath on his back that could not be seen; yes, he had come a long way. But I still liked mine in my boot; even though it’s where everyone put a dagger. I could drop, grab the dagger, roll and throw faster than most people could draw a sword.
“If he is
mad it will be at me and me alone. It isn’t a day at the market, being on the receiving end of one of his tirades, but I have been there before and I am quite sure I will be there again. Although his bite is far worse than his bark, only someone truly deserving of it gets to know exactly how much worse.”
The sun was setting, so the cottage was getting dark. Athlain lit the lantern and a small candle on the table and picked up the bucket that had found a home under the bed when I threw it in to grab my weapon. “I won’t be long; I’m just going to fill ‘er up so you’ll have water for tea in the morning.” And he stepped out the door, looking around before he closed it.
I returned my dagger to my boot, glad to have it back where it belonged. I walked over to the small bed, more a cot really, but still a welcome relief. I sat on the edge and removed my boots and the rest of my armor, down to the clothing underneath. I pulled back the blankets and crawled in, folding my arms behind my head.
I stared at the ceiling, watching the shadows cast by the fire. I didn’t understand why Uncle Seth didn’t wait, he saw us and still…I pulled the note from my sleeve where I had put it and read it again.
“
You need to talk to your mother,” jumped off the page and down my throat, or that’s what it felt like- a huge ball of parchment stuck like it was glued. So, he’d seen mother; he knew that I had requested sanctuary at Indarys and then found out it was
all because mother and Aunt Baria thought they needed to save Athlain and me. He probably knew she’d left her journals too. The thoughts at that point started running over each other in an attempt to figure out what would cause him to come all the way to Solstheim, just to retrieve his and Mother’s journals. Had he seen Uncle Trey? That’s the only way he could’ve known I had them. He probably saw the note I had left:
“Uncle Trey,
I borrowed a few books. I hope you don’t mind. I will take good care of them- I promise.
Love,
Thyna”But that held no clues that I could glean. And he obviously knew I had come back to Solstheim after our supposed “conversation” had gone nowhere. At least I had sent her a note. Obviously I hadn’t been disowned; she had helped as much as she could while I was quarantined. That still didn’t explain why he hadn’t waited or why he took Mother’s journals too. What had I done to him? And it wasn’t the journals; I knew that. He would just growl and puff and give me mean looks, but he wouldn’t avoid me over it. That just wasn’t like him. I felt a tear slide down my face to the pillow as I drifted off with a foreboding- of what I had no idea. Surely that feeling was just because of what Athlain and I were on our way to face, right?