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[Winter Wolf]

My thoughts are with you mALX in your time of need.

Thanks for taking the time to answer my PM.

I shall whisper a prayer for you tonight.

[Zalphon]

We were married almost twenty years, Steve and me.
When I met him he was driving a Mustang GT
Long brown hair and six foot three
Living on the German Economy

Years of marriage and the son we had
Our paths went askew, our marriage went bad
The divorce was filed, property cut in half
It took two years to finalize
The pieces of our broken lives

I saw him recently for the first time in years
In a hospital bed, I was fighting the tears
The doctors stripped us all of hope
I watched my son as his heart broke

He has just weeks left to live
Kept lucid by a morphine drip
His face is now a sunken hole
The cancer really took its toll

In a few weeks he'll be laid in the ground
With all his family gathered round
For all the laughter, hurts and tears
For all the fun throughout the years
And even for the things we can't undo
I still can't face having to bury you.




Most everyone knows I lost my first husband to cancer, they gave him two months and he just barely squeaked by to nine months before passing.

Well, my second husband and I got divorced, but stayed pretty close through the years. A few weeks ago they found out his cancer from two years ago spread, both lobes of the liver and both lungs so it's inoperable. He has been given two months, almost one has passed. His liver is entirely shut down, he stays yellow colored and has gone from a big mac to an ethiopian.

* Update: The cancer has spread to all his major organs, they are shutting off any measures and stopping chemo. He is getting a morphine drip and being sent home to die.

His family and extended family have all been coming here like they used to when we were together, so it has been a bit hectic besides.

The week after we found out about my X, my current husband had a mild heart problem - mild, but scary.

I haven't even been getting on my email with all this going on. - Tell everyone I apologize for not answering, just crashing as soon as I hit the door since all this started.

I miss everyone <333

His liver is shut down, he is experiencing jaundice, extreme weight loss, and lungs are shutting down? I give my condolences. Malx, if you EVER need to talk, just let me know. I won't judge you, laugh at you, mock you, etc. I will listen, as you have done for me in the past...

[haute ecole rider]

Oh mALX!

Having lost my grandfather, uncle and father to the same thing (throat cancer), and witnessed my best friend's father deteriorate the same way, I know too well how devastating this can be. While we have made great strides against various forms of cancer in recent years, we still lose too many beloved ones to this dread disease.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your son at this difficult time. May you find the comfort you need in your family and friends, including those of us in cyberspace who have missed you terribly these past few weeks.

Take care of yourself, and come back when you are able to. We will be here waiting.

[SubRosa]

So sorry to hear that mALX. I've been there before, and understand how difficult it is to deal with.

[treydog]

mALX- I cannot find words to express how sorry I am for what you and your family are experiencing. Instead, I want to talk about this place. Way back when we were all still “waiting for Oblivion,” some talented and wonderful folks decided they wanted to start an online community. It was not (and is not) intended to compete with the “Official” forum. Instead, it was designed to be a little smaller, a bit more friendly, somewhat more relaxed.

The result you see before you, and you can decide for yourself whether it has been successful. But the key to all of that, what makes it work- is the concept of “community.” We come here to share. We share our stories, our opinions, our triumphs- and yes, our pain. Residents come and go, growing away from this community and finding new ones. And we stay small, and friendly, and relaxed. But mostly, we remain a group of people who care for one another. Visit when you feel the need, write when you can. We will be here. (((mALX1))) from Treydog, Mrs. Treydog, and Princess Juneipurr.

[minque]

mALX...my thoughts are with you in this. I know how you feel, I lost my father about two years ago and the pain was immense, then, now it's a bit better.

We will be here for you, waiting....

[Olen]

mALX, I can only echo what others have said. I am sorry to hear about this but really words fail. I can only wish you strength and comfort for this time and hope that you know that should you need it you can find a sympathetic ear here with any or all of us.

As haute said, take your time and take care of yourself and return here when best suits you. We will be here.

[Black Hand]

mALX,

They say you can't choose your family, and mostly they're right. I was lucky to have my dad, whom passed away just recently. I didn't have to see him go through what you've seen twice. It was sudden, and unexpected.

Now those we do choose to be our family, that's something else entirely, I'd imagine. Somehow deeper and more instrinsic then just waking up to this world, and developing bonds with those who want to give you love and affection. It's something earned, yet not.

Death is never easy, some can take it better then others. However in your case, you are given additional things to deal with, so I can't imagine what its like.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I can feel your pain, but I'm not entirely certain if I can imagine the rest of it, yet, you are not alone.

-BH

[Zalphon]

I have two poems written specifically for Malx, a dear friend of mine...

Tears of a Champion

I take a beating,
I show no pain or woe,
I am stunned by a powerful punch to the skull,
I show no pain or woe,

I watch you cry,
Tears burn my face as they roll down,
Your's burn my very soul like acid on flesh,

I watch you in depression,
I feel a weight around my soul,
It drags me down into a dark abyss,

I am here to listen,
I always will be,
Yet whenever you're sad,
So will my anguish,

Whenever I watch you suffer,
I show no rage, no woe,
I am slowly eaten away internally,

I have watched death,
I have been in it's icy grip,
I have been in what should've been a watery grave,
I am here, but still weakened by your emotion,

I will always be here,
Eternally...


The Moonwalker

I walk in the shadows,
I stare at the moon,
I watch the stars,

I am the shadow in the night,
The creature of the void,
You've seen me before,
You'll see me again,

I am immune to your beatings,
Impervious to your traps,
Invulnerable to your guns,
Yet, your tears are like poison,

I walk in the shadows of the ebon night,
I bathe in the freezing chill of the dusk,
I watch the darkness corrupt people,

I have protected the weak,
Attacked the wicked,
Yet, your tears always bring me down,

I know your name,
I know your story,
I know your life,
I have empathy for all, but not as much as for you,

Your tears are like Nightshade,
Your eyes are like sparkling gems,
Your skin is pristine,

I've seen you fall,
I've seen you rise again,
I've watched you destroy the shadows,
I've watched you embrace the darkness,

Yet, your tears are my bane,
Your anguish is my terror,
You're are my hero,
When you're glum,
I am too,

I'll never leave,
Because you are one of my dearest friends,
I'll be alive long after you, yet I'll always remember,
I am the Moonwalker, Eternal,

However, I will always remember,
My closest friends,
Which I count you amongst...


Malx, I hope you always find happiness in life. You're a true friend to me and always will be.

[ureniashtram]

(stands up and claps to Zalphon's poem) That was just epic, Zalph!

[Zalphon]

Everyone seems to enjoy my poetry, I've read it to several different people, and they love it.

[minque]

Yes.....are you surprised? It's darn good you know!!

[D.Foxy]

This is what I posted in the other forums.

Perhaps, Rosa, and others, it may be applicable to you as wel...

And I believe.

I believe that Love finds all that was lost
I believe that Love pays for all Karma's cost
I believe that Love forgives all in one breath -
And I believe ... that Love ... is stronger than Death.

[Zalphon]

Malx, when will you come back?

The stories aren't the same without you

The blackness of Edgar Allen Poe's soul symbolizes the bleakness of these forums without you...

[minque]

Heatwave...sucks the gut out of everybody...I know I shouldn't complain about the weather but..pleeeease, give some rest from this everlasting heat! And I'm not even on holiday! Working I am, one more week! bleh!

Poor kitty is not happy with this either....just lying in the shadows, not moving unless it's necessary, i.e to drink some water. Food? nah....not very interesting..

[Acadian]

Oh my, minque. I though you lived where the climate was like Skyrim? What kind of temps are you having?

[minque]

Oh aye! I do live in Sky....ehhh Sweden...And we're not so used to high temperatures, Now we have had about 30-33 degrees Celsius for a couple of weeks and ...nope it's too high, far too high.

I prefer about 23-25 degrees!

Hmm and we did have a very very cold and snowy winter!!!

Weather is extreme now..

[Acadian]

Ah, I understand. That is pretty warm for anywhere methinks, especially if you're not used to it.

I live in the mountains of southern Nevada. Although it's 40 degrees today, there is a nice breeze, it's lovely and DRY, and we're used to it. I would never survive Sweden I think. We only visit Bruma, in fact, when we have to.

I do hope it cools down for you soon though.

[Zalphon]

Wow, you guys are weird. I live in Morrowind. Surrounded by xenophobic people and mushroom trees! Or wait was that my friend's home when he did LSD, Peyote, and Psilocybin Mushrooms after Morrowind? Nonetheless, I'm surrounded by xenophobic people at least!

[DarkZerker]

Wow...I don't know how you survive in Vegas Acadian. I've only stayed there for 4 days for my uncle's business meeting and it's HOT AND DRY.

I loves Seattle and The Imperial City. I love Chorrol more though