D.Foxy: Thank goodness that Teresa can heal herself! I always think of
Doug Seus and Bart the Bear when I picture Teresa and Bearenziah.
haute ecole rider: I think fishy bear breath is probably the worse. I am sure Teresa can fix that with some bergamot though.

Only a faint smile though. We will not be seeing more than that for a while.
Acadian: Teresa cannot forget that hair gel! A girl has her priorities after all. I never thought of comparing Bearenziah to Sir Mazoga. Perfect!
ghastley:

Somehow I think Teresa could tell though...
Grits: I put a lot of thought into whether there would be no fraternizing rules in the FG. After all Pappy lost his job as Guild Champion after being accused of showing favoritism to female members who slept with him. I don't see the FG as really being a very formal organization, with a lot of strict rules outside of the no felons and the guild's percentage of contracts. Not just internal regulations, but also in how the guild interacts with the rest of society. I figure each chapter varies wildly according to its leadership. For example, we know that Pappy works well with Kud-Ei, so the Bravil FG also has a good relationship with the MG. But I imagine there is absolutely no cooperation between Burz and Falcar in Cheydhinhal. So while Teresa gets a discount in spell instruction, Keld of the Isles over in Cheydinhal get does not.
What I eventually came up with is that there is no official policy on fraternization, but OTOH, it can lead to the same accusations that Pappy suffered from. So it is certainly frowned upon. If Tadrose ever became a guild commander, it would eventually become an issue. I can see Teresa simply quitting the guild at that point.
It also caused me to sit down and think about exactly what Tadrose does compared to Pappy. As XO, her main job is to see to the day-to-day running of the guild hall. She pays the bills, hires and oversees the domestic staff, that sort of thing. While Pappy is the one who negotiates the contracts, and assigns them to members. We have never really seen what Tadrose's responsibilities are. Perhaps I can illuminate them in chapter 41 though.
Previously on Teresa of the Faint Smile: In our last episode, Pappy dropped a ton of bricks on Teresa concerning how much Tadrose is attracted to her. Teresa also had a happy reunion with her bear friend Barenziah. Next - in our final segment of this chapter - we return to Bravil, and Tadrose
Chapter 39.6 – Picking Flowers"Gaius told me that his heart nearly stopped when you ran up to the bear." Tadrose twisted her fork around a glob of udon noodles. "You really shouldn't do that to him you know. He's not as young as you or I."
Teresa smiled faintly as she looked at the Dunmer. The pair sat at a food stand just off Riverwalk. People of all races were crowded around, eating the same udon. An Argonian worked behind the counter cooking more of the noodles and the thin broth they served it in. Another chopped scallions and sprinkled them atop the bowls of hot udon that she served to the customers. A third lizardine collected the used bowls and forks, hastily washed them, and gave them back to the second to use again. It looked frantic and chaotic, but the Argonians never missed a customer, noodle, or bowl.
"I know," Teresa said. "I just could not help it. I haven't seen Barenziah since the tournament. I was just so relieved that she was alright, I had to give her a hug."
"You are the only person I know who would even think of hugging a bear." Tadrose smiled and shook her head. "You're mad, you know that don't you?"
"I'm just myself," Teresa shrugged.
"And I wouldn't have it any other way Teresa," Tadrose smiled again. "So did you really spend the entire day with the bear? Gaius said that was your plan when he came back to the guild hall, dejected."
"All night too." Teresa paused to take a bite of the hot, soft noodles. The broth was delicate, but tasty, and she took a moment to savor it before swallowing. "I take it that means Pappy had to go to the ball then?"
"Aye," Tadrose nodded around a mouthful of the noodles. "He hates them. Our guild commander is more at home drinking moonshine and playing cards then dancing and making small talk with aristocrats. But he has to go to keep up contacts. Many of our contracts come from patricians and equites who meet him at the balls."
"So why don't you ever go?" Teresa asked before taking a sip of milk. "It sounds like he'd be happy for you to take his place."
"Balls are not for me." Tadrose looked away for a moment, then turned her gaze back to Teresa. "Besides, I have work in the forge to do."
"Is that what you do because of Bruma?" Teresa found the words spilling from her mouth before she could dam them up, and instantly regretted it.
The Dunmer stared back at Teresa for long moments. The wood elf felt her heart lurch in her chest. Had she just ruined her chances with the armorer? Would she be offended, or hurt?
"Maybe it is," Tadrose finally said in a soft voice. "Working on metal gets my mind off… the other things in life. It gives me a sense of peace I never thought I'd find again after Morrowind. That is what the forest is to you, is it not?"
Teresa nodded, and slurped up another forkful of noodles. She had not failed to note that Tadrose had mentioned Morrowind again. The armorer rarely ever spoke of her life there, and always changed the subject immediately afterward. What had happened to her there? What had made her leave, and move to Bravil of all places? The most she had ever said was that she had made a mistake once. What did that mean? What kind of mistake made someone leave an entire province?
"The forest is the home I never knew I had," Teresa finally said when her mouth was empty. "I never set foot in it before last Spring. But now it's where I feel most alive."
"I thought so," Tadrose said. "I was worried that you might not go when Gaius asked you."
Teresa's eyebrows beetled together. "How did you know he was going to do that?" the forester asked.
"It was my idea," Tadrose admitted. "That is why I hid your ingredients. But Gaius insisted he be the one to bring it up, and go with you."
"You hid my-" Teresa gaped at the armorer. "But that…"
"Yes, I know, it was devious," the vice-commander said. "But I didn't know any other way to get you back out in the forest. As the saying goes:
'If the mountain won't go to the Tribunal, then the Tribunal must go to the mountain.' I am glad you went, I can see the difference in you."
"You can?" Teresa blinked, not sure what to think after the Dunmer's admission. Could Pappy have been right after all? Could Tadrose's meddling be because she truly did care? Or was she just a meddler by nature? How well did she really know the dark elf?
"It is like you are an entirely different person," Tadrose insisted. "Whatever it was you needed, it looks like you found it out there."
"I suppose so," Teresa stared down at her empty bowl. "I had a lot of time to think, with just me and Barenziah."
"And?" Tadrose's hand drifted extremely close to Teresa's, nearly enough to touch.
"If these ones are going to sit, more noodles they will order." A husky voice came to Teresa's ears. Both she and Tadrose looked up at the same time to find one of the Argonians standing over them. "Otherwise these ones must make room for others."
A glance around showed more people standing in line to eat. Feeling sheepish, Teresa rose to her feet and allowed the Argonian to clear away her bowl. With Tadrose in tow, she walked to a low, wooden railing. Beyond it the ground sloped down sharply to the interior harbor, where the masts of a tall galleon rose beside one of the docks. Teresa sat down and slipped her legs between the molded shafts of the barricade, and rested her arms upon the coping.
"What was it like for you, after Bruma?" Teresa turned to Tadrose. The Dunmer sat gently upon the thick railing and looked down at Teresa.
"To be honest, I was never very close with anyone in the guild then." The armorer's eyes took on a faraway look as she spoke. "But it was still hard. Everything felt unreal for me, like I had been kicked in the head by a horse and was in a fog."
"It didn't really sink in until we came back, and the hall was so empty. It was always filled with life, the way it is now. I kept expecting to see Corentin reading a new book in the sitting room, or Hirtuleius carving up a side of venison in the kitchen. I kept waiting to hear Paol arguing over a card game, or Morning-Star bragging about Storm-Tail's grades."
"Even now, whenever I step in your room I expect to see Seridwe at the dressing table, doing up her hair. She was always so incredibly vain about that. Sometimes it seemed like there was nothing more important in her life. That's why Gaius had the best hairdresser in Bruma style it for her, before we buried her."
"It must be hard to stay here, with all those memories." Now Teresa found her fingers drifting over Tadrose's.
"It was, at first." Tadrose turned her hand over, and gently wrapped her fingers around those of Teresa. "But you cannot run forever. Eventually you have to face your Daedra."
"So how did you face yours?" Teresa bit her lip as she stared into the dark elf's eyes.
"It was not any one sudden moment of epiphany, if that is what you are thinking," Tadrose replied. "I just came to accept what happened, and understand that what we did was the right thing. Their deaths were not pointless. They made a real difference. Someday it might be my turn, and I will do the same. Because some things are worth sacrificing for, worth dying for."
Teresa nodded, and looked back down the slope of the riverbank to the ship below. Its decks were swarming with stevedores carrying off its cargo. The larger - and Teresa imagined heavier - crates were loaded together on a net and hauled up the steep riverbank by a crane and winch at street level. The smaller bags and sacks were simply carried up the stairs over the shoulders of burly Orisimer, Imperials, and a few men of other races.
"What has it been like, for you?" Tadrose broke the silence.
"The same," Teresa breathed. She looked back up at Tadrose. "I keep thinking I am going to see Marius whenever I step through the North Gate. I never really thought about it when he was alive, but he was my friend, and I miss him."
Teresa swallowed hard, and looked away as she felt her throat tighten up, choking off her words. Tadrose's fingers were warm however, and squeezed her own gently. That was enough to dispel the knot in her throat, and Teresa looked back to the Dunmer.
"I've seen a lot of people die this year Tadrose," she found herself saying. "Maybe not a lot to other people, but a lot to me. The Emperor, Marius, Attius, Gelephor, and people whose names I'll never even know. I heard Emperor Martin's last words, just before he died, just as I did his father's. I can still see their faces, when I close my eyes."
"They've made me realize something." Teresa's eyes grew bleary with barely restrained tears. "I'm not alone in this world. I can't just go on like the lives of other people are not affected by me, or me by theirs. I'm a part of something greater than just myself, something more important. I have a responsibility to the people around me, to do better than I have, to do more. I have to make up for my mistakes, so that those faces won't stare at me unkindly. The Emperor told me that it is our choices in life that define us. I never really understood that until now."
Tadrose sighed, and sat down beside the Bosmer. Teresa felt one of the dark elf's arms wrap around her, and draw her close. She let her head fall onto Tadrose's shoulder, and closed her eyes as the Dunmer's other hand caressed her face. Teresa held on tight to the other woman, and let her tears slip free.
"You are a good person Teresa," the Dunmer whispered into her ear. "In time, those faces won't seem like they're accusing. They'll just be old friends stopping by to say hello."
This post has been edited by SubRosa: Sep 30 2011, 12:54 AM